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Re: Im just so tired of living like this.
@Chloe234 you're doing so very well to share this with us and I can hear how much you're hurting. It's not easy to open up and to put how we're feeling into words. You've been through so much, and it's completely understandable to feel overwhelmed and exhausted. How are you feeling getting these things off your chest? 
Reading through those papers and seeing patterns that have been there since childhood must be incredibly tough. It feels like you're carrying a lot of weight, and it's okay to acknowledge just how hard that is. It's not fair that you've had to endure so much trauma and pressure to meet others' expectations. Your feelings of being stuck and numb are valid, and it's okay to feel like it's all too much sometimes. I'm not sure what kind of person wouldn't be feeling these emotions after going through what you have done at such a young age.
Like @Slinky has shared above, please know that just because things have been a certain way doesn't mean they will always be this way. Change can be slow and difficult, but it is possible and there is always hope. You're incredibly strong for holding on despite everything you've been through. Wanting things to change and to have a future, even if it's hard to see right now, shows a lot of resilience. It's understandable to worry about the future and about becoming a parent, given your past experiences. This shows how deeply you care and how much you want to create a loving life for yourself and others and that's something to hold onto.
Please remember, you're not alone in this. There are people who care about you and want to help you through these feelings (us included!). It's okay to reach out and let others support you. You deserve compassion, understanding, and a chance to heal. Do you have any spaces in your life where you feel safe to explore this some more?
Take things one day at a time, and be gentle with yourself. You're doing the best you can, and that's enough. Your feelings and experiences are valid, and there is hope, even when it feels distant.

Reading through those papers and seeing patterns that have been there since childhood must be incredibly tough. It feels like you're carrying a lot of weight, and it's okay to acknowledge just how hard that is. It's not fair that you've had to endure so much trauma and pressure to meet others' expectations. Your feelings of being stuck and numb are valid, and it's okay to feel like it's all too much sometimes. I'm not sure what kind of person wouldn't be feeling these emotions after going through what you have done at such a young age.
Like @Slinky has shared above, please know that just because things have been a certain way doesn't mean they will always be this way. Change can be slow and difficult, but it is possible and there is always hope. You're incredibly strong for holding on despite everything you've been through. Wanting things to change and to have a future, even if it's hard to see right now, shows a lot of resilience. It's understandable to worry about the future and about becoming a parent, given your past experiences. This shows how deeply you care and how much you want to create a loving life for yourself and others and that's something to hold onto.
Please remember, you're not alone in this. There are people who care about you and want to help you through these feelings (us included!). It's okay to reach out and let others support you. You deserve compassion, understanding, and a chance to heal. Do you have any spaces in your life where you feel safe to explore this some more?
Take things one day at a time, and be gentle with yourself. You're doing the best you can, and that's enough. Your feelings and experiences are valid, and there is hope, even when it feels distant.


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Re: oil art. digital :)
Wow @eylah you have a true talent! It's lovely to see you artwork- so keep posting because it brings a smile to all our faces 

Re: My goals
TheNightmare wrote: »I love this - wishing you the best of luck in achieving these goals, I'm sure you will no matter the length of time it takes
@sinead276 can I ask if there is anything specific you love about this too?
i think i like the fact they are realistic goals - something you could absolutely achieve. you know what you want to achieve in different areas of your life - whether its the job, partner and child or holidays. they cover a range of topics and some are long-term. The fact you could clearly write what you want achieve is arguably the first step to achieving them. Getting them out of our minds and down into the world is typically the first motivation we need to push ourselves to achieve them. Plus they also got me thinking about my own goals for the future.
But like I said before, I think it's good you've got ideas for the future, and from what i've seen in some of your other posts, you definitely have the motivation to go and achieve them.
Hope this made any sense to you 😂
Sinead