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[OLD] The 'I need a hug' thread - please read first post before posting :)
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Hope your ok
Hugs lovely. You know where I am if you need a chat.
Please don't you don't deserve it
🌈Positive thoughts🌈
"This is my family. I found it, all on my own.It's little, and Broken, but still good. Yeah. Still good." ~ Stitch
"Lately, I've been struggling with all the simple things in my life" ~ Cian Ducrot
"I don't know if it's because my heart hurts or I'm insecure" ~ Juice Wrld
i am tired. i am tired of fighting and tired of losing and tired of being sick. it’s got to a point where i feel that i am just ill and nothing else in life seems to happen. when did i lose me? when did i become the girl who spends meals counting calories and throwing up just to avoid this dreaded monster Weight? when did i spend nights trying to reason myself out of going just a little bit further? when did i start hurting myself for release? when did i lose knowing what was real, instead bound up in this almost fantasy land, except everything is out to hurt me? when?
because. this is my now. and i am hurting and afraid to hurt. because it’s just not safe and i’m desperate to get back to uni but also terrified that i’ll slip up again. i need out but i also need looking after.
this last week has probably been one of the worst periods since i got sick. which is kinda not good. i’ve been an anxious wreck.i’ve been feeling suicidal. i’ve had to leave the lights off because it’s too intense to have them on. but also can’t sleep in the dark.
i think i’ve stressed so much recently that i’ve wrecked my head and hurt my body. it’s scary. i messed up. and can’t deal with the consequences of telling anyone. because now my instinct becomes to shrink away. touch is not safe. my body is not enough. i cannot.
i always pretend it’s fine until it suddenly isn’t. I need to learn how to make things safe. i’m trying. calling crisis lines that aren’t helping but are maybe helping enough to get me through the day.
it’s so hard to admit defeat and admit that i needed help. i don’t know. i’m afraid and vulnerable and need support. i’m scared and most of all i feel lonely. but i feel so so so guilty. guilty for being too much, for saying too much, feeling too much. sometimes i wonder if i should just shut up. i am overwhelmed, with a head full of questions and huge problems trusting and actually talking. i’m trying so hard but it’s just not seeming to be enough and I’m letting people down and feeling vulnerable and memories are bad and currently i just feel like a bad person for being so messy. i’m sorry.
i just. need a hug. xxx
I shouldn't really be but i still check her snap stuff sometimes and it bothers me a lot.
Sending hugs, can you do a self care night in instead?
Never feel guilty for not going out. If you don't feel up to it, it's ok to not go out there's always next time
Is it a anxiety / panic attack kind of thing or something else?