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(TW suicide) keeping getting job rejections makes me want to kill myself

bignosegirly0bignosegirly0 Posts: 137 The Mix Convert
edited February 16 in Health & Wellbeing
Being stuck in a job where everyone hates me and I keep fucking up my reputation is stopping me from genuinely improving myself mentally.

When I’m stuck in a workplace full of rotten people, I also become a rotten miserable bitch. And the only way for me to get better is to get out of that environment and be surrounded by people who actually appreciate me. But no matter how much I try, I keep getting job rejections.
I think this is a sign from god telling me that I should kill myself.
There is no hope for me.
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  • eylaheylah Posts: 6,339 Master Poster
    edited February 16
    are you feeling safe? if your not feeling safe pls contact a helpline or if your in danger pls contact 111 or 999. you can also txt 999 if you don’t feel like calling them. your safety matters <3 to txt 999 you have to register your phone number first. <3
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸

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  • bignosegirly0bignosegirly0 Posts: 137 The Mix Convert
    @eylah im safe at the moment. I can’t kill myself because I’m with my family.
  • eylaheylah Posts: 6,339 Master Poster
    thats rly concerning im rly worried abt you @TheMix
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸

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  • bignosegirly0bignosegirly0 Posts: 137 The Mix Convert
    @eylah im not intending to kill myself. But I’m struggling to see a better future ahead of me. But then again, I’m able to keep myself safe.
  • KatieKatie Community Manager Posts: 284 The Mix Regular
    edited February 16
    bignosegirly0 wrote: »
    @eylah im not intending to kill myself. But I’m struggling to see a better future ahead of me. But then again, I’m able to keep myself safe.
    Hi @bignosegirly0 thank you for letting us know you're able to keep yourself safe. I also hear that you aren't intending to act on your thoughts, but you are struggling to see a better future ahead of you. We've popped you a DM to explore this a little more if that feels comfortable for you <3 You're doing so well opening up here, and these sound like really difficult feelings to be experiencing.

    The environment we spend a lot of time in, such as work environments, can really affect moods. If we're surrounded by toxicity, then sometimes it can seep into our own lives. You deserve to be doing a role you enjoy surrounded by people who appreciate you, however I can understand that getting job rejections can be pretty disheartening. Can I ask if you're applying for a range of different jobs?

    I've added a spoiler to your post - I hope that's okay. And thank you for adding the trigger warning.

    Also thank you @eylah for tagging us and looking out for our community <3

    And just to echo what Eylah said above:
    Here at the Mix we take thoughts of suicide seriously. We hear you and your feelings are important. We just wanted to let you know that if you did feel at any point that you were going to act on your thoughts of suicide, then we would urge you to call the emergency services on 999, or go to your local A&E department to explain your intentions to them, so that they can support you.

    If you're unable to call emergency services, you can also text 999. You first need to register your mobile by texting "register" to 999. Once registered, you can text the service whenever you need urgent help. You should then get a reply within two minutes either stating that help is on its way or that they need more information. If you don't hear back within 3 minutes, try again.
  • bignosegirly0bignosegirly0 Posts: 137 The Mix Convert
    @Katie hiya, I’ve applied for different ranges of jobs. Graphic designer, photographer, or a crew member at cafes, restaurants, retail shops, art galleries etc.
  • Laura_tigger82Laura_tigger82 Moderator Posts: 5,370 Part of The Furniture
    It sounds positive that you are applying for a different range of jobs @bignosegirly0. How are you feeling about the job applications themselves and the interviews - do you have support with these processes at the moment?

    Also, is there a particular role you would like more than the others? We really do care about you and we hope you get the job you deserve soon, where you can feel appreciated <3
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  • eylaheylah Posts: 6,339 Master Poster
    oh sry @bignosegirly0 was just worried abt you so tagged themix i hope your ok im always here if you need anything <3
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸

    pfp made by me
  • bignosegirly0bignosegirly0 Posts: 137 The Mix Convert
    @Laura_tigger82 im not feeling hopeful. Overall, I’ve received two interviews. But the rest of my job applications is just rejection after rejection. This has been going on since summer last year.

    I don’t mind whether it’s a normal or creative job. I just want a job where I fit in and not hated by everyone.
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