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Re: wanting to give up
hey @Lottie5433 🙂
never worry about how long it takes you to reply - i know life can be busy and overwhelming and sometimes replying can feel hard and that is totally ok!
i hear how heavy that guilt and shame can feel, but please don’t be too hard on yourself - you deserve so much kindness! recovery isn’t a straight line, and slipping up doesn’t erase all the progress you’ve made - you’re still fighting, still here, and that matters. i’m really glad you reached out to shout and samaritans - that’s a huge step in itself as it can be super hard to do that, i am so so proud of you for that!
i hear you on feeling like you get more support online than in real life. that can be so isolating, but i hope you know you deserve real-life support too. even if the ed team and cmht have discharged you, that doesn’t mean you’re “fixed” or that you don’t still need care - it’s just unfortunate the uk has an awful mental health system, which is super unfair on people like you who is genuinely struggling and so deserving of support. seeing your gp sounds like a good move, even if last time wasn’t helpful, i hope they take you seriously this time and you get the support you need and are so so deserving of!
for what it’s worth, you are never ever a burden here, i mean that for sure. you don’t have to go through this alone, and im always here if you need to talk
never worry about how long it takes you to reply - i know life can be busy and overwhelming and sometimes replying can feel hard and that is totally ok!
i hear how heavy that guilt and shame can feel, but please don’t be too hard on yourself - you deserve so much kindness! recovery isn’t a straight line, and slipping up doesn’t erase all the progress you’ve made - you’re still fighting, still here, and that matters. i’m really glad you reached out to shout and samaritans - that’s a huge step in itself as it can be super hard to do that, i am so so proud of you for that!
i hear you on feeling like you get more support online than in real life. that can be so isolating, but i hope you know you deserve real-life support too. even if the ed team and cmht have discharged you, that doesn’t mean you’re “fixed” or that you don’t still need care - it’s just unfortunate the uk has an awful mental health system, which is super unfair on people like you who is genuinely struggling and so deserving of support. seeing your gp sounds like a good move, even if last time wasn’t helpful, i hope they take you seriously this time and you get the support you need and are so so deserving of!
for what it’s worth, you are never ever a burden here, i mean that for sure. you don’t have to go through this alone, and im always here if you need to talk
Re: wanting to give up
Thank you @shannon_164 ❤️ sorry for the late reply I appreciate you taking the time to write a response.
I get relapsing is okay and apart of the journey, I just feel so guilty and ashamed for doing it - now i have to hide it from all those around me. I can't have anyone know ive done it again. At the moment im feeling kinda safe - spoke to SHOUT and samaritains.
It just feels like im fixed coz both the ED team and CMHT have discharged me now.
Awh thank you, I get there are people who 'care' about me but i seem to get more from people on here than in my actual life.
I'm due to see my GP about my medication again in a couple weeks but last time I mentioned the meds they didn't do anything. I dont think stopping then will do any harm anyway- but I get i should talk tk a professional about it.
Thank you again 💓
I get relapsing is okay and apart of the journey, I just feel so guilty and ashamed for doing it - now i have to hide it from all those around me. I can't have anyone know ive done it again. At the moment im feeling kinda safe - spoke to SHOUT and samaritains.
It just feels like im fixed coz both the ED team and CMHT have discharged me now.
Thank you i appreciate you - i just never want to burden others with my issues.i promise you still deserve support, and you don’t have to go through this alone - im always a message away if you ever need to talk!
Awh thank you, I get there are people who 'care' about me but i seem to get more from people on here than in my actual life.
I'm due to see my GP about my medication again in a couple weeks but last time I mentioned the meds they didn't do anything. I dont think stopping then will do any harm anyway- but I get i should talk tk a professional about it.
Thank you again 💓
Re: Hating/Regretting my job 😕
hey @Lottie5433 🙂
it really does sound like you’re in a tough spot, and i really feel for you. you shouldn’t have to just “push everything down”, your feelings and experiences are SO valid. just because others aren’t speaking up about the agm doesn’t mean your concerns aren’t real or important - they are real and they are important!
i know walking out might feel like an easy escape, but if you still care about the job and the people you work with, it might be worth at least considering a conversation with your gm? i totally get how you’re feeling though, ive been in a super similar position. you don’t have to frame it as drama or causing trouble, just an open and honest talk about how things are affecting you.
at the end of the day, your mental health is what matters and needs to be the priority! if this job is making you miserable, it’s totally okay to prioritise yourself. do you have any support at work, like a trusted colleague, who might help you navigate this? i know sometimes it can be helpful to talk to someone who knows the workplace / staff too - ofc i know it’s not always an option people feel comfy with and that is ok too.
always here for you - you’ve got this
it really does sound like you’re in a tough spot, and i really feel for you. you shouldn’t have to just “push everything down”, your feelings and experiences are SO valid. just because others aren’t speaking up about the agm doesn’t mean your concerns aren’t real or important - they are real and they are important!
i know walking out might feel like an easy escape, but if you still care about the job and the people you work with, it might be worth at least considering a conversation with your gm? i totally get how you’re feeling though, ive been in a super similar position. you don’t have to frame it as drama or causing trouble, just an open and honest talk about how things are affecting you.
at the end of the day, your mental health is what matters and needs to be the priority! if this job is making you miserable, it’s totally okay to prioritise yourself. do you have any support at work, like a trusted colleague, who might help you navigate this? i know sometimes it can be helpful to talk to someone who knows the workplace / staff too - ofc i know it’s not always an option people feel comfy with and that is ok too.
always here for you - you’ve got this
TW: I hate my parents
Things I accomplished since living at home
- weight loss
- Improved skin
- Overcame Vaginismus/ lost virginity /dated/ “saw” someone lol
- Stopped binge eating
- Stopped overeating
- Started regular exercise
- Maintained my fat loss
Things that went wrong
- I got officially made homeless for one hour
- I went on lithium against my will for a few months (traumatic)
- I went on aripiprazole against my will for a few months
- I smashed a window
- I lost my period
- became underweight
- Collapsed in the street one time
- weight loss
- Improved skin
- Overcame Vaginismus/ lost virginity /dated/ “saw” someone lol
- Stopped binge eating
- Stopped overeating
- Started regular exercise
- Maintained my fat loss
Things that went wrong
- I got officially made homeless for one hour
- I went on lithium against my will for a few months (traumatic)
- I went on aripiprazole against my will for a few months
- I smashed a window
- I lost my period
- became underweight
- Collapsed in the street one time
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