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one year
its been one year since ive been in a psychiatric hospital. on may 2nd it will officially be one year to the day that i got released. but i technically got discharged on the 7th of may because they wanted to check on me for the five days that i was at home on home leave. but i went into the psychiatric hospital on the 15th of march making it one year since ive been there. how do i feel about it? pretty positive because i havent been back there or to another psychiatric hospital since. i only had one A&E admission since then and that was for mental health reasons. i didnt go to a psychiatric hospital after that A&E admission in january of this year because they deemed that it wouldnt be in the best interests of the young person aka me. so yeah i havent been back since the 2nd of may and im pretty proud of myself not to get admitted again. i cant control my depressive or psychotic symptoms though so i have no idea whether ill be back to the adolescent unit or not. i was 15 back then and now im 16 so thats why i was in an adolescent unit.
Re: Should I tell my GP or the nurse what's going on?
Hi @Sian321, thank you for the response I appreciate it ❤️
It is tiring going through this all but I've been doing it on and off for about a year anyway (blood tests/checks every 3 months, then weekly for a bit, now monthly again). The appoitments can be slightly anxiety inducing but thats just the "white coat syndrome" and Nurse J is fully aware of how anxious i get in them and does her best to ease it (talking about basically anything)
I am noticing more physical symptoms for now, but i think it's only because im not distracting myself with the gym like I usually do (can't go much due to work and injury). I wouldn't say it's frightening, given the history because I don't mind it in a way, like most people in my family found out about their heart issues later on in life and had no issues. I don't think I should be worried about it because when I had surgery nothing was picked up on and I've been fine it's just an every now and again thing.
So i could email Nurse J however if I do I probably won't get a response till Monday as it's the weekend. so what's the harm in waiting the extra couple days till Wednesday? Like she will just try to get me in earlier however i can't due to work - Monday potentially 10hr shift 9-7, Tuesday 2-7 but in the office on the morning, so only time I can actually go is Wednesday.
In all honesty I don't see a point in emailing her.
Nothing really helps me feel less overwhelmed. I've already started writing thing down thar I feel she should know but its whether or not I take it and actually tell her or if i just leave it at home and "forget" to mention it. Like she will proably realise some of it like the coldness and dizziness, but might just brush that aside anyways.
But yeah thanks agin for the response
It is tiring going through this all but I've been doing it on and off for about a year anyway (blood tests/checks every 3 months, then weekly for a bit, now monthly again). The appoitments can be slightly anxiety inducing but thats just the "white coat syndrome" and Nurse J is fully aware of how anxious i get in them and does her best to ease it (talking about basically anything)
I am noticing more physical symptoms for now, but i think it's only because im not distracting myself with the gym like I usually do (can't go much due to work and injury). I wouldn't say it's frightening, given the history because I don't mind it in a way, like most people in my family found out about their heart issues later on in life and had no issues. I don't think I should be worried about it because when I had surgery nothing was picked up on and I've been fine it's just an every now and again thing.
So i could email Nurse J however if I do I probably won't get a response till Monday as it's the weekend. so what's the harm in waiting the extra couple days till Wednesday? Like she will just try to get me in earlier however i can't due to work - Monday potentially 10hr shift 9-7, Tuesday 2-7 but in the office on the morning, so only time I can actually go is Wednesday.
In all honesty I don't see a point in emailing her.
Nothing really helps me feel less overwhelmed. I've already started writing thing down thar I feel she should know but its whether or not I take it and actually tell her or if i just leave it at home and "forget" to mention it. Like she will proably realise some of it like the coldness and dizziness, but might just brush that aside anyways.
But yeah thanks agin for the response
TW// what did I do to deserve all this
I know I’ve done multiple posts like this before and I know I should stop because there probably just tiring for people to read but I can’t 💔
This is one big post just split into different trigger sections because I don’t want to trigger anyone!
Context: so some may know the full story to my past but I’ll keep this short and sweet
1) was put in care on my 3rd birthday
2) was in a foster placement till I was almost 5
Alcohol
Neglect
Foster home/ abuse
Court and abuse articles
Adoption
I had to be adopted alone…why?
The judge at court said I couldn’t live with my siblings…why?
Is it something to do with me? Was I the problem?
This is on one of the articles….what does it mean??
"I have no doubt that the actions of concerned neighbours may well have averted a tragedy."
———
So what did I do to deserve all that?
This is one big post just split into different trigger sections because I don’t want to trigger anyone!
Context: so some may know the full story to my past but I’ll keep this short and sweet
1) was put in care on my 3rd birthday
2) was in a foster placement till I was almost 5
Alcohol
I was put in care because both my birth parents were alcoholics and they was always at the pub that was literally a 5 min walk from the house and so on the night of my 3rd birthday the neighbours called police because they saw us home alone with no one around
Neglect
When the police gained entry to the house they found me and 4 of my brothers to be partially clothed with no bedding, no food, beer cans all on the floor, unclean house, the house stank
Foster home/ abuse
Me and one of my brothers were placed together in a foster home whilst my 3 other brothers were placed together in a separate home, we were abused here; our hair being yanked to the point we lost chunks of hair, being burned or being forced to have freezing showers (there’s another but it will be too graphic)
Court and abuse articles
My parents went to court and were charged with 5 counts of abuse, it was so bad that they made the news and newspapers so there’s 3 articles online sharing the graphic details of the night we was taken into care and pictures of the house etc
Adoption
I had to be adopted alone…why?
The judge at court said I couldn’t live with my siblings…why?
Is it something to do with me? Was I the problem?
This is on one of the articles….what does it mean??
"I have no doubt that the actions of concerned neighbours may well have averted a tragedy."
———
So what did I do to deserve all that?
River
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Re: Should watch parties replace the Topic Thread on the last Saturday of each month?
@Redemption , thank you for that feedback, and we'll definitely take it on board, making sure that any Watch Parties we do host are on free platforms that everyone can access.
Sian321
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Re: Autism and CBT?
Matthew_04 wrote: »That sounds horrible. I can't believe they'd just leave you like that with no working support!
Your therapist shouldn't have been that dismissive of you, it must have been really hard to deal with that on your own
It really was dismissive! Not heard anything back from docs following it. I've made my support worker from a charity but she's discharging me as I've had 4hrs of support and that's all I was entitled to contact the GP surgery now. She has byt futile.
