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Depression and Self-Harming - Please read

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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Originally posted by Randomgirl
    Kirsty,

    I was just wondering how you are doing today and how the revision and stuff is going.

    I am doing a lot better.:) Thankfully. I've got out of my rut and have only done one tiny cut since the 13th. Schools going alright, exams are stressful but im trying really hard and yeh..i'm doing ok . How about you? Hows things?
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Originally posted by Girl_gunner
    I am doing a lot better.:) Thankfully. I've got out of my rut and have only done one tiny cut since the 13th. Schools going alright, exams are stressful but im trying really hard and yeh..i'm doing ok . How about you? Hows things?
    Yay. That's so good to hear :)

    As for me... I'm fairly random. Up and down but never inbetween. I'm sleeping well on my new AD's but my mood is still low most of the time. As for self-harm I sometimes don't have the energy to do anything at all. But if I have the energy to get out of bed and do something then SH is my usual choice.
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Originally posted by Randomgirl
    Yay. That's so good to hear :)

    As for me... I'm fairly random. Up and down but never inbetween. I'm sleeping well on my new AD's but my mood is still low most of the time. As for self-harm I sometimes don't have the energy to do anything at all. But if I have the energy to get out of bed and do something then SH is my usual choice.

    Well its good to hear you're sleeping better, sad that they're not working so well:( think about going back to Brazil! Things will improve :)
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Originally posted by Girl_gunner
    Well its good to hear you're sleeping better, sad that they're not working so well:( think about going back to Brazil! Things will improve :)
    Yep... trying to focus on going back to Brazil. I can't wait til August the 16th!
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    I can't hack it much longer. I know I'm just ranting but I seriously can't. Well, that's a lie I also know I probably will. I've tried to cut my wrists and it doesn't work so I've spent the last week trying to hide the cuts from my mother, let alone my friends. I can't strangle myself. Nothing damn well works and my mum's hidden all the painkillers. I can't work, and I can't concentrate. Most of all I can't talk to anyone because I'm not exactly the only one of my friends with exams. I just want to curl up in a ball and cry and never get up again.
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    *hugs* nothing much I can say that is useful, other than i'm a PM away if you wanna talk :)
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Oh piccolo, sweetie, you can and will hack it. You are having a tough time of it at the moment and nasty exams and the stress of them always makes thing 10 zillion times worse but you will come out the other side OK. Plus you always have us to talk to, and what happened with seeking counselling? I can bet you your mates aren't exactly loving exams right now either so a chat to one of them may make you feel les alone in all of this.

    Take care my dear, be strong

    Hugs,

    Susie x

    If you need another ear these are all good people:

    Careline
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    Telephone: 020 8875 0500

    SANELINE
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    Samaritans
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    I don't know what peoples feelings are about this, or if this has already been covered, but if you SI, do you think it is up to you to decide when to stop, or are you being selfish by continuing as this could hurt others who are close to you?
    I know I go on and on about my parents, but that's occupying the majority of my head at the moment (that and exams) and they have taken me to docs and psychiatrists and are watching me and treating me like a child because they found out i cut by reading my journal. Now they just won't leave the house and I want to be left on my own, I like being home alone, and are yelling at me and saying it's my fault mum's now going to go on anti depressents and stuff.. And when dad found out I couldnt remember anything from childhood he has changed his story and said mum didnt hit me, and made me feel like an attention seeking brat and i just dont know what to think.. but it's my body and if i dont choose to stop then i shouldnt be forced to, right? i expressed this opinion on ivillage and a mother told me i had a distinct lack of emotional immaturity, or a large amount of arrogance or something, for not accepting I have a problem.. and i DO accept it, just didn't want my parents to know about it, ever, and I havent cut for weeks anyway..
    I just needed to get that out.
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Originally posted by Susie
    Plus you always have us to talk to, and what happened with seeking counselling?
    I've been seeing a therapist for a couple of years. She thinks things are getting better so I have to trust her judgement, don't I? I was feeling a bit worse than usual when I wrote that, I'm sorry. I know I'm not on my own and I appreciate that. Thanks.
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    so many people have been telling me to get help, on here and my close friends to get help. and i can't because i'm too scared of the consequenses........so many people i know what become much worse when going for supossed "help".
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Originally posted by luby
    so many people have been telling me to get help, on here and my close friends to get help. and i can't because i'm too scared of the consequenses........so many people i know what become much worse when going for supossed "help".
    You have to be prepared to feel worse to get better. You can't have counselling without facing the dark things that make you behave as you are. It's crap but it's true. Sorry.

    The moral of that is, you have to focus on the outcome. I know this can't last forever, and that keeps me going. It's so hard to be positive but I know you can do it once you start.
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Originally posted by piccolo
    I've been seeing a therapist for a couple of years. She thinks things are getting better so I have to trust her judgement, don't I? I was feeling a bit worse than usual when I wrote that, I'm sorry. I know I'm not on my own and I appreciate that. Thanks.

    D'oh, I knew that

    and you don't need to apologise

    Take Care

    S x

    :)
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    No sooner said....

    Just had an appointment with the therapist I've been seeing and she wants to stop seeing me in August. So I have three months left to sort my life out and I'm scared.

    Edited to add that Mum decided now would be a good time to talk about everything. Why does it all happen at once? Grumble, grumble...
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Originally posted by piccolo
    she wants to stop seeing me in August.
    Why?
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Originally posted by Randomgirl
    Why?
    I'm actually not sure. She said it after we'd finished for the day so I didn't have a chance to ask.
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Originally posted by piccolo
    I'm actually not sure. She said it after we'd finished for the day so I didn't have a chance to ask.
    Do you pay to see her?
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Originally posted by Randomgirl
    Do you pay to see her?
    No. So if she wants to stop I guess I have to. I'll go back to my GP though and see if he can refer me on again.
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Originally posted by piccolo
    No. So if she wants to stop I guess I have to. I'll go back to my GP though and see if he can refer me on again.
    Maybe it's because there is a set time limit or something. Or maybe it's because she thinks you're getting better.

    I had a fixed time with my counsillor that I got through uni which was 6 weeks which was way to short to actually get anywhere... but I kind of thought that in any length of time with him I wouldn't get better as it was not very useful for me- it was general counsilling which is probably better for recent event triggered depression or very specific problems.

    3 month is what... 12 sessions. You could still make some progress in that time. Don't feel that you have to have sorted your whole life out in this time... just make the most of it and then go back to your GP at the end if you still aren't better.
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Originally posted by Randomgirl
    3 month is what... 12 sessions. You could still make some progress in that time. Don't feel that you have to have sorted your whole life out in this time... just make the most of it and then go back to your GP at the end if you still aren't better.
    It's actually going to end up being 3. One next month and two in August. I didn't intend to go back to my GP right now, but after nearly 2 years I don't think there's much I can do in 3 sessions.
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Originally posted by piccolo
    It's actually going to end up being 3. One next month and two in August. I didn't intend to go back to my GP right now, but after nearly 2 years I don't think there's much I can do in 3 sessions.
    Oh ok. But if you are not getting better/ get worse you really should go back to your GP.
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    If you are on the NHS normally the treatment is restricted in time, to an extent at least. I've been seeing my therapist for nearly two years, and when I started going it was supposedly only for two years. I'm not actually sure what's going to happen after the summer, and if I try and bring it up it becomes a discussion about "what that means to me" :mad:
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    That sucks. If you were "physically" ill they wouldn't withdraw treatment until everything was ok.
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Why is self-harm so addictive?

    Why can't I stop?
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Oh my god. I just did the positively most stupid thing ever. I thought I was getting better and I was on psyke.org and I looked at all the pictures. Now I feel physically sick with the need to cut. Fuck. I'm trying every distraction technique under the sun. But I cant shake it. :mad: *panics* [/end rant]

    edited coz i missed words
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Originally posted by Girl_gunner
    Oh my god. I just did the positively most stupid thing ever. I thought I was getting better and I was on psyke.org and I looked at all the pictures. Now I feel physically sick with the need to cut. Fuck. I'm trying every distraction technique under the sun. But I cant shake it. :mad: *panics* [/end rant]

    edited coz i missed words
    Well you don't need me to tell you not to look at things that trigger! But I guess that would make me a hypocrite to say the least.

    I don't really know any good distraction methods to stop cutting. Except for maybe scalding but I don't know which is worse- and at the end of the day it's still self-harm.

    I can't think of anything useful to say today.
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Originally posted by Girl_gunner
    I was on psyke.org
    I've just been on there but didn't have the guts to open any of the photos.

    I have so many reasons to slice my thighs up right now that I don't need any additional inspiration.
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Originally posted by Randomgirl
    I've just been on there but didn't have the guts to open any of the photos.

    I have so many reasons to slice my thighs up right now that I don't need any additional inspiration.

    I looked. And I wish I hadn't.

    How can triggering pictures benefit a "support" site?
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    *gone*
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Yeh Randomgirl I know it was stupid.Hope your ok. I really dont get what goes through my head sometimes. I didnt cut. I used every ounce of will power in my body. I do agrfee psyke is a very useful site, I just used the wrong stuff
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    *gone*
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