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Re: [TW: Suicide] its been exhausting
sry for not replying sooner @TheNightmare rly appreciate you replying to my msg 
. im trying to get positive days but its just hard but all i can do is try. appreciate your support like always .
. im trying to get positive days but its just hard but all i can do is try. appreciate your support like always .
eylah
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🔴 TODAY: Navigating Changes on our Community Boards Follow Up session
Hey Everyone,
We know that change can be difficult, and the team have heard the community's worries about the recent changes at The Mix, especially since the merger. We want to acknowledge the feelings you've shared – the frustration, uncertainty, and perhaps even some sadness about things feeling different?
Your voices are so important to us, and we really appreciate you taking the time and energy to express what's on your mind. We understand that these changes, including those related to moderators and the updated Community Guidelines, have impacted our community in various ways. We recognise that these shifts can bring up a range of emotions, and we want to create a safe space to explore those feelings together.
With all of this in mind, we're inviting you to a youth voice session focused on navigating change within our community, led by myself and Talie. This isn't just about discussing the changes themselves, but also about acknowledging how they've affected us and exploring how The Mix can communicate any changes with you in the best ways moving forward.
Join us on:
Date: February 26th
Time: 6:30 PM - 7:30 PM
Location: Chatwee
I wanted to open this space up to the wider community, beyond our youth voice group (Community Connectors), so if you are wanting to come along to share your thoughts please sign up HERE and I will email you the password to the room on the day.
Any questions, let me know
Ella and The Team
We know that change can be difficult, and the team have heard the community's worries about the recent changes at The Mix, especially since the merger. We want to acknowledge the feelings you've shared – the frustration, uncertainty, and perhaps even some sadness about things feeling different?
Your voices are so important to us, and we really appreciate you taking the time and energy to express what's on your mind. We understand that these changes, including those related to moderators and the updated Community Guidelines, have impacted our community in various ways. We recognise that these shifts can bring up a range of emotions, and we want to create a safe space to explore those feelings together.
With all of this in mind, we're inviting you to a youth voice session focused on navigating change within our community, led by myself and Talie. This isn't just about discussing the changes themselves, but also about acknowledging how they've affected us and exploring how The Mix can communicate any changes with you in the best ways moving forward.
Join us on:
Date: February 26th
Time: 6:30 PM - 7:30 PM
Location: Chatwee
I wanted to open this space up to the wider community, beyond our youth voice group (Community Connectors), so if you are wanting to come along to share your thoughts please sign up HERE and I will email you the password to the room on the day.
Any questions, let me know
Ella and The Team
ella
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Re: 🔴 TODAY: Navigating Changes on our Community Boards Follow Up session
No worries at all @Rose113 -- looking forward to seeing you there
ella
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Breaking through
I’ve been feeling this way for a long time, but the past couple of years have been especially tough. I feel stuck in a rut and unhappy with where I’m at, often doubting myself wI'm really sorry you're going through this. You've been through so much, and it's completely understandable to feel drained. Just take it one step at a time you're stronger than you think. You’re not alone, and you deserve support. Keep holding on. I'm really sorry you're going through this. You've been through so much, and it's completely understandable to feel drained. Just take it one step at a time you're stronger than you think. You’re not alone, and you deserve support. Keep holding on.
I know many people feel this way at some point and tend to be too hard on themselves, but for me, it feels different. I don’t have a job, I’m not where I should be, and I feel like I haven’t achieved anything yet. I’ve tried a few things over the last two years, hoping they would lead somewhere, but they didn’t work out, and I ended up finishing both years without a job, which really gets to me. I have some things coming up that could lead to something, but they aren’t guaranteed, and I can’t help but worry they’ll flop or won’t turn out as I hoped, just like before. It’s frustrating because I don’t want to keep ending up in the same place, feeling like I’ve wasted more time. Still, I want to break this cycle, push through, and make the most of things.
I know many people feel this way at some point and tend to be too hard on themselves, but for me, it feels different. I don’t have a job, I’m not where I should be, and I feel like I haven’t achieved anything yet. I’ve tried a few things over the last two years, hoping they would lead somewhere, but they didn’t work out, and I ended up finishing both years without a job, which really gets to me. I have some things coming up that could lead to something, but they aren’t guaranteed, and I can’t help but worry they’ll flop or won’t turn out as I hoped, just like before. It’s frustrating because I don’t want to keep ending up in the same place, feeling like I’ve wasted more time. Still, I want to break this cycle, push through, and make the most of things.
Moving on
The mix should make a goodbye section for the boards😂
Anyway, I don’t really have a massive goodbye post to write, I just wanted to pass on my thank yous and not just disappear.
I joined The Mix for support, I stayed for the community. This website was home for so many of us and lately I’ve been missing that homely community feel. Hard to put a finger on what’s changed, it just doesn’t feel like it was. Maybe because so many people I care so deeply about have left. Idk.
But, change is fine and I hope the new members find the mix as helpful as I did when I first joined.
I’ll be forever grateful for the friendships I’ve made on here. I’ve had so many funny conversations with so many of you. I’ve been very lucky & If we don’t stay in touch, I wish ye all the blessings in the world 🍀
Good luck with uni, family life, getting jobs, falling in love. The whole lot. You all deserve the best that life has to offer.
A big thank you also to the mods & staff for everything you do for us all.
Bye bye😃 👋🏼
Anyway, I don’t really have a massive goodbye post to write, I just wanted to pass on my thank yous and not just disappear.
I joined The Mix for support, I stayed for the community. This website was home for so many of us and lately I’ve been missing that homely community feel. Hard to put a finger on what’s changed, it just doesn’t feel like it was. Maybe because so many people I care so deeply about have left. Idk.
But, change is fine and I hope the new members find the mix as helpful as I did when I first joined.
I’ll be forever grateful for the friendships I’ve made on here. I’ve had so many funny conversations with so many of you. I’ve been very lucky & If we don’t stay in touch, I wish ye all the blessings in the world 🍀
Good luck with uni, family life, getting jobs, falling in love. The whole lot. You all deserve the best that life has to offer.
A big thank you also to the mods & staff for everything you do for us all.
Bye bye😃 👋🏼
Faolan
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Re: (TW: SH) GP appointment: confused by it
Another kinda update with this whole situation: it isn't even to do with the GP appointment as im done with them just waiting for my next one in about 3 weeks (need to book it tbh though).
But I had my old ED therapist message me today about having a chat to see how I am with my wellbeing etc. I was a little reluctant to message back and agree to it just coz it was at work and felt abit uncomfy. Anyway I did end up having a chat with him on a video call whilst sat in my car.
He was definitely told by the health nurse what had been going on recently as he didnt focus on anything to do with my ED at all not till the last 5 minutes. However, he was concerned with the frequency of my suicidal thoughts and how i have acted on these and not recieved help recently * im safe now though *. He breifly said that it seems I've lost basically everything and have no fear of death or anything like that.
We did discuss my thoughts a little bit and talk about my safety etc - tbh I'm surprised I was honest coz im not always honest about my thoughts and will pretend im fine.
My old therapist has agreed to provide kinda weekly wellbeing calls. I have one next Wednesday with him at like 12pm (noon) and then he's on annual leave begining of March so idk what's happening then. Not looking forward to next one though coz we are going to talk abit more about my eating habits because since leaving therapy (well getting discharged) things have been all over the place - he doesn't want to go over things we already did in the past therapy session but I feel like we will. I know everything already that i should be doing and what I need to do but its just hard.
Still not heard back from CMHT with this phone call - idk if I phone them again to find out or wait and see if they contact me. Like in my head I want to find out why they phoned me but then the anxiety makes it difficult to even attempt to make a call.
I just dont know what to do.
There's too many things happening all at once too much uncertainty in a way.
Im exhausted with everything- but then that's coz I'll mask constantly
But I had my old ED therapist message me today about having a chat to see how I am with my wellbeing etc. I was a little reluctant to message back and agree to it just coz it was at work and felt abit uncomfy. Anyway I did end up having a chat with him on a video call whilst sat in my car.
He was definitely told by the health nurse what had been going on recently as he didnt focus on anything to do with my ED at all not till the last 5 minutes. However, he was concerned with the frequency of my suicidal thoughts and how i have acted on these and not recieved help recently * im safe now though *. He breifly said that it seems I've lost basically everything and have no fear of death or anything like that.
We did discuss my thoughts a little bit and talk about my safety etc - tbh I'm surprised I was honest coz im not always honest about my thoughts and will pretend im fine.
My old therapist has agreed to provide kinda weekly wellbeing calls. I have one next Wednesday with him at like 12pm (noon) and then he's on annual leave begining of March so idk what's happening then. Not looking forward to next one though coz we are going to talk abit more about my eating habits because since leaving therapy (well getting discharged) things have been all over the place - he doesn't want to go over things we already did in the past therapy session but I feel like we will. I know everything already that i should be doing and what I need to do but its just hard.
Still not heard back from CMHT with this phone call - idk if I phone them again to find out or wait and see if they contact me. Like in my head I want to find out why they phoned me but then the anxiety makes it difficult to even attempt to make a call.
I just dont know what to do.
There's too many things happening all at once too much uncertainty in a way.
Im exhausted with everything- but then that's coz I'll mask constantly
Re: (TW suicide) I’m fucking panicking
@eylah Unfortunately, I struggled to sleep last night and I still feel low. But I know that I will feel better once I’ve finished all my shifts this week.
When I’m not at work, I’m a lot more confident and happy.
Thank you for checking in on me
When I’m not at work, I’m a lot more confident and happy.
Thank you for checking in on me
Re: [TW: Suicide] its been exhausting
had a rly rough few days been in hospital bc of reactions and a mini seziure i had few days ago but was in hospital when i had it. but was bc i was rly stressed. but im trying my best to keep going but had a rly awful experience with police today which im sad abt bc the first two officers were rly nice but then two came along and were horrible. they was not supportive at all 
. im so drained i just wanna sleep and cry but can do neither of them. wish coming out of hospital ( psych ) was easy but it’s going to shits it rly is and im sad abt it. bc its not easy it’s getting rly hard 
. seen a dr abt the seziure and im doing better this was few days ago 
. im so drained i just wanna sleep and cry but can do neither of them. wish coming out of hospital ( psych ) was easy but it’s going to shits it rly is and im sad abt it. bc its not easy it’s getting rly hard . seen a dr abt the seziure and im doing better this was few days ago eylah
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