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Hey everyone ☺️,

I wanted to share a message with you all today. A little remind you that you’re doing the very best you can and I hope you know that is enough 🫶🏼.

It’s perfectly ok to have those bad days and setbacks. They’ll come and go, even though, deep down, it can feel like those days last forever. I know how that feels, I’ve been there too. That trapped feeling, when you want to move forward, but the weight of past experiences and/or emotions hold you back. I get it.

But here’s the thing..you’ve got this!

Getting through each day is enough. Everyday is a step forward. Giving yourself time and patience is enough. Go at your own pace, don’t rush your healing for anyone else. ❤️ This is your journey.

And remember, healing isn’t a straight line. It’s a storm you learn to dance in. Some days, ‘enough’ is just breathing. That counts too!

No matter what you’re going through, you are important. You are deserving. Even if you don’t feel like it right now, even if those inner voices try to convince you otherwise..don’t listen to them.

You’re doing enough.
You are enough 🫶🏼

i got told to `save it for therapy` but they pay attention to others, coz they hav addiction problems, which i dont . wat would b the proper way 4 carers to deal with SH? theyre all ignore me atm coz they tripped up n i cant leave their mistakes they make n i shout frm roftops, it was different managment wen i arrived, n everything was gd. but wen the new g_t came in, no'ones trained. n its hard to 'comply' with theyre rules.

it definitely is an interesting topic to think about, how there is almost a whole other part of us that we don't ever see because we are asleep. if it is something you are interested in then go for it in terms of doing it again. It could be interesting to see if there are any patterns that appear most nights, as well as potential differences.

I might even be tempted to give it a go myself, if i remember to do it before I fall asleep.

If you do try it again let us know how it goes (if you want to that is)

so last night i recorded myself sleep. basically i wanted to see what sounds i make whilst im sleeping. and the results were pretty interesting to say the least. at first i thought that i didnt pick up anything but i did. i recorded myself for four hours, woke up in the middle of the night and then went back to sleep without recording anything else. around the two hour mark i started snoring and i dont really know how to describe it. but it was pretty cool. i cant even imagine making those sounds whilst im conscious. like how does the human body even do that? its amazing. when i got told that i snore i thought it was embarrassing at first but this raised my self esteem a lot. should i do this again?

Woke up in tears

Want to delete my account so I can disappear

@Sian321 i did reach out to the Shout hotline since @Redemption suggested I reach out to someone. In addition to keeping myself safe, I try to keep myself busy, like going to the gym with my brother, doing chores or going to work, (although my workplace makes me emotionally worse lol).

So...........I did put up another post about me getting a new job. So far it's been a month and I hate it. I said I'd try and stay until the end of August, but I'm feeling like leaving at the end of July, which I know is really bad, but my mental health is getting so bad.

For more context, I was diagnosed with ASD January 2024, just after I turned 18 (I'm now 19, 20 in December). I've struggled with depression and anxiety since I was young (not been officially diagnosed, but it's there), around 10 years old when suicidal thoughts started and 12 when I started self-harming. For a few years I've thought that I have BPD, or recently I was talking to a friend and she brought up the fact it might be Bipolar, but trying to read information and decipher the two is kinda confusing.

From talking to my mum, I can tell she isn't entirely happy with the idea of me leaving this job, but she tries to act like it's okay, and sometimes she is genuine as if she knows how bad I'm hurting, but other times she seems annoyed. She does keep telling me I need to go to the doctor if I am going to leave this job, which I know I need to do, but I just don't know how to go about it. Like do I just say I need to make an appointment to talk about my mental health or what??? I know it's a stupid question, but these things just confuse me. I have also just re-applied for PIP, but I have a feeling I'll get denied...again. Especially as I don't really have any evidence for any of my mental health.

I just feel like I'm getting so behind in life. People tell me I'm only 19 and I'm young, but I feel like I've messed up so much of my life already that I'm running out of time. I can't even work to try and live comfortably, let alone save any money. My mum has struggled financially my whole life (not all her fault, she was left in a LOT of debt by my father, which she had to pay off) and I know she never wanted me to end up like her, but that's exactly what I'm doing. I have no money, no motivation, and I'm just proving to her more and more everyday what a disappointment I am. I just feel like the world isn't made for people like me.

What makes it even worse is the fact that my mum has 2 kids who both struggle. I have a twin brother who has ASD and was diagnosed at 4, so has had help his whole life, and is still receiving alternative education and support. But me being diagnosed a lot later, and a lot more of my issues occurring in adulthood, it was always expected that I'd be the one to step up and be the one who could work full-time or go to uni, but that isn't the case. I feel like everything is on me and I'm the one to blame. I've messed up my life so badly, but I don't know what to do.

Anyways, sorry it's a long one ❤️