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Kasa2103 · The future Meryl Streep · Incredible Poster

Just a diary about my week so there is no need for anyone to care about it but feel free to send a hug or reply if you want to. Friday 10th May: I had a good day especially in Dance and English and Music because in Music we watched a really good film- Sing. Saturday 11th May: I had my singing lesson which went good as I managed to learn one of my favourite songs- Slipping Through My Fingers. It is a great but sad song. Sunday 12th May: My day was good as I was just being lazy at home, watching YouTube on my phone, playing with my cats and doing homework. I had a nice lunch and dinner. I just slept through breakfast because it was Sunday so why not? However when I went to bed I decided to watch Mamma Mia and I started crying during the Slipping Through My Fingers scene as it is so sad but beautiful. It was half happy tears and half sad tears. Monday 13th May: At break time, people kept on asking me what happened to my face. At first I was ok with the questions because I didn't have a clue what they were talking about. However it got worse after break and someone asked me nearly every 15 minutes. Some people even said eww and told me to go hone. It was horrible. I actually had to write a note for everyone about it at lunchtime so they could see how I felt. That did not work though. In Spanish I just put my head on the table, didn't want to show my face or talk to anyone. Tuesday 14th May: All of this horrible stuff happened to me at school in just 1 day. It is ridiculous. People ran away from me, people said eww to me, people said that they don't want to get diseases although I only have a rash, someone threw a book at me. Also someone called me an ugly frog, someone called me and my mum irrelevant and someone threatened to make my face even uglier (aka punch me if I didn't shut up but I am safe. I spent maths in a bad mood which was awful. In religious studies I was either in tears or outside the room. In community time I was in tears and wrote negative stuff and 2 year 9's saw it and told the teacher. I spent break time in the toilets crying on my own. In science I was feeling so upset and stressed. In Spanish I was sas until my student support officer came to the room and called me out the room to speak to me. He also found out what happened in religious studies and also my science teacher spoke to him because he was worried as I was so upset) and pe sad, nearly in tears and on my own. However lunchtime wasn't as bad because I had dance club and I learnt a new dance which was good.  Wednesday 15th May: Before school when I was going to class, someone in my year screamed that they don't want to catch ringworm but I don't have it. Also other people ran away from me today, told other people to, said they don't want to get ringworm and that I should go home and go to the doctor. In Science everyone ran away and there were 28 people on 3 tables. There were 9 people on two tables and 10 on the other table. I was left on my own and felt very upset and lonely which was starting to become the norm for me. Thursday 16th May: In English nobody wanted to be near me or give stuff to me like the play we are studying so I got skipped until the teacher gave me a copy. In community time I was so sad and wanted to cry but I couldn't as I would have been laughed at or judged. At break time I hid in the toilets again as it was the only place where I felt safe in school. I tried so hard not to cry. I have had such a rubbish, sad and upsetting week. In Maths someone told me to look at them whilst waiting outside the classroom so they could see my face. When we got into class she kept on making me feel really guilty for being at school, said I would be in trouble if anyone caught it, made me cry and said that she would start being mean if I ignored her although my head was on my desk due to not wanting to show my face whilst also trying not to cry. I wish I didn't have to feel like this but it is normal and I deserve it because I keep on going to school although people say that I shouldn't. Nobody understands that I do not have ringworm. 😔

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  • Just a diary about my week so there is no need for anyone to care about it but feel free to send a hug or reply if you want to.

    Friday 10th May:

    I had a good day especially in Dance and English and Music because in Music we watched a really good film- Sing.

    Saturday 11th May:

    I had my singing lesson which went good as I managed to learn one of my favourite songs- Slipping Through My Fingers. It is a great but sad song.

    Sunday 12th May:

    My day was good as I was just being lazy at home, watching YouTube on my phone, playing with my cats and doing homework. I had a nice lunch and dinner. I just slept through breakfast because it was Sunday so why not? However when I went to bed I decided to watch Mamma Mia and I started crying during the Slipping Through My Fingers scene as it is so sad but beautiful. It was half happy tears and half sad tears.

    Monday 13th May:

    At break time, people kept on asking me what happened to my face. At first I was ok with the questions because I didn't have a clue what they were talking about. However it got worse after break and someone asked me nearly every 15 minutes. Some people even said eww and told me to go hone. It was horrible. I actually had to write a note for everyone about it at lunchtime so they could see how I felt. That did not work though. In Spanish I just put my head on the table, didn't want to show my face or talk to anyone.

    Tuesday 14th May:

    All of this horrible stuff happened to me at school in just 1 day. It is ridiculous. People ran away from me, people said eww to me, people said that they don't want to get diseases although I only have a rash, someone threw a book at me. Also someone called me an ugly frog, someone called me and my mum irrelevant and someone threatened to make my face even uglier (aka punch me if I didn't shut up but I am safe. I spent maths in a bad mood which was awful. In religious studies I was either in tears or outside the room. In community time I was in tears and wrote negative stuff and 2 year 9's saw it and told the teacher. I spent break time in the toilets crying on my own. In science I was feeling so upset and stressed. In Spanish I was sas until my student support officer came to the room and called me out the room to speak to me. He also found out what happened in religious studies and also my science teacher spoke to him because he was worried as I was so upset) and pe sad, nearly in tears and on my own. However lunchtime wasn't as bad because I had dance club and I learnt a new dance which was good. 

    Wednesday 15th May:

    Before school when I was going to class, someone in my year screamed that they don't want to catch ringworm but I don't have it. Also other people ran away from me today, told other people to, said they don't want to get ringworm and that I should go home and go to the doctor. In Science everyone ran away and there were 28 people on 3 tables. There were 9 people on two tables and 10 on the other table. I was left on my own and felt very upset and lonely which was starting to become the norm for me.

    Thursday 16th May:

    In English nobody wanted to be near me or give stuff to me like the play we are studying so I got skipped until the teacher gave me a copy. In community time I was so sad and wanted to cry but I couldn't as I would have been laughed at or judged. At break time I hid in the toilets again as it was the only place where I felt safe in school. I tried so hard not to cry. I have had such a rubbish, sad and upsetting week. In Maths someone told me to look at them whilst waiting outside the classroom so they could see my face. When we got into class she kept on making me feel really guilty for being at school, said I would be in trouble if anyone caught it, made me cry and said that she would start being mean if I ignored her although my head was on my desk due to not wanting to show my face whilst also trying not to cry. I wish I didn't have to feel like this but it is normal and I deserve it because I keep on going to school although people say that I shouldn't. Nobody understands that I do not have ringworm. 😔



    May 16 Comment
  • I really hate feeling like this. Yet another break time crying alone in the toilets.
    May 16 Comment
  • I feel so so so so upset right now and nothing is helping me. Please can I have hugs to try and help me? Here is a diary entry from on Tuesday 14th May 2019 to try and explain it. All of this horrible stuff happened to me at school in just 1 day. It is ridiculous. People ran away from me, people said eww to me, people said that they don't want to get diseases although I only have a rash, someone threw a book at me. Also someone called me an ugly frog, someone called me and my mum irrelevant and someone threatened to make my face even uglier (aka punch me if I didn't shut up but I am safe. I spent maths in a bad mood which was awful. In religious studies I was either in tears or outside the room. In community time I was in tears and wrote negative stuff and 2 year 9's saw it and told the teacher. I spent break time in the toilets crying on my own. In science I was feeling so upset and stressed. In Spanish I was sad until my student support officer came to the room and called me out the room to speak to me. He also found out what happened in religious studies and also my science teacher spoke to him because he was worried as I was so upset) and I spent pe sad, nearly in tears and on my own. That is what is wrong. People were also horrible to me today. People ran away from me, told others to get away from me, said they don't want to get ringworm although I don't have it, tell me to go home and laugh at me.  People have made me cry a lot and I have spent the past 2 break times crying in the toilets. It is horrible and I hate feeling like this but I deserve it.

    I sometimes want to be dead but I am safe before you worry.

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  • kathleen0172
    Thank you for the wall message Kasa :-) It wasn't unhelpful at all - it was lovely and really does make all the difference. You're sweet, keep it up bud <3
    May 10 Comment
    • Kasa2103
      Kasa2103
      You're very welcome. I am glad that you loved my message. Thank you for being so kind to me. The world needs people like you. ❤
    • kathleen0172
      kathleen0172
      Thanks so much <3 More people like you would be awesome, too x
    • Kasa2103
      Kasa2103
      The world would be hell and the population would dramatically decrease because nobody wants to be an ugly idiot like me
    • kathleen0172
      kathleen0172
      Aw no :-( I'm the ugly idiot here haha. I think you're a great person. I hope you'll agree to that one day.
    • Kasa2103
      Kasa2103
      I am the ugly idiot. Not you. Please believe that. You are wanted by people in this world. I am not.
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  • I have 119 signatures on my petition in just 30 hours. Doing well aren't I? Plus I have 3 online signatures so that makes 122 in total. 119 paper and 3 online.
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     So sorry for all of the emojis but I will explain why they are there in a minute. Tomorrow will be 3 years since my uncle died. I cannot cope with the thought of that. I loved my uncle so much and I miss him so much. Just because he is dead doesn't mean that I don't love him anymore. And I am supposed to go to school and cover my grieving with a smile and normality. How on earth is that supposed to happen? It won't. I don't want tomorrow to happen. If someone could skip tomorrow that would be appreciated so much. I would be so much happier if I could just skip tomorrow. I love my uncle so much and I miss him so much as well. I wish his body did not have to just suddenly quit working. I hope he is remembering me and having fun riding motorbikes in heaven. I didn't want him to die but everyone dies eventually.
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  • I am so dumb. I had such a bad day at school. I cannot believe how horrible and bitchy girls can be  (no offence to the females on here- it was not aimed at you.) One girl seems to think it is OK to make me cry multiple times, feel hated, want to move school and sometimes even want to die (but I am safe.) She keeps on talking about my teeth and hair in horrible ways. I cannot help having naturally greasy hair or an overbite. I hate myself and school so so so fucking much. 😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭 Sorry for the swearing and all the emojis but it is how I feel. 
    May 7 Comment
    • sozforhappy
      sozforhappy
      Ouch man but hey you know it's not only girls, my brother used to bully me like this too. Have you told a teacher or tried to confront her yourself?

      Take care
    • Kasa2103
      Kasa2103
      I am way too scared to tell a teacher and it won't be safe because it is likely I will beaten up or bullied worse by the bully which I don't want. I have tried to confront her but that made it even worse and I regret being so stupid. 😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭😢😭
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  • sozforhappy
    Hi there kasa, nice to meet you :)

    I'm 19 (I mentioned on my profile I'm doing a gap year before proceeding to uni😁). So you speak French well? I think I'd like to study french again if I have the chance (made a foolish mistake of picking art gcse instead 😂😂). So you're in yr8 or yr9? Any fave subjects and have you decided what to pick for GCSEs or still early days?
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      Kasa2103
      Yeah I do speak French quite well. Not as good as my English or Spanish though. Still not bad though. It is quite good for a student who self teaches French. I am in year 8. For my GCSE's I want to do Duke of Edinburgh, Religious Studies, English, Maths, Science, Spanish, Dance, Geography, Business and Food Technology. I don't have to officially choose my options until year 9 but they are my ideas.
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  • TRIGGER WARNING. PLEASE ONLY READ IF YOU DO NOT GET TRIGGERED WHEN SOMEONE TALKS ABOUT BODY IMAGE.

    I know that I really should be asleep but I can't sleep. I don't know who to talk to or what to do.

    My friend is so triggering and really does not help me. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I was messaging her about how I feel fat after I had dinner. I feel like I am such a fat, disgusting hippo (no offence to actual hippos.) Is it right that a 13 year old (or anyone) feels so fat, self concious and like they should go on a diet? She said I have no meat on me, I need to eat, that I am a stick and other stuff that is supposed to be nice. How is calling someone a stick a compliment? Please tell me. I understand that it might sound nicer than being called fat but it is still very offensive and triggering to me.

    I feel like there is way too much pressure for people's body image to be a certain way. I found out a lot more about that when Sexplain UK came to my school on 22nd March to talk about body image. We had to make collages out of fashion magazines which made me feel very uncomfortable because a lot of the models are soooooo slim and they are much, much, much, much prettier than me. I even had a chat with one of the volunteers from Sexplain about it and she agreed that there is too much pressure.
    It has left me very stressed and unable to sleep.

    I am writing this from my bed at 4am so you can guess how bad my sleep is. I have been awake since 2:15am. Why do I always have to be the one feeling like this? Why does anyone deserve to feel like this? 

    Written by a very tired, upset, ugly, blobilised stick figured hippo (aka Kasa.)



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  • Can my pain get any worse? 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
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  • I really really really really really need a hug and for someone to desperately punch some sense into me. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­ðŸ˜­
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    • kathleen0172
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      Aww *hug* xx I hope you're doing a lil better now.
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      Thanks but not particularly. Mods can delete my first thing if it is not appropriate.
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