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Re: im at breaking point.
im sorry to hear youre going through that eylah. hopefully things get better soon
Re: Worst results ever
im sending you my love rose your so strong. i hope everything goes smoothly with specialist. 
eylah
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Re: im at breaking point.
That’s horrible! It’s not your fault!!im struggling sm with everything going on rn. i keep blaming myself for my best friend death my dad is agreeing with me to.
I’m so sorry to hear all of this, we’re here for you
I really wish there was more I / we could do to help 🫂
Re: im at breaking point.
I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way right now @eylah. It’s incredibly hard to carry all of this weight on your shoulders, especially when you feel so alone. I want you to know that you are not to blame for what happened to your best friend. Grief can make us think all kinds of things, but that doesn't make them true. You are not responsible, and your worth is so much more than what these thoughts are telling you. Can I ask what makes you feel that sense of blame?
I'm aware the staff team checked in with you via DM to share some services that can help you through this really difficult period with your grief. I'll pop them again below:
It’s okay to feel overwhelmed, especially with everything you’re going through. Please try to be kind to yourself right now. You’re carrying a lot, and it’s okay to ask for help when you need it, even if it feels like the help isn’t coming as quickly as you need. You deserve support, and I’m so sorry you’ve been let down by those who should be there for you. Could you follow up with the ED team to check in with them? You deserve to hear from them.
I know it’s hard, but try to hold on to the fact that you’re doing your best. You’re still here, still trying, even when it feels like everything is against you. That shows so much strength, even if it doesn’t feel like it. You are not useless or purposeless - your life has meaning, and your pain is real and valid.
It’s okay to miss your mum and feel triggered by the hospital. And it’s okay to take care of yourself by stepping away when things feel too much. Do you feel comfy sharing a bit more around those triggers you're experiencing at the hospital?
You deserve to have people around you who care. I can see you've mentioned that you're safe and aren't experiencing suicidal thoughts. But if things get too much, please remember to reach out to these services below (you don't have to be in crisis to reach out either):
Sending hugs
I'm aware the staff team checked in with you via DM to share some services that can help you through this really difficult period with your grief. I'll pop them again below:
Hope Again is a service for young people up to 25 who are affected by a bereavement. They're run by Cruse Bereavement Care and they offer support via phone, email & have online support through their website at www.hopeagain.org.uk. They are open Monday-Friday from 9.30am-5pm, and stay open until 8pm on Tuesdays, Wednesdays and Thursdays. You can call them on 0808 808 1677 or email them at hopeagain@cruse.org.uk
There's an organisation called Grief Encounter which aims to provide support to anyone who has suffered from a bereavement. They run a helpline and their website also contains helpful resources. They are open Monday - Friday from 9am - 9pm. You can call them on 0808 802 0111, email them at grieftalk@griefencounter.org.uk or visit their website at www.griefencounter.org.uk for their counselling service and more information.
Support After Murder and Manslaughter (SAMM) is a an organisation supporting those that have been bereaved by murder or manslaughter. Their volunteers can offer one-to-one peer support for as long as a person needs it. This can be done over the phone or via a video link. You can call them on 0121 472 2912, or text 07342 888570 or email them at info@samm.org.uk. They also have a range of information and an online support forum on their website at https://samm.org.uk/
There's an organisation called Grief Encounter which aims to provide support to anyone who has suffered from a bereavement. They run a helpline and their website also contains helpful resources. They are open Monday - Friday from 9am - 9pm. You can call them on 0808 802 0111, email them at grieftalk@griefencounter.org.uk or visit their website at www.griefencounter.org.uk for their counselling service and more information.
Support After Murder and Manslaughter (SAMM) is a an organisation supporting those that have been bereaved by murder or manslaughter. Their volunteers can offer one-to-one peer support for as long as a person needs it. This can be done over the phone or via a video link. You can call them on 0121 472 2912, or text 07342 888570 or email them at info@samm.org.uk. They also have a range of information and an online support forum on their website at https://samm.org.uk/
It’s okay to feel overwhelmed, especially with everything you’re going through. Please try to be kind to yourself right now. You’re carrying a lot, and it’s okay to ask for help when you need it, even if it feels like the help isn’t coming as quickly as you need. You deserve support, and I’m so sorry you’ve been let down by those who should be there for you. Could you follow up with the ED team to check in with them? You deserve to hear from them.
I know it’s hard, but try to hold on to the fact that you’re doing your best. You’re still here, still trying, even when it feels like everything is against you. That shows so much strength, even if it doesn’t feel like it. You are not useless or purposeless - your life has meaning, and your pain is real and valid.
It’s okay to miss your mum and feel triggered by the hospital. And it’s okay to take care of yourself by stepping away when things feel too much. Do you feel comfy sharing a bit more around those triggers you're experiencing at the hospital?
You deserve to have people around you who care. I can see you've mentioned that you're safe and aren't experiencing suicidal thoughts. But if things get too much, please remember to reach out to these services below (you don't have to be in crisis to reach out either):
Crisis Messenger (24/7) | text THEMIX to 85258
Samartians (24/7) | call 116 123 | email jo@samaritans.org
Papyrus (2pm-midnight) | call 0800 068 41 41 | text 07786 209 697 | email pat@payrus-uk.org
Supportline (hours vary) | call 01708 765 200
Childline | call 0800 11 11
Samartians (24/7) | call 116 123 | email jo@samaritans.org
Papyrus (2pm-midnight) | call 0800 068 41 41 | text 07786 209 697 | email pat@payrus-uk.org
Supportline (hours vary) | call 01708 765 200
Childline | call 0800 11 11
Sending hugs
Gemma
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Re: Preparing for uni
Hey @AnonymousToe, just picking up on what you've shared here yesterday - it’s completely understandable to feel scared and overwhelmed right now, especially with such a big change coming up. Starting university is a huge step, and it's natural to have fears about fitting in or being able to handle the challenges. I was so scared and anxious when I first started uni. I moved 400 miles away to go to uni and I didn't know the first thing about cooking and cleaning (spoiler alert - I still don't now and have come to realise that most adults don't know what they're doing, we just kind of get through it somehow!)
I wanted to remind you that the way you feel right now doesn’t define how things will actually turn out. You got the grades and worked hard to get into university, which shows that you are more than capable. It’s okay to doubt yourself sometimes, but try to trust in your abilities - you’re stronger than you think.
As for making friends, university is full of different kinds of people with different interests. You don’t have to go to parties or do what everyone else is doing to find your group. Just for comparison, I was only 17 when I started uni (the school system is slightly different in Scotland meaning lots of my friends were 17 when starting uni!). This meant that I was actually banned from attending a lot of fresher events because they wouldn't let you in if they were serving alcohol (even if I wasn't trying to be served!!) But I found other ways to make friends through my course, joining some clubs and societies, and also through jobs! I worked part-time as a Student Ambassador and absolutely LOVED it. It was so fun, we just messed around at Open Days and got paid essentially. I'm still friends with quite a few people I met through that job. The point is that there will be others who feel just like you do, and they’ll be looking for friends who share similar interests. I think you'll be surprised at how many people you’ll meet who appreciate and like you for who you are.
The fact that you’re excited to live your own life is a sign of your readiness for this next chapter. It’s okay to be scared about the unknown, but try to balance those fears with excitement about the opportunities ahead. You’re not alone in feeling this way, and it’s okay to ask for help or support whenever you need it. You’ve already made so much progress with the DSA stuff, and that’s a big step forward. Take things one day at a time, and don’t be too hard on yourself. You’ve got this, and you’re going to find your place at university. It might take a little time, but trust that you’ll get there.
I wanted to remind you that the way you feel right now doesn’t define how things will actually turn out. You got the grades and worked hard to get into university, which shows that you are more than capable. It’s okay to doubt yourself sometimes, but try to trust in your abilities - you’re stronger than you think.
As for making friends, university is full of different kinds of people with different interests. You don’t have to go to parties or do what everyone else is doing to find your group. Just for comparison, I was only 17 when I started uni (the school system is slightly different in Scotland meaning lots of my friends were 17 when starting uni!). This meant that I was actually banned from attending a lot of fresher events because they wouldn't let you in if they were serving alcohol (even if I wasn't trying to be served!!) But I found other ways to make friends through my course, joining some clubs and societies, and also through jobs! I worked part-time as a Student Ambassador and absolutely LOVED it. It was so fun, we just messed around at Open Days and got paid essentially. I'm still friends with quite a few people I met through that job. The point is that there will be others who feel just like you do, and they’ll be looking for friends who share similar interests. I think you'll be surprised at how many people you’ll meet who appreciate and like you for who you are.
The fact that you’re excited to live your own life is a sign of your readiness for this next chapter. It’s okay to be scared about the unknown, but try to balance those fears with excitement about the opportunities ahead. You’re not alone in feeling this way, and it’s okay to ask for help or support whenever you need it. You’ve already made so much progress with the DSA stuff, and that’s a big step forward. Take things one day at a time, and don’t be too hard on yourself. You’ve got this, and you’re going to find your place at university. It might take a little time, but trust that you’ll get there.
Gemma
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