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@eylah Oh no that is awful. Waking up without a voice can feel so discouraging, especially when you were not expecting it at all. On top of that, this kind of weather can really make everything feel heavier and more difficult. I hope your voice comes back quickly and that the weather eases up soon.

@Amy22 No need to apologise as nothing of what you said is silly at all and what you’re feeling is completely valid and understandable. It takes a lot of courage to notice and speak about your thoughts and feelings which is admirable. The fact that something in a game could bring up memories from college shows how aware and reflective you are of your own experiences. Copying drawings to learn is such a natural part of growing, practicing and finding your own skills, and it doesn’t make you a bad person at all. It just shows that you were trying to learn and improve, which is something to be proud of.

It’s also completely natural that this memory brought up feelings of anxiety, especially when combined with the other things you notice about yourself, like the changes in your emotions around your time of the month. Our minds and bodies are connected in such complex ways, and it makes sense that certain moments can feel heavier or trigger old worries. Even when memories, games, or small triggers bring up uneasy feelings, they don’t change the kind, thoughtful, and capable person you are. You are allowed to breathe, to step back, to comfort yourself, and to remind yourself that these feelings are temporary, but your worth is constant. You are always cared for and valued, exactly as you are.

Don’t feel silly! I can remember you talking about this before. I dont know what you did with the copied drawings but the most important thing is that’s in the past and you’ve learnt from it. You don’t need to keep feeling guilty about it, but i know that doesn’t just make it go away. No need to apologise for posting

@Amy22 Nothing your saying is silly at all. Copying art to help you learn isn't some villainous thing. Learning based off others is I'm guessing super helpful for learning new art techniques and styles, and isn't a bad thing at all. I've not played persona 5 personally, but based off it's wiki entry, the boss who does do plagiarise, doesn't just do that, but he also presents his students work entirely as his own, makes money and fame from the stolen art, and when students stop producing good art, he abandons them and destroys their careers. What the boss does is abusive plagiarism as it's called. Copying drawings to help you learn on the other hand isn't a bad thing and is in no way comparable.

I know this might sound silly, but the fact you feel anxious about it shows you have strong ethics, and having strong ethics makes you a good person, not a bad one.

@eylah

jet skis and paragliding!! it’s all booked etc picked our plane seats too!

That sounds like a wonderful trip to look forward to. Jet skiing and paragliding seem like such fun and memorable experiences and it’s nice that you have everything planned and booked. I really hope you enjoy it.

just had a call from my sister saying that my dad is unwell in hospital. it’s brought up so many emotions for me bc of course my mum etc. but also bc of of the past history of stuff from my dad .

I’m really sorry you’re going through this. That is such a heavy piece of news to hear and it makes complete sense that it’s bringing up so many emotions for you. It’s completely okay if you don’t have everything figured out right now, or if you’re unsure how you’re feeling. There’s no pressure to have the answers. You’ve already shown so much courage and resilience in getting through so much before, and you don’t have to carry any of this on your own. I truly hope she gets better soon. We are here to support you in whatever way feels best right now.