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Re: hi I'm Julia
A little bit about me, I'm the third of six kids. I would really like to talk about how I really feel and stuff without getting judged, I dont really talk about my feelings to my family or friends (not that I have many 😅) I think that I have depression but part of me is hating on that idea and trying to convince myself that I am just being dramatic. I dont feel safe to talk about my mental health state with my parents because my dad is kinda narcissistic, I dont know mabey I am just being dramatic. But I also have been cutting my wrists lightly for like half a year now. I'm sorry I try to stop but I cant😭 like I dont cut every day only like once a week mabey?
Anyway other than that I love to make art and listen to music. I'm home schooled so I don't really have many friends outside of church.
Hiya @Hexgates welcome to the mix. I hear that you have been struggling a lot recently and that you feel unable to talk to your family about your feelings. I can reassure you that your not being dramatic at all because you are geninely struggling with your thoughts and feelings and there's nothing bad about feeling that way too. On here you can definitely reach out to lots of people with similar experiences and this place is a safe space for you to share your feelings
. I know it's easier said than done but the bravest thing anyone can do is ask for help when they are struggling. I totally get you on the feeling like I may have depression but not sure if I do. Those feelings can be super complicated and having depression itself is one big rollercoaster ride in my eyes (speaking from personal experience) and like it can vary and it wants us to feel a certain way . The brain kind of tends to trick us into thinking a certain way sometimes and can make us feel bad or a situation worse than it looks. However, your feelings are definitely valid on here .It sounds lovely that you make art and enjoy listening to music as well. I also love art and listening to music too in my spare time. I hope your doing ok at the moment
.Sending hugs,
Amy22
Amy22
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Re: Why can't I let go of things that I did in the past - A small vent
just wanted to say most of all that you aren't a bad person for anything you've described above. i think everyone in life makes mistakes and decisions that they look back on and think "oh why did i do that". mistakes and learning from them is ultimately what makes us humans and allows us to grow and become better versions of ourselves. so i'd say try not to beat yourself up too much about these things in the past (easier said than done i know), and remember you are an incredible person who is so loved by many, including all of us here at the Mix. hope you're doing okay today and sending you a big hug
Re: Hi
i'm a bit late to the party but welcome @Beth - it's lovely to have you here with us all. hope you're doing okay today 
Re: your doing your best 💓
loving all the positivity you've been sharing recently @eylah - hope you're doing okay at the moment as well
Re: my positive recovery
oooo a new dressing gown and joggers sounds like a successful shop to me. im in need of some new joggers myself but haven't got round to getting some. hope you get to enjoy your snacks and donut too - you're doing so well
Re: (TW suicide) why would I want to be alive when those who’s ruined me are living better lives?
Nobody had the right to hurt you and make you feel shite about yourself. I’m really sorry that you’re going through this😖
Have you ever considered trying counselling for your self esteem and self worth? Sure, I know things feel unbearable right now, but with the right support, there’s no reason why you can’t work through this.
I think it’s all too easy to think that other people have their live figured out but tbh, nobody has a perfect life. We’re all struggling with something in one way or another. Even if that’s not obvious. Social media especially only shows the highlights and it can be so misleading. People never show the shite they’re going through in the background.
This reminds me of when I saw the richest man in our county, a fella who had everything you could ever think of, on his knees in church, crying & pleading for help. It really put things into perspective for me.
Have you ever considered trying counselling for your self esteem and self worth? Sure, I know things feel unbearable right now, but with the right support, there’s no reason why you can’t work through this.
I think it’s all too easy to think that other people have their live figured out but tbh, nobody has a perfect life. We’re all struggling with something in one way or another. Even if that’s not obvious. Social media especially only shows the highlights and it can be so misleading. People never show the shite they’re going through in the background.
This reminds me of when I saw the richest man in our county, a fella who had everything you could ever think of, on his knees in church, crying & pleading for help. It really put things into perspective for me.
Faolan
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Re: so so done with life
@struggling0_0 I’m sorry you feel like this
It’s not because you don’t deserve help that helplines aren’t helping, it’s just that they get so many people asking them to help it’s hard for them to manage it all so they end up prioritising urgent messages, so it’s not your fault
If you want help or want to talk your on a good website, feel free to post anything you need to get off your chest in the chat forums here, and if your comfortable with it I’m happy for you to talk to me if you need someone to talk to
It’s not because you don’t deserve help that helplines aren’t helping, it’s just that they get so many people asking them to help it’s hard for them to manage it all so they end up prioritising urgent messages, so it’s not your fault
If you want help or want to talk your on a good website, feel free to post anything you need to get off your chest in the chat forums here, and if your comfortable with it I’m happy for you to talk to me if you need someone to talk to
JMMV2005
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