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  • Kasa2103Kasa2103 Ugly Snake South EastPosts: 2,498 Mega Poster
    I know that this is also on Time For Another Ranty Thread so sorry but I need a hug.

    My arm hurts so fucking much. I think I fractured my elbow. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 Two fucking days before my fucking pe assessment. Thanks to an ice skater forcing me to suddenly crash into the barrier. I didn't make it and fell and landed very hard on my arm. Bloody stupid Kasa. 

    @The Mix Sorry for all the swearing but I am in a lot of pain and angry at myself. 
    Even if you're little you can do a lot. You musn't let a little thing like little stop you. If you sit around and let them get on top you might as well be saying you think that it's okay, and that's not right. And if it's not right you have to put it right.
    Kathleen07
  • Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,909 Postholic
    Kasa2103 said:
    I know that this is also on Time For Another Ranty Thread so sorry but I need a hug.

    My arm hurts so fucking much. I think I fractured my elbow. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 Two fucking days before my fucking pe assessment. Thanks to an ice skater forcing me to suddenly crash into the barrier. I didn't make it and fell and landed very hard on my arm. Bloody stupid Kasa. 

    @The Mix Sorry for all the swearing but I am in a lot of pain and angry at myself. 
    Plenty of hugs Kasa <3
  • Kasa2103Kasa2103 Ugly Snake South EastPosts: 2,498 Mega Poster
    Kasa2103 said:
    I know that this is also on Time For Another Ranty Thread so sorry but I need a hug.

    My arm hurts so fucking much. I think I fractured my elbow. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 Two fucking days before my fucking pe assessment. Thanks to an ice skater forcing me to suddenly crash into the barrier. I didn't make it and fell and landed very hard on my arm. Bloody stupid Kasa. 

    @The Mix Sorry for all the swearing but I am in a lot of pain and angry at myself. 
    Plenty of hugs Kasa <3

    Thanks so much.  <3 Still in a lot of pain. If I take painkillers I'll probably take too much with the pain. My arm is fine if it is just resting in the car but hurts like fuck other times.
    Even if you're little you can do a lot. You musn't let a little thing like little stop you. If you sit around and let them get on top you might as well be saying you think that it's okay, and that's not right. And if it's not right you have to put it right.
    Kathleen07
  • ShaunieShaunie England 🏠Posts: 7,375 The Mix Elder
    Kasa2103 said:
    I know that this is also on Time For Another Ranty Thread so sorry but I need a hug.

    My arm hurts so fucking much. I think I fractured my elbow. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 Two fucking days before my fucking pe assessment. Thanks to an ice skater forcing me to suddenly crash into the barrier. I didn't make it and fell and landed very hard on my arm. Bloody stupid Kasa. 

    @The Mix Sorry for all the swearing but I am in a lot of pain and angry at myself. 
    Sending hugs

    But You can swear. No need to be sorry 
    On break from here
    Kasa2103
  • ShaunieShaunie England 🏠Posts: 7,375 The Mix Elder
    Just had shit day. I don’t know why im still alive anymore
    On break from here
    Kathleen07Aife
  • Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,909 Postholic
    Kasa2103 said:
    Kasa2103 said:
    I know that this is also on Time For Another Ranty Thread so sorry but I need a hug.

    My arm hurts so fucking much. I think I fractured my elbow. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 Two fucking days before my fucking pe assessment. Thanks to an ice skater forcing me to suddenly crash into the barrier. I didn't make it and fell and landed very hard on my arm. Bloody stupid Kasa. 

    @The Mix Sorry for all the swearing but I am in a lot of pain and angry at myself. 
    Plenty of hugs Kasa <3

    Thanks so much.  <3 Still in a lot of pain. If I take painkillers I'll probably take too much with the pain. My arm is fine if it is just resting in the car but hurts like fuck other times.
    @Kasa2103 Poor you <3 Back in 2017 I hurt my arm - couldn't even turn a tap on, it was crazy lol. Really hope the pain eases soon, it can't be much fun:(
    Kasa2103
  • Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,909 Postholic
    Shaunie said:
    Just had shit day. I don’t know why im still alive anymore
    Aw I'm sorry @Shaunie, if I was with you I'd give you a hug <3
  • BubblesGoesBooBubblesGoesBoo Sunny ScotlandPosts: 2,898 Mega Poster
    Suggested taking my mam out for Chinese a few days ago for mothers day..  regretting it now, why has food become such a fear again? 
    ' So I put a bullet where I shouda put a helmet, and I crash my car cause I wanna get carried away, that's why I'm standing on the overpass screaming at myself 'hey, I wanna get better''  
    Kathleen07Aife
  • Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,909 Postholic
    Suggested taking my mam out for Chinese a few days ago for mothers day..  regretting it now, why has food become such a fear again? 
    Sending love and hugs @BubblesGoesBoo <3
  • Millie2787Millie2787 Carer/Craft Lover Posts: 2,486 Mega Poster
    Missing nan so much today I’ve already gone to the toliet a few times to just sit and cry I’m missing her so much 
    “ I believe that you have the power to achieve whatever you put your mind too, You are living a life’s most people won’t  ever understand but that’s what will Be the root of all your determination and success. You have a soul full of love and kindness and I just know that despite all the hardship, a life’s of happiness awaits you and I’m very proud of you, just keep holding on” 
    Kathleen07Kasa2103Aife
  • Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,909 Postholic
    Missing nan so much today I’ve already gone to the toliet a few times to just sit and cry I’m missing her so much 
    I'm really sorry to hear that @Millie2787, hugs 🤗 x

  • ShaunieShaunie England 🏠Posts: 7,375 The Mix Elder
    Wow mothers day is so fake. Come home to get moaned at for not getting her a card. Like wtf im the only one who doesnt tell her to shut the fuck up all the time. Now wanna play happy family. Un fuck off
    On break from here
    Kathleen07Aife
  • Millie2787Millie2787 Carer/Craft Lover Posts: 2,486 Mega Poster
    Sat crying my eyes out whilst rocking back and forth cuddling pink ted look like a right werido
    “ I believe that you have the power to achieve whatever you put your mind too, You are living a life’s most people won’t  ever understand but that’s what will Be the root of all your determination and success. You have a soul full of love and kindness and I just know that despite all the hardship, a life’s of happiness awaits you and I’m very proud of you, just keep holding on” 
    Kasa2103Kathleen07
  • BubblesGoesBooBubblesGoesBoo Sunny ScotlandPosts: 2,898 Mega Poster
    Kept waking up in pain last night, but everytime I woke up the pain was in a different part of my body ... barely slept cause of it and  now gotta do a 9 hour shift. 
    ' So I put a bullet where I shouda put a helmet, and I crash my car cause I wanna get carried away, that's why I'm standing on the overpass screaming at myself 'hey, I wanna get better''  
    Millie2787Shaunie
  • ShaunieShaunie England 🏠Posts: 7,375 The Mix Elder
    Know you have pretty low self worth when every time you reply to someones post on here(to help and give support) a part of you feels bad for doing it and like i am a nobody so maybe i am just annoying to people and dont want a nobody replying to them. And am annoying they see an notification and is from a nobody. Am sorry if people feel like that know i am a nobody just like to try to help tho
    On break from here
    Kathleen07
  • Millie2787Millie2787 Carer/Craft Lover Posts: 2,486 Mega Poster
    Shaunie said:
    Know you have pretty low self worth when every time you reply to someones post on here(to help and give support) a part of you feels bad for doing it and like i am a nobody so maybe i am just annoying to people and dont want a nobody replying to them. And am annoying they see an notification and is from a nobody. Am sorry if people feel like that know i am a nobody just like to try to help tho
    No @shaunie attucally seeing you reply to my threads really do help me becuase I get scared that I’m annoying péople when ever I post so you replying really does help and a lot of time you help me to breakdown what I’m feeling just by asking simple questions so for that you should be really proud becuase me and my emotions are complex xx
    “ I believe that you have the power to achieve whatever you put your mind too, You are living a life’s most people won’t  ever understand but that’s what will Be the root of all your determination and success. You have a soul full of love and kindness and I just know that despite all the hardship, a life’s of happiness awaits you and I’m very proud of you, just keep holding on” 
    Shaunie
  • Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,909 Postholic
    Shaunie said:
    Know you have pretty low self worth when every time you reply to someones post on here(to help and give support) a part of you feels bad for doing it and like i am a nobody so maybe i am just annoying to people and dont want a nobody replying to them. And am annoying they see an notification and is from a nobody. Am sorry if people feel like that know i am a nobody just like to try to help tho
    Aw bud, I personally love your replies - and you're not a nobody. <3
    Shaunie
  • Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,909 Postholic
    Oh God. I think Ruby's mouth is bloody... I'm scared. Idk what to do now. 

    I'm scared I'll lose her. Sounds  dramatic but it's true. 

    Dk what's happening 
    Shaunie
  • Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,909 Postholic
    edited April 2019
    Oh God. I think Ruby's mouth is bloody... I'm scared. Idk what to do now. 

    I'm scared I'll lose her. Sounds  dramatic but it's true. 

    Dk what's happening 
    Okay um... It seems like she's broken another tooth. If she has, that's the third one in like, 1 and a half, or 2, months. I don't know why it would be happening. Vitamin C deficiency is the best I can think of, but A, surely she can't be terribly deficient if her food is fortified and carrot and cucumber probably has a little, and B, wouldn't there be other symptoms? I've been trying to get her to have bell pepper but she hasn't taken to it, so don't assume I'm not trying to give her more vitamin C - I think I'll need to get some drops to put in her water.

    I think I saw blood. It's hard to tell, but I'm 99% sure it's on her chin/chest. Couldn't see her mouth all that well though so idk about there.

    I'm probably staying up all night - I know, maybe a terrible idea when I'm really tired, but...

    Might have to take her to the vets tomorrow. God knows. My dad will phone them in the morning and ask. And I have to write notes about what's been happening so he knows what to say to them (as he hasn't witnessed nearly as much as me and I have a better idea of what's going on).

    I'm not even so much scared now as I am confused. Confused as in - I don't know how bad this is or what to do in this moment, I don't know what's causing her teeth to break and how I can help her, etc.. But obviously I am still really scared.

    There's a fear in my mind that they'll suggest to me to have her put to sleep. I know it seems silly but I'm scared that there's nothing they can do and it will be kinder for her to die. In part I probably feel this way because of what happened with Abby (other guinea pig) - I can't go through that again, so my brain kind of tries to prepare itself for the worst. Idk. Whatever. I'll shut up now. My internet went off and may go off again any moment, anyway.

    PLEASE wish me luck with... everything...
    Shaunie
  • ShaunieShaunie England 🏠Posts: 7,375 The Mix Elder
    Hope you and rudy are okay @kathleen0172
    On break from here
    Kathleen07
  • ShaunieShaunie England 🏠Posts: 7,375 The Mix Elder
    I know how weird this will make me sound but it is what it is lol. But im only ever awake this early if i have a dream. & today had dream that i got banned from this site. Glad to see i still have my account lol. 

    Feel like all support will leave me:(
    On break from here
    Kathleen07
  • Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,909 Postholic
    Shaunie said:
    Hope you and rudy are okay @kathleen0172
    @Shaunie <3 To briefly update, I stayed up all night (lol... help), I haven't heard her drink her water at all so I'm worried about that, but I have seen Ruby eating so it seems she hasn't lost all ability at least... So idk about Ruby, but I ain't okay...
    Shaunie said:
    I know how weird this will make me sound but it is what it is lol. But im only ever awake this early if i have a dream. & today had dream that i got banned from this site. Glad to see i still have my account lol. 

    Feel like all support will leave me:(
    Aw hugs x
    Shaunie
  • Kasa2103Kasa2103 Ugly Snake South EastPosts: 2,498 Mega Poster
    I know that this is also on Time For Another Ranty Thread so sorry but I need a hug.

    My arm hurts so fucking much. I think I fractured my elbow. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 Two fucking days before my fucking pe assessment. Thanks to an ice skater forcing me to suddenly crash into the barrier. I didn't make it and fell and landed very hard on my arm. Bloody stupid Kasa. 

    @The Mix Sorry for all the swearing but I am in a lot of pain and angry at myself. 
    Even if you're little you can do a lot. You musn't let a little thing like little stop you. If you sit around and let them get on top you might as well be saying you think that it's okay, and that's not right. And if it's not right you have to put it right.
    Kathleen07
  • ShaunieShaunie England 🏠Posts: 7,375 The Mix Elder
    @Kasa2103
    you know you are allowed to swear but still taggging the mix? If anything you need to say sorry for keep spamming their notifcations for no reason 
    On break from here
  • Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,909 Postholic
    I am scared... :+1: Anxious and worried and unsure what to do. Ah god please send help.
    Shaunie
  • Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,909 Postholic
    edited April 2019
    I still haven't noticed Ruby drinking any water. So unless she somehow sneakily had it or timed it so I was in that 1 hour sleep when she had a drink, it's been over 12 hours since she last drank at all.

    My dad phoned the vets and they said they'll ring back when one is available to talk with him. I wish they'd hurry up already. I'm really concerned and nervous and I just want at least some idea of what to do.

    I bet this is all my fault. Should've taken more care to feed her enough vitamin C. All I do is fail and I hate myself.

    They might say that they need to file some teeth to make them more even, or they need to have a look - in which case they'll probably be putting her under anesthetic again. And it's kind of risky so I'm scared that if they do need to do that, she won't make it this time. But also, I just really really don't want her to be scared and stressed. I love her so much and all I want is for her to be healthy and happy. And I feel like I'm letting her down in some way. I'm also scared that I'm about to make the wrong choice - so maybe I'll bring her to the vets to be put under anesthetic again. What if she dies and it was actually for nothing because it wasn't a huge problem? Or I don't take her in and she's in pain or something. You get my point.

    (I'll stop spamming this thread now, sorry that I moan to y'all so much)


    ShaunieAife
  • AifeAife LondonPosts: 2,169 Moderator
    I hope everything is okay @kathleen0172 keep us updated with how Ruby is doing. Sending you hugs <3
    Maybe somethings don't get better, but we do. We get stronger. We learn to live with our situations as messy and ugly as they are. We fix what we can and we adapt to what we can't. Maybe some of us will never fully be okay, but at least we're here. We're still trying. We're doing the best we can. That's worth celebrating too ❤
    Kathleen07
  • Millie2787Millie2787 Carer/Craft Lover Posts: 2,486 Mega Poster
    Shattered today , hardly been able to concentrate with the kids today both mum and Leo kicked off last night. Nothing like being slapped and bite and kicked when all you was doing was calming him down 😥
    “ I believe that you have the power to achieve whatever you put your mind too, You are living a life’s most people won’t  ever understand but that’s what will Be the root of all your determination and success. You have a soul full of love and kindness and I just know that despite all the hardship, a life’s of happiness awaits you and I’m very proud of you, just keep holding on” 
    Kathleen07
  • ShaunieShaunie England 🏠Posts: 7,375 The Mix Elder
    edited April 2019
    Did the hoovering. Tell my family i did the hoovering - (first time i dont get told/forced to do it)

    they all look at each other in bitchy way like "do you want a medal or something" - and like - we do the hoovering the time no big deal. 

    so ive gone back to bed. No one cares and i just embarrassed myself. Am useless. Wish i never bothered now  Dont think they realise how mich energy it took
    On break from here
    Kathleen07
  • Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,909 Postholic
    Sorry I'm just updating about Ruby.

    First, if you saw my post in the ranty thread... I managed to sleep for like 15 minutes. Nothing more.

    The vets phoned back. Long story short, they said as long as Ruby is eating and drinking, don't bother taking her in, unless her mouths starts swelling or smells bad. So now I just have to keep watching her and being on edge and not be sure what I'm doing.

    Oh god my head hurts. Sleep deprivation. Maybe stress but mostly sleep deprivation.
    Kasa2103Aife
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