If you need urgent support, call 999 or go to your nearest A&E. To contact our Crisis Messenger (open 24/7) text THEMIX to 85258.
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Re: [TW: Suicide] its been exhausting
From experience with Hopeline they can take a couple hours to 24hrs to reply, they suggest using their online chat or phoning up.
Hope your okay @eylah, sending hugs 🫂. Always here if you need it ❤️
Hope your okay @eylah, sending hugs 🫂. Always here if you need it ❤️
Re: (TW suicide) I wanna die so badly
im glad your feeling better then yesterday @bignosegirly0 i know things were hard for you but your doing your best and im proud of you 
always here if you need to talk or anything.
always here if you need to talk or anything. 
eylah
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Re: (TW suicide) I wanna die so badly
@bignosegirly0 if helpful, I will share some more links here so you have them to hand
Some Helplines for more immediate, 1:1 support.....
How do these sound? I wonder if there are any here that you might wish to try out?
Some Helplines for more immediate, 1:1 support.....
Crisis support with a texting/webchat option.....
CALM (Campaign Against Living Miserably) is a suicide prevention charity on a mission to help people end their misery, not their lives. They provide life-saving services, information and advice to help anyone struggling with life navigate the issues that can make us feel miserable. They can offer practical ways to manage your mental health, and help you feel less alone by sharing stories of hope to show people there's a way forward. They have a helpline open everyday 5pm-midnight. You can call them on 0800 585858, Whatsapp them on +44 20 4587 6634, or use the webchat on their website. For more information you can go to www.thecalmzone.net.
Papyrus is a confidential support and advice service for children and young people under the age of 35 who are experiencing thoughts of suicide, or anyone concerned that a young person could be thinking about suicide. The helpline number is 0800 068 4141. You can also text them on 077862 09697, email pat@papyrus-uk.org or go to www.papyrus-uk.org The helpline is open 24 hours a day 7 days a week, including Bank Holidays.
The Mix's Crisis Messenger text service provides free, 24/7 crisis support across the UK. If you’re aged 25 or under, and are experiencing a personal crisis, are unable to cope and need support, you can text THEMIX to 85258. Their trained volunteer will introduce themselves, reflect on what you’ve said, and invite you to share at your own pace. You’ll text back and forth, only sharing what you feel comfortable with. They can deal issues such as Suicidal thoughts, abuse or assault, self-harm, bullying, relationship breakdown. You can find out more about it at https://www.themix.org.uk/get-support/speak-to-our-team/crisis-messenger
Crisis support via telephone call if you'd like to hear someone's voice....
The National Suicide Prevention Helpline supports anyone 18+ who is experiencing thoughts of suicide. They are there to provide support and listen to your feelings. Their lines are open everyday from 6pm until midnight, offering a safe haven for anyone who needs someone to talk to. You can call them on 0800 689 5652 or 0800 689 0880. To find out more information go to https://www.spuk.org.uk/national-suicide-prevention-helpline-uk/
Samaritans are there for you 24/7. They offer a listening service and emotional support to anyone about any issue, with a special focus on suicidal feelings. You can call the helpline for free on 116 123 or email at jo@samaritans.org. You can also write them a letter and you can find details on their website. Some of their branches offer face to face services and you can find your local branch on their website. For more information you can go to www.samaritans.org
Self-Support / Apps...... -
There is an NHS-approved app called Stay Alive which is a suicide prevention resource full of information and tools to help you say safe in a crisis. This can be used if you are having thoughts of suicide, or if you are concerned about someone else's thoughts. The app also links directly to local and national crisis resources. You can download the app from the Apple and Android app stores, and find more information by going to https://www.stayalive.app/
There's a free mobile app called distrACT, it's available on the App Store (Apple) and Google Play (Android). The app gives you easy, quick, and discreet access to information and advice about self-harm and suicidal thoughts. The content has been created by doctors and experts in self-harming and suicide prevention. You can find out more here https://www.expertselfcare.com/distract/
Design your own personalised safety plan - Staying Safe is an organisation that is designed to help you stay safe from suicidal thoughts but they are unable to provide individual support or advice. You can use the tool on their website to create your own safety plan as a way to keep you safe from your suicidal thoughts. This includes ways of getting you through how you are feeling and ways you can make your situation safer. To help keep you safe, the website is https://stayingsafe.net/
Support Group options......
The organisation Body & Soul have a service called MindSET where they offer free online mental health support delivered by therapists and young people through science, creativity and community. They have free, live, online sessions, videos, animations and podcasts. MindSET delivers effective, concrete skills to help young people manage emotional distress, which are also useful for those at risk of self-harm and suicide. Their therapeutic team will help you to reduce and manage emotional distress and prevent harmful behaviours. To register to the live streams head to http://bodyandsoulcharity.org/sharethelove/ You can also contact them at 020 7923 6880 or email enquiries@bodyandsoulcharity.org
CALM (Campaign Against Living Miserably) is a suicide prevention charity on a mission to help people end their misery, not their lives. They provide life-saving services, information and advice to help anyone struggling with life navigate the issues that can make us feel miserable. They can offer practical ways to manage your mental health, and help you feel less alone by sharing stories of hope to show people there's a way forward. They have a helpline open everyday 5pm-midnight. You can call them on 0800 585858, Whatsapp them on +44 20 4587 6634, or use the webchat on their website. For more information you can go to www.thecalmzone.net.
Papyrus is a confidential support and advice service for children and young people under the age of 35 who are experiencing thoughts of suicide, or anyone concerned that a young person could be thinking about suicide. The helpline number is 0800 068 4141. You can also text them on 077862 09697, email pat@papyrus-uk.org or go to www.papyrus-uk.org The helpline is open 24 hours a day 7 days a week, including Bank Holidays.
The Mix's Crisis Messenger text service provides free, 24/7 crisis support across the UK. If you’re aged 25 or under, and are experiencing a personal crisis, are unable to cope and need support, you can text THEMIX to 85258. Their trained volunteer will introduce themselves, reflect on what you’ve said, and invite you to share at your own pace. You’ll text back and forth, only sharing what you feel comfortable with. They can deal issues such as Suicidal thoughts, abuse or assault, self-harm, bullying, relationship breakdown. You can find out more about it at https://www.themix.org.uk/get-support/speak-to-our-team/crisis-messenger
Crisis support via telephone call if you'd like to hear someone's voice....
The National Suicide Prevention Helpline supports anyone 18+ who is experiencing thoughts of suicide. They are there to provide support and listen to your feelings. Their lines are open everyday from 6pm until midnight, offering a safe haven for anyone who needs someone to talk to. You can call them on 0800 689 5652 or 0800 689 0880. To find out more information go to https://www.spuk.org.uk/national-suicide-prevention-helpline-uk/
Samaritans are there for you 24/7. They offer a listening service and emotional support to anyone about any issue, with a special focus on suicidal feelings. You can call the helpline for free on 116 123 or email at jo@samaritans.org. You can also write them a letter and you can find details on their website. Some of their branches offer face to face services and you can find your local branch on their website. For more information you can go to www.samaritans.org
Self-Support / Apps...... -
There is an NHS-approved app called Stay Alive which is a suicide prevention resource full of information and tools to help you say safe in a crisis. This can be used if you are having thoughts of suicide, or if you are concerned about someone else's thoughts. The app also links directly to local and national crisis resources. You can download the app from the Apple and Android app stores, and find more information by going to https://www.stayalive.app/
There's a free mobile app called distrACT, it's available on the App Store (Apple) and Google Play (Android). The app gives you easy, quick, and discreet access to information and advice about self-harm and suicidal thoughts. The content has been created by doctors and experts in self-harming and suicide prevention. You can find out more here https://www.expertselfcare.com/distract/
Design your own personalised safety plan - Staying Safe is an organisation that is designed to help you stay safe from suicidal thoughts but they are unable to provide individual support or advice. You can use the tool on their website to create your own safety plan as a way to keep you safe from your suicidal thoughts. This includes ways of getting you through how you are feeling and ways you can make your situation safer. To help keep you safe, the website is https://stayingsafe.net/
Support Group options......
The organisation Body & Soul have a service called MindSET where they offer free online mental health support delivered by therapists and young people through science, creativity and community. They have free, live, online sessions, videos, animations and podcasts. MindSET delivers effective, concrete skills to help young people manage emotional distress, which are also useful for those at risk of self-harm and suicide. Their therapeutic team will help you to reduce and manage emotional distress and prevent harmful behaviours. To register to the live streams head to http://bodyandsoulcharity.org/sharethelove/ You can also contact them at 020 7923 6880 or email enquiries@bodyandsoulcharity.org
How do these sound? I wonder if there are any here that you might wish to try out?
Here at the Mix we take your thoughts of suicide seriously. We hear you and your feelings are important. We just wanted to let you know that if you did feel at any point that you were going to act on your thoughts of suicide, then we would urge you to call the emergency services on 999, or go to your local A&E department to explain your intentions to them, so that they can support you.
Sian321
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Re: (TW suicide) I wanna die so badly
Hey @bignosegirly0 , how are you doing this morning? Thank you for your trust in sharing this post and for being so vulnerable with us. I could really, really feel you when you say that you were on the verge of tears typing these words 
There's so much pain right now, and you're craving comfort so, so badly. The thought of growing older without romantic love feels totally helpless sometimes and cruel, and it makes you want to die. I hear you. Things are serious and overwhelming right now. Waiting for your therapy to start feels unbearable at times, and in the meantime, you're having to cope with so much on your own.
Thinking about today, I wonder what you feel you need the most these next few hours to ride this wave of strong emotions safely? Perhaps right now you really need to cry. Or to write more posts / DM us to get your feelings down and off your chest. Or to scream into a pillow. Or maybe you're wanting to contact a Helpline for more 1:1, immediate support?
We're all here for you, @bignosegirly0 , as Community members, mods, and staff. I hear you saying that right now you feel so, so alone in your day-to-day life and afraid that if your managers see you crying again they might get angry. That sounds really lonely and exhausting - to have to keep this bottled up inside. It's so positive that you have reached out to get on the CBT waiting list. That sounds like such a caring thing to do for yourself. Would there be anyone else in your life (including people such as a GP) who you might wish to talk to more about how you're feeling? I wonder if your GP gave you any sense of support available while you wait for CBT? I hear it can be so scary to fear other people getting frustrated with you, but it sounds like you're suffering so much right now, and you deserve support.
Keep us posted where you can. We're here and we're listening
There's so much pain right now, and you're craving comfort so, so badly. The thought of growing older without romantic love feels totally helpless sometimes and cruel, and it makes you want to die. I hear you. Things are serious and overwhelming right now. Waiting for your therapy to start feels unbearable at times, and in the meantime, you're having to cope with so much on your own.Thinking about today, I wonder what you feel you need the most these next few hours to ride this wave of strong emotions safely? Perhaps right now you really need to cry. Or to write more posts / DM us to get your feelings down and off your chest. Or to scream into a pillow. Or maybe you're wanting to contact a Helpline for more 1:1, immediate support?
We're all here for you, @bignosegirly0 , as Community members, mods, and staff. I hear you saying that right now you feel so, so alone in your day-to-day life and afraid that if your managers see you crying again they might get angry. That sounds really lonely and exhausting - to have to keep this bottled up inside. It's so positive that you have reached out to get on the CBT waiting list. That sounds like such a caring thing to do for yourself. Would there be anyone else in your life (including people such as a GP) who you might wish to talk to more about how you're feeling? I wonder if your GP gave you any sense of support available while you wait for CBT? I hear it can be so scary to fear other people getting frustrated with you, but it sounds like you're suffering so much right now, and you deserve support.
Keep us posted where you can. We're here and we're listening
Sian321
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Re: (TW suicide) I wanna die so badly
i hear how not finding love is playing on your suicidal thoughts but remember the right person is out there for you but im sry to hear how suicidal you are. pls reach out to helplines if you need help as id hate for you to become unsafe bc i care abt you and your safety.
here are some helplines
here are some helplines
shout - 85258
samaritans 116123
papryus ( hopelineuk ) 08000684141
or you can call 111 option 2 for your local crisis team. and of course 999 in a emergency.
samaritans 116123
papryus ( hopelineuk ) 08000684141
or you can call 111 option 2 for your local crisis team. and of course 999 in a emergency.
eylah
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Re: Child trust fund
I was one of the first to get one of these. I had a meeting with the bank that held it just after I turned 18 and they told me that I can either take it out and spend it, take it out and put it in another savings account, or leave it with them and allow the interest to grow. I wasn’t sure what to do at that point so I left it where it was, and it’s still there now. So it’s really up to you what you want to do with it. Lots of people spend them, get something nice, do something you’ve wanted to do for a while. Equally it’s perfectly ok to save it up and keep it for when you need it, or when you can think of something else to do with it. It’s worth looking into different options, those are just the choices I was given and they were very new at that time, so there might be other options now.
Re: [TW: Suicide] its been exhausting
@eylah , thank you for sharing this with us, and that sounds so upsetting to have been spoken to by staff in that way. I can hear that it makes it feel really hard to go back tomorrow. It sounds like things might be very hard right now, and you deserve to be listened to compassionately. Can we ask how you're feeling this afternoon? What do you feel like you might need today to be gentle with yourself?
I'll share some support around SHing below too if you would find more space to talk helpful:
We're all here for you
I'll share some support around SHing below too if you would find more space to talk helpful:
There is a free mobile app called Calm Harm. You can get it on the App Store (Apple) or Google Play (Andorid). The app is designed to prevent people from urges to self-harm using these activities: Comfort, Distract, Express Yourself, Release, Random and Breathe. You can find out more about it on https://calmharm.co.uk/
There are some websites you may like to look at to support you around self-harming. They are:
https://www.nshn.co.uk/
https://www.recoveryourlife.com/
https://www.selfharm.co.uk/
https://harmless.org.uk/
You can also check out our articles on our website: https://www.themix.org.uk/search/self+harm
There are some websites you may like to look at to support you around self-harming. They are:
https://www.nshn.co.uk/
https://www.recoveryourlife.com/
https://www.selfharm.co.uk/
https://harmless.org.uk/
You can also check out our articles on our website: https://www.themix.org.uk/search/self+harm
We're all here for you
Sian321
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Re: [TW: Suicide] its been exhausting
sry for not replying sooner @TheNightmare rly appreciate you replying to my msg
That's no problem. Things will get better, you aren't alone struggling. Here if you need anything ❤️.
Re: (TW suicide) I’m fucking panicking
bignosegirly0 wrote: »@eylah yeah I’m working today and tomorrow. Thank you for the support 🫶
hope work has gone well for you
and hope your ok eylah
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