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Nothing to live for anymore
BillieTheBot
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That's it, I've had enough. I can't do this anymore. For months now, I've been looking forward to meeting someone off the Internet. It was going to happen later this week, but now she's cancelled. There are a few reasons: thinks we're both in too vulnerable a state right now, and that she's scared things will go wrong. I'm devastated. I've been looking forward to this for so long now, and it's not going to happen in the end. I want to die. There's no point carrying on if nothing's ever going to happen.
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How many times have we been here now? Sort it out.
Malt xx
You don't think there's no hope; if you thought it was hopeless, you wouldn't get excited about meeting someone. You wouldn't even arrange to do it if you thought life was that hopeless.
Always remember there is always an upside from a downer.
Malt xxx
You cant do it right now but look to the future, keep getting to know each other and helping one anotehr online and maybe some time in the future you will meet this person SG.
Your like me in a way you seem to keep looking at the downside to everything, when you shouldnt. You gotta start looking up.
Yes.
Shit happens. Making overblown statements to get sympathy, however warranted the sympathy is, doesn't help anyone. Least of all yourself.
sorry if this doesn't make a whole load of sense, i was trying to apply it to your situation.
stay happy. and remember you always have something to live for, even if it is just life it's self.
ok, look at it this way. life is a fight, and in order to win it you have to struggle on. ok, yeah there are totaly shit bits but you have to choice to turn them around. no one else can make it better for you. they can help yes, but they can't make it better for you. you have to do that yourself. and that is your current fight.
we all faulter at times we aren't perfect thats the beauty of humans.
just thank yourself that you have people looking out for you. last year it felt like i had no one and i ended up doing something that almost killed me.
people do care and will always. you have to live for yourself and not anyone else, because then your life effectivly becomes someone elses. thus you have to love yourself before others. you have to be a bit selfish in order to survive.
*hugs* i no it's horrible when you can't see an end to the dark parts of life. i know it all to well.
if you let it get better it will. but you have to be positive. there is no way of getting better if you arn't.
Good points about this are:
- You'll meet new people.
- You'll build your social skills.
- You'll have a routine in the day.
- You'll make your own money.
- You'll have independence from making money.
- You'll prove to yourself you can have a stable lifestyle.
- You'll be a hundred times more confident a few months down the line.
Even if it's working in Asda, don't knock it. You NEED to get a job, mate. It'll be a start of something new.
It was an example of working somewhere as pants as that. Just..anywhere. You need to get the ball rolling, you were going on about getting a job about 4 months ago, when you joined.
There has got to be one place on this earth that you've been to, that makes you go Wow just at the beauty of it. You live in North Wales, lots of countryside around there, there has to be somewhere. That's what there is to live for.
When you go there, whatever the weather, the Nature of it is beautiful. Sit and watch the foxes, the voles, the squirrels, the birds as they go by. It refreshes your soul, and it is beautiful.
i understand how let down and gutted you must feel.
i cant cope with even tiny little things not going right, sounds pathetic but thats just the way i am right now. The little things i plan to do keep me going, keep me looking forward and remind me life aint hopeless yet. But when something goes wrong or something changes i really feel absolutely terrible and nothing else matters. nothing. no beautiful scenery in north wales, job, things to do, friends nothing except the pain and how to get rid of it(which often results in planning my suicide).
so i do feel for ya as it seems meeting your friend was really important to you.
Oh and someone mentioned Asda, dont get a job in sainsburys-more shit than you need. its crap.
That is a really good suggestion. When i started feeling down earlier this year i started going to a nearby hill with a view over the whole place i lived, the view was so beautyful i was in awe. I would go their to think and always come back a little happier.
I di this tonight because i am feeling quite unhappy and had a few thingso n my mind. The view of Edinburgh and the coast of Fife from calton hill is so awesome, it might have been bloody cold but the view more than made up fo rit, i came home withsome things sorted in my head as well. So it can work
Nothing is worth your life. Remember, once you're gone, you never come back (unless you believe in reincarnation, which I doubt much).
Try getting out and enjoying real life, and I mean that in the nicest way possible