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Re: What place would you most like to visit next?
for no reason other than i love pizza, i have always wanted to visit Italy just to say that i have eaten a proper Italian pizza in Italy
Katie12
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Re: Chef zone 🎂 (potential trigger for some)
Out of the cookies and the 2 cakes, the cakes were the only thing edible 😭😅😅😅🤣
River
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Re: Crisis team basically gave up on me lol
I don't get why, but even when I tell them about being able to talk through the tv and peoples minds, only my therapist takes me seriously, I feel like everyone else thinks I'm faking it - especially when seeing other people with similar symptoms bring taken alot more seriously than me
Re: Late night thoughts (TW mentions of suicidal thoughts and SA)
this was my experience when I was 18, please don’t let this be yours.I've realised this too, but I find it really hard when I'm stuck in a mindset. I know none of these people are gonna change anything for me. They will do their tick box jobs and not give the slightest fuck about me when I'm discharged. None of these people will be there for me when I turn 18, which is this year.
TW: description of experience being sectioned
On my 18th birthday I was trapped like an animal in a seclusion room. That birthday is a rite of passage and I’ll never get it back; I couldn’t even ring my family. I entered adulthood, alone in a blue prison cell with someone watching over me. Analysing me like the case study I was to them.
As time went on I couldn’t take it. I missed my family. I missed my friends. I felt really depressed.
I intended to harm myself.
They restrained me.
The minutes turned to hours.
They grabbed me and pinned me down one time. The nurse came in with a needle and drugged me up with haloperidol and lorazepam.
I only had finger foods on a paper plate. Even then group of them people came just in case, and then they just left me there.
As time went on I couldn’t take it. I missed my family. I missed my friends. I felt really depressed.
I intended to harm myself.
They restrained me.
The minutes turned to hours.
They grabbed me and pinned me down one time. The nurse came in with a needle and drugged me up with haloperidol and lorazepam.
I only had finger foods on a paper plate. Even then group of them people came just in case, and then they just left me there.
Trust me when you’re 18 and you’re sectioned things get worse. It’s scary. You’re the youngest one there and you see dangerous and seriously unwell people. Some where also criminals who have done things you couldn’t possibly imagine.
I’ve had this. The staff said to me “you know what you’re doing” because I was clever since I was doing my A levels so that made me different to the other patients. I still felt pain. I still thought of and tried to end it. They didn’t know me. I hate how social norms influence mental health diagnoses. I think they expected me to wear a tinfoil hat or something.I agree with this. It's why I stopped blaming specific staff, but the system instead. It's like I'd turn up to A and E and all what would happen is I'd be sent home and told to go to CAMHS, but they'd keep me overnight so they could do their "meeting" where they just talk about what's best for them by the sounds of it. I feel like they don't take what I say seriously until I do something serious. Every time I've been sectioned, the MHA team come out and they just say they trust me, and one time the guy told me he doesn't believe I'm actually suicidal. Yet on one of these occasions where I had run away from the hospital, I'd done something serious and literally after two days they came and took me off the section because they "trust" me. I don't want to be sectioned because it's horrible not having any privacy and security with you, but I want to be taken seriously before I end up in crisis
They did that with me, experimenting with all sorts of drugs.I'm only on meds for sleep at the moment, which I basically had to beg for months for. I said to CAMHS I'm not trying every med under the sun because I feel like my CAMHS centre is taking the piss with meds. Like I'm some kind of science experiment. The dosage they take the piss with. Like the sleep meds I'm on now, the dose they've given is the equivalent of what a 5 year old child can take and I'm 17 years old. Even my doctor said it should be higher than what it is.Edit: also take your medication as you should if you take them.
I just feel like I'm not being taken seriously. And I have no idea if this is because I try and control myself so they think I'll be okay. Or because I'm quiet about the things I go through. I don't know what they're waiting for. For me to go off the rails and get myself sectioned? I don't know.
They put me in Rispiradone and that made me aggressive and I had unwanted side effects.
But eventually I found olanzapine and epilim which helped my symptoms. When you’re in a PICU that’s what they do they adjust meds and stuff.
Let the doctors know as soon as possible about your concerns.
It’s nice to get validation from people on sites like this. It’s good to see people going through similar shit to you and all however I suggest that you go to your GP tomorrow and voice everything you said. Show your message too.
Tell them everything. Tell them you aren’t taken seriously because in the above quote, the text in bold is worrying.
If you’re quiet about things then that’s the problem. Be completely honest. Consider therapy and medication at the same time.
In the meantime as you said you have sleep problems try and improve your physical health such as getting good sleep hygiene, moderate exercise (like a brisk walk) and a balanced and varied diet. Also try mindfulness meditation.
I know it sounds like I’m reading off a script but it does work and helps me a lot. If you neglect your sleep for example your mental health will be all over the place. It can trigger hypomania for me.
I hope you stay strong. You’ve got this.
dyoverdx
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Re: The poem spot
Why is there so much pain,
It’s all I ever seem to gain,
Since I was wee,
Nothing much has changed.
As the same old horror,
Haunts me again and again,
Never letting me forget,
That love, is just a monsters game.
It’s all I ever seem to gain,
Since I was wee,
Nothing much has changed.
As the same old horror,
Haunts me again and again,
Never letting me forget,
That love, is just a monsters game.
Re: The people I used to look up to - a mini little rant
thank you @Maisy i had a notification on my email for this and i really appreciate it
Amy22
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Re: Crisis team basically gave up on me lol
No one wants to help me - NHS are shit at offering any support, they only seem to help when you actually do something. They don't give a fuck about me, they just left me on my own
Re: Late night thoughts (TW mentions of suicidal thoughts and SA)
sorry I know I'm no help because I've never been sectioned or anything like that before, but I just thought I'd say the same it's like as if they're just waiting for us to completely lose it to them help usI don't want to be sectioned because it's horrible not having any privacy and security with you, but I want to be taken seriously before I end up in crisis.