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Im feeling pretty lonely like i mentioned in chat I did some maths which helped I feel like maths always helps just smth abt numbers is so peaceful like crunch crunch like does that make any sense I feel like bc I need to give all my attention to it and my brain just likes numbers bc crunch crunch (idk if that makes any sense whatsoever) like my brain is actually quiet for once and plus like its soothing going through steps and doing things in order idk I just like it anyway im just rambling bc why not

@Nathan Thank you so much

Nemuritai wrote: »

@shannon_164 @Nathan I really appreciate hearing that, it honestly means the world to have people listen It might not change what's happening but it makes me feel so much lighter knowing other people care.

To answer Shannon's question, I don't really have anyone to talk to in real life, I only have my parents really. It's kind of complicated but I've always been quite isolated, and just bad at communicating in general, so I've never had any friends or anyone to talk to. But I'm really grateful to have this community to turn to, and although I've not been here for long I really like it here.

@Nemuritai I only made my first ever friends 6 months ago when i joined here. I fully get being isolated and how much of an impact and toll it takes on your mental health, and to have the only people you talk to being so hostile and demeaning, but i can promise you that you'll always have friends on here who will listen to you, support you and who genuinely care about you. You aren't alone anymore friend.

@shannon_164 @Nathan I really appreciate hearing that, it honestly means the world to have people listen It might not change what's happening but it makes me feel so much lighter knowing other people care.

To answer Shannon's question, I don't really have anyone to talk to in real life, I only have my parents really. It's kind of complicated but I've always been quite isolated, and just bad at communicating in general, so I've never had any friends or anyone to talk to. But I'm really grateful to have this community to turn to, and although I've not been here for long I really like it here.

Nemuritai wrote: »

Hi - I've never posted here before but I really need to get something off my chest. Apologies if I end up rambling.

I don't really understand what my parents are angry about, I'm assuming they're stressed out right now, but they've been taking it all out on me this past week. I generally don't get on great with them but recently one of my parents ends up shouting hurtful things at me whenever I'm around, so I've been trying to keep to myself. They've been telling me that I'm useless and pathetic and that they want me to move out as soon as I'm old enough because it's 'hell living with me'. I'm not entirely sure what I've done for them to say those things and they usually don't shout at me like that, but I've been feeling kind of empty and low lately and my parents just minimise me whenever I tell them and say I'm just sulking, which I'm not. I'm just not sure how I'm supposed to act around them right now, because they seem to get angry whether I talk to them or stay out of the way. I hope that didn't sound too confusing.

@Nemuritai no worries, rambling is perfectly okay. I call it venting myself, so no need to apologise for getting things of your chest. It isn't confusing at all.

Parents are supposed to be supportive, caring, and encouraging. What your parents are doing is the exact opposite. They are demeaning you, and bringing you down with cruel insults, demoralising you bit by bit, and over time, that really destroys a persons self worth and self belief and has lingering long term effects on mental heath. And then to dismiss and and minimise the impact it's having on you as "sulking" is outright cruel. I want to assure you right now on that point that what they saying is utter crap. If somebody who is supposed to be supportive does the opposite and demeans you and belittles you instead, that says more about them than it does about you. If there was an issue, parents should sit you down and talk calmly about the issue and nudge you in the right direction on it, but for them to instead try and break you down with insults and belittling comments instead, is outright wrong.

I know that it's hard to when you get shouted at when you try to keep to yourself, but also get shouted at when you make yourself known and are present, and it can be confusing. And i know this won't make any difference, but i want to say that you do deserve better than that.

hey @Nemuritai 🙂

firstly, thank you for sharing this with us as i know it’s not easy to talk about such things! i can kind of relate to a lot of what you’ve said too from my own experience but please know this isn’t your fault, even if it feels like it is right now.

it sounds really painful, and you don’t deserve to be spoken to like that, especially when you’re already feeling low. it makes sense that you’d feel empty and unsure how to act, that’s you just trying to protect yourself.

their words don’t define you - you’re not useless or pathetic, i promise! you are so deserving of kindness and support.

i wonder if you have any support around you? if you want to share, no pressure! we’re all here for you