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part 2.5 of the diagnosis series

The nurse goes into her room and begins asking her questions whilst doing an ECG which was strange to say the least. All Sia could do was just answer the nurse's questions. And this certainly wasn't the last time that they were going to do an ECG. Sia just kept the fact that she could be a potential criminal all in her head in order to not make it worse.
Soon enough, the morning would arrive and she wasn't arrested. No police officer, no one who could explain what was going on. This made her even more anxious. Why couldn't they just say it to her face?
Eventually, she was given breakfast but refused to eat because the nurses kept on making remarks about her situation.
"Why can't you eat?" Her dad asks.
"I just don't want to," Sia says, not knowing how to explain why she didn't want to eat. Meanwhile, her dad couldn't hear what was going on with Sia and the fact that the nurses kept on talking about her.
Sia didn't trust the nurses whatsoever. She also thought that they were trying to have a go at her, to find something to ridicule her on. For example, just a few hours earlier Sia smirked at a bin and that caused the nurses to make that comment about going to magistrates' court. For what? She couldn't understand. But she felt like a criminal anyways for not controlling her facial expressions.
After breakfast, Sia lays down on her bed, her veins still pumping with adrenaline. She didn't bring her phone with her so she couldn't update everyone on The Mix what was going on. How could she? Maybe they were after her too. Maybe the information she put down when she signed up could be tracked to the police.
A few ECGs later, people continued to talk about Sia. But it got worse. The IP address that her dad may have provided tracked her to her address, meaning they could find about her search history. Everything she did in the past could be found. Or at least that's what she thought.
"Find out everything about her search history," One nurse says.
Shit. Her search history was full of information that she doesn't want strangers to see, even if they were healthcare professionals.
authors note: im pretty sure this is like illegal but thats what psychosis does to you
Sia tries to come up to the nurses' station to ask what was going on, but as soon as she tried to speak it was like something or someone was holding her back and she goes back to her room, dragging her kaye walker along with her. She felt like it was some higher being, a God of some sort preventing her from speaking. She rummages through her bag and tries to find some fresh clothes despite it only being a day when she arrived to A&E. She goes to the bathroom and gets dressed since there were glass windows and no curtains in her cubicle. The perfect place to see a criminal. So she went to the bathroom and got changed before coming out of there feeling fresh. The bathroom was the only place where she could feel safe without people talking about her.
Sia's dad then asks, "Did you brush your teeth?"
"No, I'm fine thanks," Sia says. Speaking of which, her parents forgot to pack a toothbrush for her. But that was the least of her concerns.
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It was as if she blinks, and Sia is found in a hospital gown with all of her other clothes taken off. A few days must have passed, and it was as if all of the days molded together so she couldn't quite remember what led her to this place. People were still talking about her and Sia couldn't quite take it anymore. She was on the cold hard floor, her back against the wall with only a pillow supporting it. People were talking about sending her to a secret government facility where her bones would be broken and she would practically be tortured.
authors note: again, this is illegal. this is literally how my psychosis happened.
The same two original mental health professionals from the CAMHS crisis team arrive and come into Sia's cubicle, "Why are you on the floor?" One of them asks.
"Because I don't deserve it," Sia says, looking at both of them in the eye.
"You know you can sit on the bed. It's comfortable," The other mental health professional says,
"I don't want to sit on the bed, I don't deserve it," Sia repeats.
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Another time in the A&E department, Sia was throwing up into the cardboard sick bowl because everyone found out that she was a despicable criminal. Her friends, her entire family except for her dad and her school. In the background she could hear, "Enjoy your breakfast" By one of her classmates. She was in fact eating breakfast but she couldn't quite stomach it.
She's a criminal.
She's a criminal!
SHE'S A FUCKING CRIMINAL!
That's what she could hear them all say. The nurses, her classmates, her teachers, her family.
authors note: i know this is getting complicated but stick with me on this one
Hell even Sia's mum says that she won't ever be able to visit Russia because of what she had supposedly done. And her mum wasn't even from Russia.
"I can't wait until they get rid of her," One member of the public says whilst in A&E. The public knew what was going on? This was bad. Very bad.
"Girls in there get pregnant quickly," The nurse says, gossiping about Sia, "Soon she'll have loads of kids."
"Especially because of how vulnerable she is," Another adds.
authors note: ok i covered 2/3 of the sneak peeks, gonna write another part to this again