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I'm looking into other services. There's a service run by the NHS that provides different forms of therapy to people who aren't being seen by the CMHT. I'm also looking at getting therapy from two different services which offer supervised therapy by trainees at a cheaper price. It's so hard to be positive about it all though
I hope you get somewhere. Meanwhile, have you tried MoodGym?
I completed MoodGym around this time last year but suppose it can't harm to try again.
oh love *hug*
it feels so awful when this happens. it happened to me twice. it's really hard to readjust to a life without mh services, especially when you're really struggling. it's not because no one gives a shit, you know that. it doesn't make it easier though. lots of hugs for you x
The nice thing about CBT is that you can keep refreshing ad infinitem. I would also really recommend finding some good Mindfulness resources. It just keeps the edge off (when I can find the time!).
But yeah, I've self-referred to the free service, waiting for a call back from one of the trainee services and I've spoken to the other and they're going to call me back next week. I really hope something comes up. I don't want to be like this. It's a bit frustrating that I was constantly told that I was worth helping and that it was good that I was trying, but that got me nowhere.
Ah well. I'll get over it I guess.
That's really good progress, I'm really impressed. Hope one of them comes through.
And I know this is becoming more of a diary of my moaning - I'm sorry about that
Who's in place acting for him? There will be someone you can see. If all else fails, try the disability / student support folks. They're usually very good and can help with ECs and practical advice.
It sucks that they're not on-site but I bet they'll answer an email. I know bringing new people in might seem pointless but from the pov of the university, you will be taken much more seriously with the disability people backing your corner on ECs, changed assessment, etc.
I think I'm going to stick it out. By the time I arrange a meeting with a new tutor it'd be at least the end of the week anyway, and I can't really miss anything until I've seen them. (I'm trying really hard to not give them reasons to chuck me out). It would also be a nightmare getting evidence etc which would take me into next week. I've only got 2 weeks till Easter so hopefully I can just get through till then and have a nice break. Save my 'time off card' for another occasion. Just hope this doesn't all push me over the edge.
How's the shifts going?
Counselling isn't going too well. I just don't seem to be clicking with the counsellor. It's hard to explain - I get annoyed at the questions she asks, and think why the hell is she asking me that etc etc. Hoping I just had an off day.
:crying:
So my options after being discharged from the CMHT were as follows:
-University counselling (which I'm still going to but not really clicking)
-Free NHS service for people not under the care of the CMHT. That's who I got the letter from (and quoted above).
-See a trainee therapist - won't be free but will be cheaper than private.
So the first 2 options aren't looking good. I've called up 2 separate people about the therapy. However I do need money.... I found out how my last therapy was funded (through occ health and uni). I tried to get in contact with my old CPN to try and get some sort of letter of recommendation (I figure noone's going to just hand me over money without a professional opinion). I first called over a week ago, and again a few days ago and he hasn't got back to me. Probably is thinking that because he's discharged me he never has to talk to me again.
I really am close to giving up. I know I shouldn't stop trying but it's so hard doing it alone and knowing there's little prospect of me getting help I'm a broken record I know, but the only reason I've stuck at uni etc is because I wanted to do that if I'm better. But I know I can't do it if I'm not better, so really what is the point? When I've felt really suicidal I've hung on to the hope that I'd be able to feel better with help. But that's not there anymore. There's no reason for me to believe things will change. Things have steadily got worse over the years. And with each crisis I've got even closer. I came so close a few months ago, and I think I'm heading downhill again.
Staying in bed isn't actually going to change anything apart from giving you time to think about how rubbish stuff might be.
High 5!
Don't take a phone or anything with you, it's purely to get some fresh air and allow your brain to absorb knowledge and rest a little bit. Ideally you don't want to think about anything except perhaps how beautiful the weather is!
Hope this helps xx
And I bet nothing actually got worse, did it?
(No, because clearly I am always right )
it's an engineering thing... I'm always right too.