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River wrote: »

Something inside of me is broken and can never be fixed and maybe just maybe all i have to do is believe that things wont get better because I’m tired of running in circles (metaphorically). When people come into my life they don’t know me then they get to know me and they just leave. I wish I could crawl into hiding and not have to talk or say anything because how do I explain that I want to leave or that I’m sorry I’m difficult, I’m sorry I’m not the person people think I am. When was the last time I was actually happy?…I don’t know

@River I know how hard things are for you right now, and i wish i had the words to make things better, but you aren't broken and unfixable river. You're still the same kind hearted person you've always been, despite all the hell you've endured. That isn't brokenness. That's strength.

Feeling trauma's effects does have a way of making us broken, it's true, and it does have a way of changing us, but the fact is, your still the same kind hearted person you've always been, and for what it's worth, I ain't going anywhere friend.

Being exhausted and unhappy for so long and being pushed to breaking point is entirely understandable, and i might not have the right words to make things better, but i want you to know that we aren't going anywhere, and that your still an amazing person who didn't deserve any of this.

DonnerKebab wrote: »

Redemption wrote: »

DonnerKebab wrote: »

@Redemption I play Xbox, just playing the older COD's. I've got all of them from COD 4 - Black Ops 6. Bo2, Bo3 zombies, Infinite Warfare, Advanced Warfare, Cod 4 remastered and World at War are my favourites so i tend to go back to them a lot rather than play this modern Bo6 crap.

And yeah, once that happens though, then it's just deciding what then. Do I let it go and move on, or pursue it?

@DonnerKebab sounds good, Im not that into many games, I just play GTA the odd time.


I'd say just let it go after its done with. Sorry for the late reply bro, you ok today?

@Redemption i get the point, and i contemplated leaving it, letting the investigation just happen, and then moving on, because i genuinely hate conflict, but then there's a huge part of me that is enraged by what's happened, the insulting nature of it, the attempt on my future and reputation, and the desire to stop this from happening to others and disgust at other conduct. I'm speaking to an MP, I'm speaking to free speech union, i'm just waiting to withdraw money from my cash ISA i was saving for my masters (i can save up again) for legal representation now, and plan to legally have this one out. it's about others down the line too as well as me and getting a public apology. So, I'm gonna take it down every single path I legally can, down every lawful avenue and I'm mixed currently on a public name and shame of the situation.

@DonnerKebab I understand, I hate conflict too but you have to stand your ground and clear your name, not let anything damage your name or your future etc.

@Sian321 they were lines from a tv show that I sobbed watching for 3 hours because I related to it 😭

So don’t watch bojack unless you want hard hitting thoughts 🥲

hey everyone

Redemption wrote: »

DonnerKebab wrote: »

@Redemption I play Xbox, just playing the older COD's. I've got all of them from COD 4 - Black Ops 6. Bo2, Bo3 zombies, Infinite Warfare, Advanced Warfare, Cod 4 remastered and World at War are my favourites so i tend to go back to them a lot rather than play this modern Bo6 crap.

And yeah, once that happens though, then it's just deciding what then. Do I let it go and move on, or pursue it?

@DonnerKebab sounds good, Im not that into many games, I just play GTA the odd time.


I'd say just let it go after its done with. Sorry for the late reply bro, you ok today?

@Redemption i get the point, and i contemplated leaving it, letting the investigation just happen, and then moving on, because i genuinely hate conflict, but then there's a huge part of me that is enraged by what's happened, the insulting nature of it, the attempt on my future and reputation, and the desire to stop this from happening to others and disgust at other conduct. I'm speaking to an MP, I'm speaking to free speech union, i'm just waiting to withdraw money from my cash ISA i was saving for my masters (i can save up again) for legal representation now, and plan to legally have this one out. it's about others down the line too as well as me and getting a public apology. So, I'm gonna take it down every single path I legally can, down every lawful avenue and I'm mixed currently on a public name and shame of the situation.

Something inside me is broken and can never be fixed 🙃

Don’t panic I’m not in danger!

I want to sign a DNR

DonnerKebab wrote: »

@Redemption I play Xbox, just playing the older COD's. I've got all of them from COD 4 - Black Ops 6. Bo2, Bo3 zombies, Infinite Warfare, Advanced Warfare, Cod 4 remastered and World at War are my favourites so i tend to go back to them a lot rather than play this modern Bo6 crap.

And yeah, once that happens though, then it's just deciding what then. Do I let it go and move on, or pursue it?

@DonnerKebab sounds good, Im not that into many games, I just play GTA the odd time.


I'd say just let it go after its done with. Sorry for the late reply bro, you ok today?

Something inside of me is broken and can never be fixed and maybe just maybe all i have to do is believe that things wont get better because I’m tired of running in circles (metaphorically). When people come into my life they don’t know me then they get to know me and they just leave. I wish I could crawl into hiding and not have to talk or say anything because how do I explain that I want to leave or that I’m sorry I’m difficult, I’m sorry I’m not the person people think I am. When was the last time I was actually happy?…I don’t know