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feeling so unwanted☹️
this is probably really pathetic but i genuinely do feel so so unwanted in this world. my sister is always the one that’s more loved than me. it hurts so much. on my birthday, all i got from cousins etc was the generic message facebook already has set when it’s someone’s birthday, some of them were actually a few days late too. my sisters birthday, not even 8am and my cousins etc are all posting photos of her through the years with such cute little happy birthday messages. the part that’s got me even more is one of the photos i was actually in but on the specific post, i was cut out of it completely. it’s so silly i know but it just hurts so so much that she’s always been more loved and wanted by me - it’s always been that way.
i don’t really care about if people say happy birthday or not or stuff like that, its just the principle of the situation. what do i do that’s so wrong to be so disliked by everybody.
i don’t really care about if people say happy birthday or not or stuff like that, its just the principle of the situation. what do i do that’s so wrong to be so disliked by everybody.
Work Capability Assessment
I got a letter through the post saying that I need to attend an appointment for a work capability assessment. I don`t really understand what this is about so I was wondering if anyone here has been through it and can explain it to me. One of my sisters was meant to go with me but she is unable to make it due to work commitments. As the letter only came through yesterday, it is too short notice for her to get the time off. So I`m having to get a friend to go with me instead. Going into London is hard enough let alone when it is a part I don`t even know.

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Moving on
The mix should make a goodbye section for the boards😂
Anyway, I don’t really have a massive goodbye post to write, I just wanted to pass on my thank yous and not just disappear.
I joined The Mix for support, I stayed for the community. This website was home for so many of us and lately I’ve been missing that homely community feel. Hard to put a finger on what’s changed, it just doesn’t feel like it was. Maybe because so many people I care so deeply about have left. Idk.
But, change is fine and I hope the new members find the mix as helpful as I did when I first joined.
I’ll be forever grateful for the friendships I’ve made on here. I’ve had so many funny conversations with so many of you. I’ve been very lucky & If we don’t stay in touch, I wish ye all the blessings in the world 🍀
Good luck with uni, family life, getting jobs, falling in love. The whole lot. You all deserve the best that life has to offer.
A big thank you also to the mods & staff for everything you do for us all.
Bye bye😃 👋🏼
Anyway, I don’t really have a massive goodbye post to write, I just wanted to pass on my thank yous and not just disappear.
I joined The Mix for support, I stayed for the community. This website was home for so many of us and lately I’ve been missing that homely community feel. Hard to put a finger on what’s changed, it just doesn’t feel like it was. Maybe because so many people I care so deeply about have left. Idk.
But, change is fine and I hope the new members find the mix as helpful as I did when I first joined.
I’ll be forever grateful for the friendships I’ve made on here. I’ve had so many funny conversations with so many of you. I’ve been very lucky & If we don’t stay in touch, I wish ye all the blessings in the world 🍀
Good luck with uni, family life, getting jobs, falling in love. The whole lot. You all deserve the best that life has to offer.
A big thank you also to the mods & staff for everything you do for us all.
Bye bye😃 👋🏼

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🔴 Sign up: Navigating Changes on our Community Boards
Hey Everyone,
We know that change can be difficult, and the team have heard the community's worries about the recent changes at The Mix, especially since the merger. We want to acknowledge the feelings you've shared – the frustration, uncertainty, and perhaps even some sadness about things feeling different?
Your voices are so important to us, and we really appreciate you taking the time and energy to express what's on your mind. We understand that these changes, including those related to moderators and the updated Community Guidelines, have impacted our community in various ways. We recognise that these shifts can bring up a range of emotions, and we want to create a safe space to explore those feelings together.
With all of this in mind, we're inviting you to a youth voice session focused on navigating change within our community, led by myself and Talie. This isn't just about discussing the changes themselves, but also about acknowledging how they've affected us and exploring how The Mix can communicate any changes with you in the best ways moving forward.
Join us on:
Date: February 26th
Time: 6:30 PM - 7:30 PM
Location: Chatwee
I wanted to open this space up to the wider community, beyond our youth voice group (Community Connectors), so if you are wanting to come along to share your thoughts please sign up HERE and I will email you the password to the room on the day.
Any questions, let me know
Ella and The Team
We know that change can be difficult, and the team have heard the community's worries about the recent changes at The Mix, especially since the merger. We want to acknowledge the feelings you've shared – the frustration, uncertainty, and perhaps even some sadness about things feeling different?
Your voices are so important to us, and we really appreciate you taking the time and energy to express what's on your mind. We understand that these changes, including those related to moderators and the updated Community Guidelines, have impacted our community in various ways. We recognise that these shifts can bring up a range of emotions, and we want to create a safe space to explore those feelings together.
With all of this in mind, we're inviting you to a youth voice session focused on navigating change within our community, led by myself and Talie. This isn't just about discussing the changes themselves, but also about acknowledging how they've affected us and exploring how The Mix can communicate any changes with you in the best ways moving forward.
Join us on:
Date: February 26th
Time: 6:30 PM - 7:30 PM
Location: Chatwee
I wanted to open this space up to the wider community, beyond our youth voice group (Community Connectors), so if you are wanting to come along to share your thoughts please sign up HERE and I will email you the password to the room on the day.
Any questions, let me know

Ella and The Team


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Re: Goodbye from me 🩷🦆
This is sad but at the same time it’s completely understandable because I’ve been feeling the same way.
You’ve been a massive part of this community Chloe and I feel very lucky to be able to consider you a friend. 💚
The mix will always be here if you ever need to get anything off your chest and you always know where to find me if you need a good auld chat
You’ve been a massive part of this community Chloe and I feel very lucky to be able to consider you a friend. 💚
The mix will always be here if you ever need to get anything off your chest and you always know where to find me if you need a good auld chat

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Goodbye from me 🩷🦆
Hey guys 🩷 I'm writing this with a really heavy heart but I've been thinking and I think it's my time to move on from TheMix.
I've been part of this community at the mix for about 3 years now and I've loved getting to know loads of different people as well as being able to bond and engage with the volunteers, community members and staff at the mix. Ive made so many amazing friends, and have had so many amazing experiences within this community. Wether that'd be through the small discussions here on the boards, on chatwee or through volunteering within YouthVoice. And I really felt able to shine and just generally be myself! 🩷
This community has made me grow massively as a person in confidence as well as letting my personality thrive and I am honoured to have had the chance to get to be part of this community. Recently it may have been noticed however that I have possibly not been posting, not really talking or coming to chats, or even just engaging everyday how I used to and part of it is quite literally because I've just moved on but it's also partly because the changes have been a lot and it feels like along with the changes some things aren't how they used to be and I feel that also makes me feel like it's my time to move on.
I will really miss this community 🩷🦆 and I will always remember how fun I found things like the funny chats some of us would have within the support groups, the love and acceptance everyone had for my obsession with rubber ducks, or even just the quizzes I had the pleasure of hosting for you all! (And I could keep going with this list!)
This choice hasn't been an easy one for me at all. And I wouldn't have been able to get to where I am today without any of you so thankyou 🩷 I want you to remember that you are all so strong and can get through anything. Some things may feel like they aren't gonna get any better but I believe that if you keep fighting and keep doing as well as you are now then it will get better.
I may visit or check in every once in a while but for now this is the start of my new journey and this is me saying goodbye 🦆🩷 love yall!
Duck
I've been part of this community at the mix for about 3 years now and I've loved getting to know loads of different people as well as being able to bond and engage with the volunteers, community members and staff at the mix. Ive made so many amazing friends, and have had so many amazing experiences within this community. Wether that'd be through the small discussions here on the boards, on chatwee or through volunteering within YouthVoice. And I really felt able to shine and just generally be myself! 🩷
This community has made me grow massively as a person in confidence as well as letting my personality thrive and I am honoured to have had the chance to get to be part of this community. Recently it may have been noticed however that I have possibly not been posting, not really talking or coming to chats, or even just engaging everyday how I used to and part of it is quite literally because I've just moved on but it's also partly because the changes have been a lot and it feels like along with the changes some things aren't how they used to be and I feel that also makes me feel like it's my time to move on.
I will really miss this community 🩷🦆 and I will always remember how fun I found things like the funny chats some of us would have within the support groups, the love and acceptance everyone had for my obsession with rubber ducks, or even just the quizzes I had the pleasure of hosting for you all! (And I could keep going with this list!)
This choice hasn't been an easy one for me at all. And I wouldn't have been able to get to where I am today without any of you so thankyou 🩷 I want you to remember that you are all so strong and can get through anything. Some things may feel like they aren't gonna get any better but I believe that if you keep fighting and keep doing as well as you are now then it will get better.
I may visit or check in every once in a while but for now this is the start of my new journey and this is me saying goodbye 🦆🩷 love yall!
Duck

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I don't have any friends and I don't feel like I will find my people
Throughout my life I have never had any issues making friends when I was in school. I had a lot of friends in primary and secondary school. Even when I was in university I talked to everyone and I enjoyed socialising.
I do have mental health issues but people can't tell due to how talkative and easy going I am.
Ever since I graduated 2 years ago, no-one speaks to me or reaches out to ask me how I am. I know the phone and messages goes both ways but I am tired and exhausted always reaching out to others and I hate it. I hate having to be the first person to initiate everything all the time when others are lazy to reciprocate it.
I do want some advice on this, but not the one where everyone says go outside, volunteer, join a club or hobby. It is always the standard answers and people don't even bother. I do volunteer and did join hobbies and nothing came out of it.
When will people realise and wake up that this is harmful. Treating other people like they are disposable and inconvenient is horrible. I have been there so many times and I am tired of it. Everytime I have tried to make friends, people just use me and throw me away like I mean nothing.
So what am I meant to do? I sometimes wish I could move to another country and start over again.
I do have mental health issues but people can't tell due to how talkative and easy going I am.
Ever since I graduated 2 years ago, no-one speaks to me or reaches out to ask me how I am. I know the phone and messages goes both ways but I am tired and exhausted always reaching out to others and I hate it. I hate having to be the first person to initiate everything all the time when others are lazy to reciprocate it.
I do want some advice on this, but not the one where everyone says go outside, volunteer, join a club or hobby. It is always the standard answers and people don't even bother. I do volunteer and did join hobbies and nothing came out of it.
When will people realise and wake up that this is harmful. Treating other people like they are disposable and inconvenient is horrible. I have been there so many times and I am tired of it. Everytime I have tried to make friends, people just use me and throw me away like I mean nothing.
So what am I meant to do? I sometimes wish I could move to another country and start over again.
TW mentions of suicide. Getting over the guilt
I’ve been sending a few days thinking about how I want to write this post and I think I’ve finally got it. Recently I went to see dear evan Hansen the musical, which was incredible but the acting was so raw and the themes so real it brought back a few things I prefer not to think about. The main point is when evan said to his mother ‘you would hate me if you knew what I tried’. And it reminded me of even though they aren’t aware of it what I very nearly put my family through and the guilt I feel daily of how much it would have ruined them. I still feel so so guilty that I vowed to never put them through it and whenever I think like that it is them that stops me. I also wrote something that I think describes what I am feeling a bit better than I can on here.
Thanks
‘ I don’t think you ever truly recover from the guilt of the future you might have left behind. Just one bit further and that would’ve been it. You wouldn’t have made it out. They would’ve come home calling to an empty echoing house devoid of life. Hand shaking, hearts breaking as they desperately try to pull you back to the place you have left. The letters would be there sure, but that’s shallow comfort in the world you would’ve created. They would pace the room searching and scrambling for what they could’ve done. You would not be there to tell them they did all they could. Outside the door four black paws scratching, where is she. I don’t understand. He never will. The family photo sits there a painful reminder of what was, and what can never be again. Your father would become angry. How could she be so selfish? After everything I gave her. He will never be able to answer that question. Your mother on the other hand will wilt and become a ghost of who she used to be. She will sit on your bed holding your cat, dreading the day the final piece of her daughter will depart with his furry form. She will never stop asking why she wasn’t home. Your sister will become frozen. She will graduate uni barley scraping past. She will not amount to what she should’ve been. The weight of your loss pins her to her childhood bedroom. She will not see the world. Your family will never be what it was and the guilt of that keeps you here.’
Thanks
‘ I don’t think you ever truly recover from the guilt of the future you might have left behind. Just one bit further and that would’ve been it. You wouldn’t have made it out. They would’ve come home calling to an empty echoing house devoid of life. Hand shaking, hearts breaking as they desperately try to pull you back to the place you have left. The letters would be there sure, but that’s shallow comfort in the world you would’ve created. They would pace the room searching and scrambling for what they could’ve done. You would not be there to tell them they did all they could. Outside the door four black paws scratching, where is she. I don’t understand. He never will. The family photo sits there a painful reminder of what was, and what can never be again. Your father would become angry. How could she be so selfish? After everything I gave her. He will never be able to answer that question. Your mother on the other hand will wilt and become a ghost of who she used to be. She will sit on your bed holding your cat, dreading the day the final piece of her daughter will depart with his furry form. She will never stop asking why she wasn’t home. Your sister will become frozen. She will graduate uni barley scraping past. She will not amount to what she should’ve been. The weight of your loss pins her to her childhood bedroom. She will not see the world. Your family will never be what it was and the guilt of that keeps you here.’
Your Most Memorable Cup Of Tea

I saw such a beautiful video on TikTok this morning where a man was going around a local park in London and offering strangers a mug of tea. He would then sit down with them and start a conversation beginning with the question:
"What would be your most memorable cup of tea in your life?"
The conversations this opened up with strangers were so moving - gentle stories of loneliness and friendship and kindness.
So I wanted to throw the question out to YOU!
...What would be your most memorable cup of tea in your life.... so far?



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Caregiver to a little (age regression) (TW)
So I have a friend who age regresses and she has a tricky background and when she is little she will often call me “mummy” I’m okay with her calling me that because I know she trusts me and I’m her safe person but sometimes I feel like it goes to far a bit.
She often tells me that she needs “smack smacks” which is a big trigger for me but I try to shove it away for her but I often find I got to say “no darling we don’t deserve that to happen” and then she gets upset very upset and will hurt herself or swear at me or yell just so she can give me a reason to punish her 🙁
It’s reached a point where she will hurt herself straight away if I don’t “punish” her for being “bad” so now I’ve had to resort into telling her to sit by the wall when she’s “bad” she is only ever happy to be there for minimum 10 mins but when she is in that age regressive state I am aware that she has no sense of time skills so I usually just say time is up after a few minutes.
When she was in hospital her nurse would often contact me whenever she would ask for punishments especially after I reported her previous nurse. Yeah my friend is in a different country but if anyone harms her like a nurse did I will report straight away which is what I did so that nurse got fired and she got a new nurse who was so much nicer but she would often ask to speak to me about my friend she never revealed anything that she shouldn’t like patient confidential stuff and I always made sure she didn’t tell me that stuff she would just ask how to support her age regression.
I guess this is the problem at hand
As much as I do act as her caregiver cos I’m her safe person it is so so so draining dealing with a little, no one understands the fear that comes with it, she has been regressed for 2 months straight and I just can’t do anything more for her.
She often tells me that she needs “smack smacks” which is a big trigger for me but I try to shove it away for her but I often find I got to say “no darling we don’t deserve that to happen” and then she gets upset very upset and will hurt herself or swear at me or yell just so she can give me a reason to punish her 🙁
It’s reached a point where she will hurt herself straight away if I don’t “punish” her for being “bad” so now I’ve had to resort into telling her to sit by the wall when she’s “bad” she is only ever happy to be there for minimum 10 mins but when she is in that age regressive state I am aware that she has no sense of time skills so I usually just say time is up after a few minutes.
When she was in hospital her nurse would often contact me whenever she would ask for punishments especially after I reported her previous nurse. Yeah my friend is in a different country but if anyone harms her like a nurse did I will report straight away which is what I did so that nurse got fired and she got a new nurse who was so much nicer but she would often ask to speak to me about my friend she never revealed anything that she shouldn’t like patient confidential stuff and I always made sure she didn’t tell me that stuff she would just ask how to support her age regression.
I guess this is the problem at hand
As much as I do act as her caregiver cos I’m her safe person it is so so so draining dealing with a little, no one understands the fear that comes with it, she has been regressed for 2 months straight and I just can’t do anything more for her.

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