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[OLD] The 'I need a hug' thread - please read first post before posting :)
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I feel so bad that I feel proud of myself for ED behaviours. It's like I don't even want to recover - when I do. It's just a cycle of bad thoughts making me think anorexia is the good part to make my life better & then I realise it's not cause I won't be more clean or less dirty or more liked or happier if I was lower in weight. It's an irrational thought cause I know that doesn't happen cause only makes me obsessed with food and feel weak. But then I'm like but what if this time it's different and I'll Be like totally happy. Then my logical part is like um yeah if by that you mean dead considering can't be alive with how carry on to feel happy. Then I'm like wow that's over egerate, cant die from it. So Then I'm like oh maybe I'll make a meal plan for everyday to make sure I eat everything correctly to not go that way into bad obsessions that take over life . Then I'm like oh that's great to be healthy and clean. Then I'm like oh that's bad with too much food.
"The way that I have found the light in my life is through the expressive arts because I know that I will be accepted for the way I am." ~ Me
"I'm going to get strong again and see you soon. " ~ Anonymous
You commented just as i moved it haha. Didn't feel like I'd get support on this thread for it but thank you. I really don't think I can master doing a food shop at the moment. I just, the thought of it scares me
My struggles never matter. My mental health never matters. I'm invalid and shouldn't be around
😘😘❤️❤️🤗🤗🙀🙀
(I thought I pressed send on this post sorry! )
Those are the worst kind of injuries, I swear 😥 especially because we're constantly using our hands 😩
"The way that I have found the light in my life is through the expressive arts because I know that I will be accepted for the way I am." ~ Me
"I'm going to get strong again and see you soon. " ~ Anonymous
Literally. It happened months ago and I had to re learn to write and use my hand and wrist basically. Like I'm grateful I can do that again but I'm still having so many issues
I'm sad
I went for a walk because I wanted a new candle, thought I'd take the canal because it's normally peaceful, but no.. I get screamed at with "move out the way fat cunt" so me being me, threw myself out the way, the guy was drunk riding a moped and their were other people that obviously had walked down, all drunk and laughing about something. I get off the canal, find police and an ambulance sat in a car park dealing with an issue,
I speak to the police because obviously drunk person on a moped on a thin path next to water is dangerous...
Turns out these people hurt someone and were running off 🙃🙃
What a bloody nightmare.
Being called a fat cunt will probably run through my brain regularly (thanks for that)
Mods: if anything needs removing please do. Sorry this just happened and I'm really confused and anxious now
It tells me that I am fat, disgusting, ugly, worthless and that I need to purge.
"The way that I have found the light in my life is through the expressive arts because I know that I will be accepted for the way I am." ~ Me
"I'm going to get strong again and see you soon. " ~ Anonymous
This gonns be one long night,
I mean it did used to exist because I used it a lot a few years ago
I just looked and they don't advertise the boards at all on their site anymore