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Nemuritai wrote: »

Redemption wrote: »

Nemuritai wrote: »

Redemption wrote: »

Nemuritai wrote: »

Redemption wrote: »

Nemuritai wrote: »

Morning how's everyone doing?

Hey, how's you? Im ok thanks

That's good to hear I'm alright I think. just a bit upset because my parents keep excluding me from things so they can be with my brother all the time and it's been getting me down, but I'm doing okay.

Im sorry to hear that, I remember you said they exclude you from group chats here, its unfair and im sorry its dragging you down. If you wanna continue talking about it Im here.

I really appreciate that, thank you so much. It's just hard because my whole life my parents have spent so much time and energy on my brother that they never had any left over for me so I was left on my own a lot, and up until I joined here I didn't have anywhere to talk about feelings or be heard or anything. And since I don't get on with my parents, I don't really like spending time with them as it makes me feel more heavy and upset, but it still hurts being left out. I feel incredibly grateful that I'm able to talk here though and help other people as well, it means the world to me.

I understand, I think I can relate a bit, Im a middle child so I think its not helped, like Im not the first born and not the youngest too and as well as I think in my family I'm seen as "stupid" or broken whatever so I know how it feels, not trying to make it about me, I just see quite a few people here and relate a bit sometimes. Im glad you feel able to talk here.

I can relate to that - and you're not making it about you dw. I know how it feels to be seen as the 'stupid' one in the family, and I'm sorry you feel that way too. Sometimes parents project things onto their children and that can really hurt. In my family my brother is seen as the perfect kid and essentially gets away with everything, and it's generally 'my fault' whenever something goes wrong. So I can understand what your saying, and I promise you're in no way stupid or broken at all - you're a very kind and hardworking person.

Thank you, you're very kind and hard working too. Its rough, it here that has helped me realised that I'm not stupid or broken or any if that, same with you, its sad you're cant come on chats but we're are here always 24/7. Same with me like everyone else getting seen as better and more capable but our families should love us for whoever we are. Please remember you aren't any less worthy as anyone else like your siblings or whoever. Being as kind as you means you're even more worthy.

Nemuritai wrote: »

Redemption wrote: »

Nemuritai wrote: »

Morning how's everyone doing?

Hey, how's you? Im ok thanks

That's good to hear I'm alright I think. just a bit upset because my parents keep excluding me from things so they can be with my brother all the time and it's been getting me down, but I'm doing okay.

Im sorry to hear that, I remember you said they exclude you from group chats here, its unfair and im sorry its dragging you down. If you wanna continue talking about it Im here.

Thank you Nathan you’re so kind I hope you don’t mind if I respond tomorrow (well later today) I need to sleep otherwise I will probably feel worse. Thank you so much Nathan, I really mean it you’re such a beacon of hope, seeing how resilient you are too, always so kind to everyone as well. Please be kind to yourself as well! 🫂 I’m on boards sometimes if you want to speak about anything as well.

Hi @Jack25 . it sounds like your going through absolute hell right now. It must feel incredibly frightening and it makes sense your struggling immensely with this, especially when the "experts" don't seem to understand what's happening to you. I just wanted to check in to see that your safe right now.

eylah wrote: »

Nathan wrote: »

eylah wrote: »

Nathan wrote: »

eylah wrote: »

so fucking fed up.

@eylah hey my favourite twat . What's wrong, if your comfortable talking about it?

im so angry at the world. ( not angry at anyone here btw ).

i just want to be happy. but im not . im always rly sad. i just want a happy life. currently doing colouring in bc its helping.

@eylah I dont think theres anyone in this world who deserve happiness more than you my favourite twat . You have every right to be angry at the world, because the world hasn't treated you with the kindness and care that you deserve and has been awful to you so many times.

I know it might not seem this way at times, but one day, you'll get that happy life you deserve.

thankyou so much. honestly thankyou . just shit isn’t it? done nothing wrong in life to deserve such a shit and rly difficult life .

@eylah its crushing is what it is. But you know what's incredible. Despite all the hell you've been through, all the pain, and all the shittyness, you're still one of the kindest people ever, and you never let that pain change who you are at heart. That is truly incredible, and you should be so so proud of yourself my favourite twat ❤️

You didnt deserve any of the pain you've gone through at all.

eylah wrote: »

Nathan wrote: »

eylah wrote: »

so fucking fed up.

@eylah hey my favourite twat . What's wrong, if your comfortable talking about it?

im so angry at the world. ( not angry at anyone here btw ).

i just want to be happy. but im not . im always rly sad. i just want a happy life. currently doing colouring in bc its helping.

@eylah I dont think theres anyone in this world who deserve happiness more than you my favourite twat . You have every right to be angry at the world, because the world hasn't treated you with the kindness and care that you deserve and has been awful to you so many times.

I know it might not seem this way at times, but one day, you'll get that happy life you deserve.

eylah wrote: »

so fucking fed up.

@eylah hey my favourite twat . What's wrong, if your comfortable talking about it?

That's the last thing you need and deserve, I can imagine it will only make things harder for you. Thanks for sharing your experiencre @PetiteQuark This moment you had where you reacted from feelingn unstable does not define you and I'm sure most people would understand this, when you say you are scared they might do 'other things' what do you mean by that?

@Nemuritai That sounds exhausting, even though your mental health has been more stable lately, being constantly worn out takes a toll, especially when you’re working outside in tough conditions like snow. Just getting through a day like that takes a lot of effort and the fact that you showed up and got the work done really matters. It sounds like the working conditions weren’t normal or within your control, doing your best in these circumstances doesn't make you a bad employee. It sounds like you really care about doing things properly.

I wonder if holding yourself to a high standard of even working outside in the snow could be causing you this washed out feeling? Would you say it’s more physical or mental feeling of being washed out, if not both?

@Nemuritai I hope it went okay today. I hear you, it sounds like you were dealing with a lot yesterday, and I completely understand feeling washed out and drained. The fact that you still got the work done, even if it wasn’t perfect, is very impressive and is a testament to your dedication because snowy conditions make everything much more difficult. You’re doing your best and it’s more than okay to give yourself credit for that because I am sure you aren’t a bad employee at all and the effort you are putting in matters.