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im not okay (tw - suicide)
toffuna101
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I pretend like I'm Okay
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"How are you today?" Someone asks me. I smile, trying to hide the pain that I've been feeling recently.
"I'm okay," I reply.
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Even when I’m fucking not
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When I'm alone, my mask slips off and I retreat to the corners of my room not making a sound.
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And I can't seem to get away
From all the thoughts inside my brain yeah
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The thoughts linger in my mind, telling me to end it at all because I don't deserve anything that I've been given.
---
I pretend like I'm Okay
Even when I’m fucking not
And I can't seem to get away
From all the thoughts inside my brain yeah
I pretend like I'm okay
---
(same thing)
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I tell you that I'm doing fine you know I'm not doing fine
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"Are you sure you're doing fine?" My therapist asks. I turn to her, nodding.
"Of course. I mean I have everything. Why would I not be okay?"
My therapist sees through my facade and frowns.
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And I can't seem to get away
You could see it in my eyes yeah I really wanna die
---
My eyes would well up with tears, indicating that I really wanted to leave this world for good.
---
"How are you today?" Someone asks me. I smile, trying to hide the pain that I've been feeling recently.
"I'm okay," I reply.
---
Even when I’m fucking not
---
When I'm alone, my mask slips off and I retreat to the corners of my room not making a sound.
---
And I can't seem to get away
From all the thoughts inside my brain yeah
---
The thoughts linger in my mind, telling me to end it at all because I don't deserve anything that I've been given.
---
I pretend like I'm Okay
Even when I’m fucking not
And I can't seem to get away
From all the thoughts inside my brain yeah
I pretend like I'm okay
---
(same thing)
---
I tell you that I'm doing fine you know I'm not doing fine
---
"Are you sure you're doing fine?" My therapist asks. I turn to her, nodding.
"Of course. I mean I have everything. Why would I not be okay?"
My therapist sees through my facade and frowns.
---
And I can't seem to get away
You could see it in my eyes yeah I really wanna die
---
My eyes would well up with tears, indicating that I really wanted to leave this world for good.
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