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Re: (TW suicide) keeping getting job rejections makes me want to kill myself
@Katie hiya, I’ve applied for different ranges of jobs. Graphic designer, photographer, or a crew member at cafes, restaurants, retail shops, art galleries etc.
Re: (TW suicide) keeping getting job rejections makes me want to kill myself
oh sry @bignosegirly0 was just worried abt you so tagged themix i hope your ok im always here if you need anything 
eylah
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Re: The Cracks Are Showing
Laura_tigger82 wrote: »It sounds really difficult that you feel you may have to face and talk about things which you have pushed down @Lottie5433. It is really important to recognise the boundary of what you do and do not want to talk about. No amount of strength takes away from the fact you deserve to be able to have boundaries respected and feel heard too.
I can hear how you feel this is your fault. However, different people are impacted by similiar experiences in different ways. Your thoughts and feelings are valid, despite how your siblings may have thought and felt about the same experiences. Also, people can mask how they are really thinking and feeling which makes self-comparison particularly challenging.
How are you feeling at the moment? We are here with you and listening to you if you would like to share more with us
Thank you again @Laura_tigger82
I just dont know how I can begin to get people to respect my boundaries (especially my parents) coz i know they are just going to keep pushing me to talk and they know that this just makes me not talk and open up - as they've seen with my SH, SI and ED.
I basically get told by those around me that it's my fault so it's just what im use to at this point. Im constantly compared to my siblings so at this point I must be the issue and the one that caused it all - even though professionals have said its not my fault etc.
Im feeling alot of anxiety but idk why other than my GP appointment tomorrow. But also my thoughts are just going wild and causing alot of mess in my head and im becoming overwhelming with it all.
Thanks for asking ❤️
Re: I need help
Hey @user123 , thank you for your message here. This sounds like an anxiety-inducing situation for you, and I hear just how heavy the guilt has been weighing on you That's a lot to be coping with on your own.
May I ask, how have things been feeling with your boyfriend day-to-day since? How do you tend to feel when you're with him, and then when you're apart?
I agree with @stardust444 that it feels to me that you have not done anything wrong here, though I hear its playing on your conscience. You had every right to go on that coffee date before you met your boyfriend, and also, you are allowed to have control over what you do or do not wish to say.
What do you feel this lingering guilt is about for you? Is that guilt could speak, what do you think it might 'say'? I wonder if there is something specific you're afraid might happen, or maybe more a general feeling?
We're here to listen without judgement, and I hope you can offer yourself some grace and compassion here How have you been taking care of yourself at this time?
That's a lot to be coping with on your own.May I ask, how have things been feeling with your boyfriend day-to-day since? How do you tend to feel when you're with him, and then when you're apart?
I agree with @stardust444 that it feels to me that you have not done anything wrong here, though I hear its playing on your conscience. You had every right to go on that coffee date before you met your boyfriend, and also, you are allowed to have control over what you do or do not wish to say.
What do you feel this lingering guilt is about for you? Is that guilt could speak, what do you think it might 'say'? I wonder if there is something specific you're afraid might happen, or maybe more a general feeling?
We're here to listen without judgement, and I hope you can offer yourself some grace and compassion here
How have you been taking care of yourself at this time? 
Sian321
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Re: (TW suicide) keeping getting job rejections makes me want to kill myself
@eylah im not intending to kill myself. But I’m struggling to see a better future ahead of me. But then again, I’m able to keep myself safe.
Re: (TW suicide) keeping getting job rejections makes me want to kill myself
@eylah im safe at the moment. I can’t kill myself because I’m with my family.
it’s exhausting digging up the past 
(TW suicide) keeping getting job rejections makes me want to kill myself
Being stuck in a job where everyone hates me and I keep fucking up my reputation is stopping me from genuinely improving myself mentally.
When I’m stuck in a workplace full of rotten people, I also become a rotten miserable bitch. And the only way for me to get better is to get out of that environment and be surrounded by people who actually appreciate me. But no matter how much I try, I keep getting job rejections.
When I’m stuck in a workplace full of rotten people, I also become a rotten miserable bitch. And the only way for me to get better is to get out of that environment and be surrounded by people who actually appreciate me. But no matter how much I try, I keep getting job rejections.
I think this is a sign from god telling me that I should kill myself.
There is no hope for me.Re: ‘family’ - tw// mentions of eating disorder
@struggling0_0 none of what you said is pathetic ❤️🩹 sending lots of hugs 🫶
