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Re: Not sure why I’m posting
@Katie no I give up with counselling it’s not like I’ll get better either I’ll be dead before I recover.
I can’t share more it would be against guidelines plus not like anyone would care, nope I got no one
I can’t share more it would be against guidelines plus not like anyone would care, nope I got no one
River
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Re: In a day
@Matthew_04 it was my mum thinking 4 me to stay out the way n keep my head down, my carers don't care, they should b shut down as their attitude has turned sour.
I'm still waiting n I'm sinking abit further everyday. How do I manage my mental health wen ppl r being sh*tty?
I'm still waiting n I'm sinking abit further everyday. How do I manage my mental health wen ppl r being sh*tty?
im not okay (tw - suicide)
I pretend like I'm Okay
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"How are you today?" Someone asks me. I smile, trying to hide the pain that I've been feeling recently.
"I'm okay," I reply.
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Even when I’m fucking not
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When I'm alone, my mask slips off and I retreat to the corners of my room not making a sound.
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And I can't seem to get away
From all the thoughts inside my brain yeah
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The thoughts linger in my mind, telling me to end it at all because I don't deserve anything that I've been given.
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I pretend like I'm Okay
Even when I’m fucking not
And I can't seem to get away
From all the thoughts inside my brain yeah
I pretend like I'm okay
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(same thing)
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I tell you that I'm doing fine you know I'm not doing fine
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"Are you sure you're doing fine?" My therapist asks. I turn to her, nodding.
"Of course. I mean I have everything. Why would I not be okay?"
My therapist sees through my facade and frowns.
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And I can't seem to get away
You could see it in my eyes yeah I really wanna die
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My eyes would well up with tears, indicating that I really wanted to leave this world for good.
---
"How are you today?" Someone asks me. I smile, trying to hide the pain that I've been feeling recently.
"I'm okay," I reply.
---
Even when I’m fucking not
---
When I'm alone, my mask slips off and I retreat to the corners of my room not making a sound.
---
And I can't seem to get away
From all the thoughts inside my brain yeah
---
The thoughts linger in my mind, telling me to end it at all because I don't deserve anything that I've been given.
---
I pretend like I'm Okay
Even when I’m fucking not
And I can't seem to get away
From all the thoughts inside my brain yeah
I pretend like I'm okay
---
(same thing)
---
I tell you that I'm doing fine you know I'm not doing fine
---
"Are you sure you're doing fine?" My therapist asks. I turn to her, nodding.
"Of course. I mean I have everything. Why would I not be okay?"
My therapist sees through my facade and frowns.
---
And I can't seem to get away
You could see it in my eyes yeah I really wanna die
---
My eyes would well up with tears, indicating that I really wanted to leave this world for good.
Re: Suicidal rant
@Katie @eylah hiya, unfortunately, I still feel quite low, but not as bad as earlier. I am safe at the moment.
@Katie My attempt was quite recent, but it didn't leave any bad injuries, Just a rash which went away after a few minutes. What triggered it was the people at work. They were talking about whether they would have sex with the ugliest female coworkers/managers for a ton of money. I thought that it's likely they've had similar conversations about me, and that everyone in this workplace hates me because I'm unattractive, and that I'll never find love or have worth in life due to my looks. That's what prompted me to randomly attempt suicide.I can't talk to my family because they have yelled at me in the past for issues with self harm and suicide. And there's no need to call any services since I'm currently safe. I've just sent a email to a private counsellor, and I'm hoping to get a response in under five days so then we could have our first session.
@Katie My attempt was quite recent, but it didn't leave any bad injuries, Just a rash which went away after a few minutes. What triggered it was the people at work. They were talking about whether they would have sex with the ugliest female coworkers/managers for a ton of money. I thought that it's likely they've had similar conversations about me, and that everyone in this workplace hates me because I'm unattractive, and that I'll never find love or have worth in life due to my looks. That's what prompted me to randomly attempt suicide.I can't talk to my family because they have yelled at me in the past for issues with self harm and suicide. And there's no need to call any services since I'm currently safe. I've just sent a email to a private counsellor, and I'm hoping to get a response in under five days so then we could have our first session.
Re: General chit chat
Neither actually! The only thing I thought of was that broom he gets but that's a Nimbus 2000 so I've got no clue @independent_ ! 10,000 posts is incredible and definitely calls for a celebration!independent_ wrote: »@Katie i know i wasn’t expecting that at all lol, i still don’t get how it relates to the number, ik it’s Harry Potter reference but I can’t figure out the number! Only 250 more to go before I’m at 10,000 - think that might call for some cake to celebrate!!!
Katie
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Re: General chit chat
@Katie i know i wasn’t expecting that at all lol, i still don’t get how it relates to the number, ik it’s Harry Potter reference but I can’t figure out the number! Only 250 more to go before I’m at 10,000 - think that might call for some cake to celebrate!!!
Re: Anybody want to vent or chat about anything? (Triggering stuff edition)
A bookcase just decided to fall on my foot 
River
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