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I Agree a bit with @amy22 i suppose maybe with time things might get better...

Yes I also kinda relate like mentally i still feel like im 16 still, just reading about nuclear physics and watching cat videos and stuff, being an "actual" adult kinda scares me i won't lie like it's so serious and scary, its also that... I missed out on alot and because of autism/mdd problems too and seeing how behind I am, one of my friends was talking about how he never had a relationship before and how he feels that hes weird for that and he's the same age as me and I never had one too, so now i wonder if I am weird for that (i mean i couldn't rlly have one bc of religion and also i dont think i have the looks for one either and... Ive been rejected and i dont see the point anymore) and I genuinely 100% am certain i wont ever get married either, and like 20s are the age where everyone gets married gets a "proper" job, or a career and moves out, and like, already at age 19 everyone is just so ahead of me academically too, like yeah ive done stuff with physics for the past 3ish years already but... Its not the same as my friends who are actually doing degrees and have a brighter future than me. Or idk maybe its the autism/mdd ruining my brain and warping my perception of reality idk

I think for (I did it again) that I do like read it sometimes and I go on devinart a lot and sometimes there is some interesting things on there I just I feel awkward about liking blueberry tf sometimes idk.

I hear you @Redemption and it makes a lot of sense that you feel nervous about this. What you’re saying shows a lot of thought and self-awareness and it’s clear how much this matters to you. It’s understandable to feel scared about booking the test and such but it also sounds like you already know a lot and that you can handle this. Making a few mistakes is completely normal and it does not take away from your capability.

It’s nice to hear that you want to push yourself out of your comfort zone and not let fear hold you back. Wanting to grow, explore your interests in cars and open up new opportunities is such a good motivator and it’s okay to take your learning at your own pace. Every small step you take is progress. You deserve to achieve this for yourself and you can do this.

Thank you I just sometimes feel like because im particually interested in blueberry tf and stuff I just feel this sense of guilt about it I guess you could say. Then again it could be because im having just a low moment again.

hey. @Nathan just checking in to see how you’re doing. 🤍

happy easter!

been with my grandads friend who I’ve never actually fucking met. She told my grandad I look bored to tears and my grandad said I always look like that :/ I don’t always look like that but when I don’t fucking know someone in guarded I don’t show emotion but now I just want to cry and relapse

Im feeling upset and scared just times going fast and the pressure us coming to have life sorted by certain ages and times are coming where I'll age out of different services