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Trauma team call

Rose113Rose113 Community Champion Posts: 2,938 Boards Guru
in Health & Wellbeing
I just got off the phone with the lady (she is a phsycologist) and she was really nice, She’s calling me back Monday. she said that it sounds like my brain isn’t processing things in the right part of my brain which is leading to trapping the trauma that’s why I get triggered so frequently so she’s gone to talk to another therapist to see which route would be best to go down but she said it’s either CBT or EMDR. We went really in depth and she said that from what I described, she said I have ptsd and the questionnaires I did she said showed severe anxiety and moderate depression 🥲

I’m scared because I can’t believe that I’m actually getting help for my trauma as I never ever ever thought I’d feel able to confront the things that have happened to me but I’m actually doing like I’m actually getting help 🥹

TW- for all of this next section but I will hide in spoilers 💜

Childhood abuse
She asked basically for a walk through of my childhood so I explained about my birth parents and how they had an alcohol and abuse problem and then we spoke about what happened in the foster home I was at before I moved away

Bullying
She asked about school life and I told her about all the bullying that happened which was hard because I’ve tried to tune a lot of it all out but she helped me by asking more prompt questions to help me understand what she was asking.

Food problems
Okay so, I’ll admit that I have avoided this issue a lot of my life but I suppose you have to confront it eventually soooo that’s what I had to do today as she asked me how my appetite had been like and what obviously she had to go thorough into it which ehhhh wasn’t good because she told me that it’s not good with the amount of times I avoid food

Self harm
Obviously she had to do the safety rubbish so we went through that and I said about self harm and she asked more about it and I said that I can’t stop and she asked why I do it and basically she said that until I’ve started therapy and started to work through the trauma that I won’t be able to stop which made me want to cry but also I understand why
Sometimes when the people most like you don't love you, it is a hurt that can cause the greatest pain, and this pain can lead you to hate everything.

Comments

  • Invisible_meInvisible_me Posts: 225 Trailblazer
    edited February 14
    I'm really glad you were able to talk to her and be do honest with them. Well done.
    Hope that it all goes well for you and you are able to get the help and support you need.
  • Sian321Sian321 Community Manager Posts: 434 Listening Ear
    @Rose113 , ah thank you so much for sharing this with us <3
    I’m scared because I can’t believe that I’m actually getting help for my trauma as I never ever ever thought I’d feel able to confront the things that have happened to me but I’m actually doing like I’m actually getting help 🥹

    This feels hugely powerful, Rose! I can imagine just how much courage it might have taken to allow yourself to open up to the psychologist today when previously that had felt impossible. That feels so positive, Rose, and I really want to acknowledge your bravery in doing that. I appreciate it might have felt really, really scary and yet hear you are, moving towards getting help for your trauma and processing the past. And you're asking for help along the way! <3

    How are you feeling after that appointment?

    We're all here for you and we're listening.
  • Rose113Rose113 Community Champion Posts: 2,938 Boards Guru
    Thank you @Sian321 <3 feeling really drained and crying from it :/ it’s exhausting digging up the past
    Sometimes when the people most like you don't love you, it is a hurt that can cause the greatest pain, and this pain can lead you to hate everything.
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