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Re: ND check in
Hey @Ems222 , thank you for your post here 
How are you doing?
I wanted to say that what you described sounds so tiring, and I hear how sick you feel of not knowing how to communicate with other people or how to pick up on certain social cues.
The thought of other people growing bored sounds so upsetting and anxiety-inducing too - esspecially when you physically don't know how to carry on the conversation, and then maybe feel trapped.
You mentioned that you want so desperately to keep your relationships strong, and again, it sounds like it could feel scary to fear that your relationships might weaken depending on how conversation goes. That's a lot of pressure, and you're doing so well to open up about this here, @Ems222 , and you are so deserving of friends who understand.
I wonder whether there are ever any moments where conversation feels slightly easier? Perhaps around certain people or in certain situations?
We're here to listen without judgement, Ems.
How are you doing?I wanted to say that what you described sounds so tiring, and I hear how sick you feel of not knowing how to communicate with other people or how to pick up on certain social cues.
The thought of other people growing bored sounds so upsetting and anxiety-inducing too - esspecially when you physically don't know how to carry on the conversation, and then maybe feel trapped.
You mentioned that you want so desperately to keep your relationships strong, and again, it sounds like it could feel scary to fear that your relationships might weaken depending on how conversation goes. That's a lot of pressure, and you're doing so well to open up about this here, @Ems222 , and you are so deserving of friends who understand.
I wonder whether there are ever any moments where conversation feels slightly easier? Perhaps around certain people or in certain situations?
We're here to listen without judgement, Ems.
Sian321
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Re: Group chat
@Footballfan15 we are in chat break until next Tuesday (25th) so unfortunately not. It usually runs on Sundays, Tuesdays, Wednesdays and Thursdays outside of these times, as well as a support thread on the boards on Fridays. These boards are here throughout so feel free to post here too
Welcome, by the way.
Edit: chat breaks happen about 3 times a year, so it is on most of the time - just unfortunate timing for you.
Welcome, by the way.
Edit: chat breaks happen about 3 times a year, so it is on most of the time - just unfortunate timing for you.
Re: [TW: Suicide] its been exhausting
@eylah I’m really sorry you’re feeling this way, but I’m glad you have the hospital and home treatment team supporting you right now. It sounds like you’re dealing with a lot—routine changes, stress, and struggles with sleep can definitely throw off your balance, especially when you're trying to manage all the emotions that come with it.
It’s good that you’re staying on top of your appointments, even though things feel overwhelming. It might take a little time for your body and mind to adjust to a new routine, and sleep can be particularly tricky when everything feels up in the air. I imagine the unpredictability of waking up at strange times doesn’t help your stress at all. If you haven’t already, maybe trying some calming techniques before bed could help—like deep breathing or relaxing music, but I know it’s not a one-size-fits-all solution.
It’s also awesome you’ve got someone coming to help with shopping—taking those little steps, even though they might feel small, can make a difference. Do you have any specific things you want to try to help with the sleep issue, or is it mostly about just getting into a rhythm again?
It’s good that you’re staying on top of your appointments, even though things feel overwhelming. It might take a little time for your body and mind to adjust to a new routine, and sleep can be particularly tricky when everything feels up in the air. I imagine the unpredictability of waking up at strange times doesn’t help your stress at all. If you haven’t already, maybe trying some calming techniques before bed could help—like deep breathing or relaxing music, but I know it’s not a one-size-fits-all solution.
It’s also awesome you’ve got someone coming to help with shopping—taking those little steps, even though they might feel small, can make a difference. Do you have any specific things you want to try to help with the sleep issue, or is it mostly about just getting into a rhythm again?
Re: I’ve ruined everything
I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way, it sounds really overwhelming, but please remember your uni wants to help you, not push you out. Anxiety doesn’t mean you don’t belong there. It’s okay to feel scared, but you’re not alone. Take it one step at a time, you do deserve support and there’s still hope, even if it doesn’t feel like it right now. Be kind to yourself, I believe in you even when you don’t. Wishing you luck, and I’m here if you need anything.
Re: (TW suicide) rock bottom
I'm really sorry you're feeling this way right now, and I want to honor how hard and overwhelming everything must be for you. It sounds like you’re carrying a lot of pain, and feeling stuck in this place of depression can make everything seem so much harder. I’m really glad you’re going to be speaking with someone from the NHS on Tuesday- that’s a good step, even if it doesn’t feel like it right now. It’s okay to feel like you need to vent, and I want you to know that your feelings matter and you don’t have to carry them alone.
Even though it feels impossible to feel better right now, just taking things one day at a time and being patient with yourself, like you said, is really important. I hear that you're in a very tough place right now, feeling isolated and overwhelmed, and I want you to know that these feelings, while real and valid, don’t define your whole life. You’re not “nothing” in this world, even though it may feel like that in the darkest moments. Your life is valuable, and even if it’s hard to see, there are people who care about you and want you to be here, whether you can see it or not.
The things you're experiencing are not your fault, and you're not alone in how you're feeling. It might not feel like it right now, but there is always hope for things to get better. You’re allowed to feel these emotions, but I really hope you can find the strength to keep holding on and reaching out for support, even when it feels like it’s just too much.
You are worthy of compassion, and I really hope you keep showing up for yourself, even if it’s just little bits at a time. Is there anything that has helped you in the past that has worked for you when you are experiencing these low moments? Have you considered journalling to express your emotions visually onto paper?
Even though it feels impossible to feel better right now, just taking things one day at a time and being patient with yourself, like you said, is really important. I hear that you're in a very tough place right now, feeling isolated and overwhelmed, and I want you to know that these feelings, while real and valid, don’t define your whole life. You’re not “nothing” in this world, even though it may feel like that in the darkest moments. Your life is valuable, and even if it’s hard to see, there are people who care about you and want you to be here, whether you can see it or not.
The things you're experiencing are not your fault, and you're not alone in how you're feeling. It might not feel like it right now, but there is always hope for things to get better. You’re allowed to feel these emotions, but I really hope you can find the strength to keep holding on and reaching out for support, even when it feels like it’s just too much.
You are worthy of compassion, and I really hope you keep showing up for yourself, even if it’s just little bits at a time. Is there anything that has helped you in the past that has worked for you when you are experiencing these low moments? Have you considered journalling to express your emotions visually onto paper?
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Re: (TW suicide) rock bottom
@bignosegirly0 I've also added a spoiler or removed any triggering language in your post so it does not trigger anyone in the community
Re: (TW suicide)
Hi @bignosegirly0 I am sorry you're feeling this way right now, and I want to acknowledge how deeply painful and overwhelming it must be for you. It’s understandable to feel angry when it seems like others have things easier, and I hear how much that hurts, especially when you feel vulnerable and taken advantage of. It can feel isolating when you’re struggling, and the weight of seeing others live a life that feels so much better can make everything feel even more unbearable.
Please know that your feelings are valid—what you’re experiencing is incredibly difficult, but it doesn’t mean you’re alone or that things won’t change. You don’t deserve to be taken advantage of, and I hope you can find a safe space where you can be supported and heard without judgment. Your life, your well-being, and your happiness are important, even if it doesn’t feel that way right now.
It's good to hear that you have reached out to your local NHS Wellbeing services even if it's something you had hoped you wouldn't need. They are there to support you and guide you through these feelings, as you shouldn't have to deal with this alone.
I've attached some useful links below:
Please know that your feelings are valid—what you’re experiencing is incredibly difficult, but it doesn’t mean you’re alone or that things won’t change. You don’t deserve to be taken advantage of, and I hope you can find a safe space where you can be supported and heard without judgment. Your life, your well-being, and your happiness are important, even if it doesn’t feel that way right now.
It's good to hear that you have reached out to your local NHS Wellbeing services even if it's something you had hoped you wouldn't need. They are there to support you and guide you through these feelings, as you shouldn't have to deal with this alone.
I've attached some useful links below:
Crisis Messenger (24/7) | text THEMIX to 85258
Samaritans (24/7) | call 116 123 | email jo@samaritans.org
Papyrus (2pm-midnight) | call 0800 068 41 41 | text 07786 209 697 | email pat@payrus-uk.org
Supportline (hours vary) | call 01708 765 200
Childline | call 0800 11 11
Re: (TW suicide and self harm) the type of men I’m attracted to is fucked
First of all, I want to say that it’s really brave of you to recognize and acknowledge these feelings—it’s not easy to confront the pain and patterns we’ve internalized, especially when it comes to something as personal as how we envision relationships. The fact that you are processing and reflecting on all of this shows a lot of strength.
The way you’ve been treated in the past absolutely impacts how you might view love and relationships. Sometimes, we create patterns in our minds that feel familiar, even if they’re not healthy. When you’ve faced bullying and mistreatment, those experiences can influence how you expect to be treated, even in relationships that should be built on respect, trust, and care. You deserve a relationship where you feel safe, valued, and truly loved without having to endure emotional pain to get to that point.
It’s completely okay to feel conflicted, and you don’t need to feel ashamed for having these thoughts- what you’ve experienced has shaped how you process relationships, and healing is a gradual process.
The fact that you’re aware of this dynamic is already a huge step. You don’t have to navigate this on your own. You are worthy of love that isn’t tied to suffering or emotional manipulation, and you deserve to heal so that you can build relationships that bring you joy and peace, not pain
The way you’ve been treated in the past absolutely impacts how you might view love and relationships. Sometimes, we create patterns in our minds that feel familiar, even if they’re not healthy. When you’ve faced bullying and mistreatment, those experiences can influence how you expect to be treated, even in relationships that should be built on respect, trust, and care. You deserve a relationship where you feel safe, valued, and truly loved without having to endure emotional pain to get to that point.
It’s completely okay to feel conflicted, and you don’t need to feel ashamed for having these thoughts- what you’ve experienced has shaped how you process relationships, and healing is a gradual process.
The fact that you’re aware of this dynamic is already a huge step. You don’t have to navigate this on your own. You are worthy of love that isn’t tied to suffering or emotional manipulation, and you deserve to heal so that you can build relationships that bring you joy and peace, not pain
Re: I’ve ruined everything
sending you so many hugs 🫂 were here for you i rly hope your feeling better you matter .
you matter . 
eylah
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Re: I’ve ruined everything
@AnonymousToe im so sorry to hear you’ve been feeling like this, sending lots of hugs🫶🫶🫶
