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Re: the little things you do matter. 🩵
Beautiful, valuable words @eylah . Thank you so much for sharing. I wonder how you have noticed the little things you doing mattering lately? I very, very much see that here in this thread.
Sian321
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Re: Anybody want to vent or chat about anything? w/c 15.09.25
@Redemption
How did it feel to do that?
How did it feel to do that?
Re: (Suicidal thoughts, no plans) I fucking hate having panic attacks at work
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Re: TW// suicide - I’m back to rock bottom
@Sian321 i struggle a lot with change so I think having to navigate things on my own again is scary like I know I’m capable of doing great but do I want to? Do I want to live a life where I’ll actually feel okay? I don’t know I think I’m so used to feeling like garbage that I need that back like I don’t get who I am without that 🥲
I think I might bring it up to Katie on Monday and I’ve also been thinking about seeing the safeguarding lead at college you know so I have someone incase I need it? I’m not sure
My hair dye comes today so I’m gonna distract myself with that as well as probably finish the HSMTMTS
Speaking of Barney
I think I might bring it up to Katie on Monday and I’ve also been thinking about seeing the safeguarding lead at college you know so I have someone incase I need it? I’m not sure
My hair dye comes today so I’m gonna distract myself with that as well as probably finish the HSMTMTS
Speaking of Barney
River
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Re: Work supervision- so scared- I'm worse off
Im so scared 😱
Ive got a supervision with my manager Monday, I dont normally work Monday but am next week and Monday is a different base to usual. Its unexpected (only knew when checked my work emails today off hoyts(.its over due as the last time o was supposed to i had a sensory overload so he didn't do it.
But 1 i feel like ive annoyed him by emailing him on how shift was 2 weeks ago he replied "sorry i haven't had time to comtact you been busy but as a manager I have many responsibilities and went on justifying why like this day haf this, this day had this... then sound like that thurs shify was difficult with music dont knlw what more we can do". I think ive interpreted as his annoyed but dunno why.
Suddenly my hr record om past supervision, reasonable adjustments have been added on , why now is that them documenting to cover their back saying they're done it then use it against me, slyly to chuck me out.
3. Its his a male, im female and there won't be a table betwee us in that room to cover the open distance (hide) and i find that element of having a table as a safety from a past difficulty unrelated to him.
I want to pass my probation I want to do well and last shifts ive done well in doing sessions alone again, learning new things but at the back of my mind ive got this thing that he thinks I'm a nuisance, im not good enough, im to "fragile" when I jsve ha supportive conversation with him.
Ive got a supervision with my manager Monday, I dont normally work Monday but am next week and Monday is a different base to usual. Its unexpected (only knew when checked my work emails today off hoyts(.its over due as the last time o was supposed to i had a sensory overload so he didn't do it.
But 1 i feel like ive annoyed him by emailing him on how shift was 2 weeks ago he replied "sorry i haven't had time to comtact you been busy but as a manager I have many responsibilities and went on justifying why like this day haf this, this day had this... then sound like that thurs shify was difficult with music dont knlw what more we can do". I think ive interpreted as his annoyed but dunno why.
Suddenly my hr record om past supervision, reasonable adjustments have been added on , why now is that them documenting to cover their back saying they're done it then use it against me, slyly to chuck me out.
3. Its his a male, im female and there won't be a table betwee us in that room to cover the open distance (hide) and i find that element of having a table as a safety from a past difficulty unrelated to him.
I want to pass my probation I want to do well and last shifts ive done well in doing sessions alone again, learning new things but at the back of my mind ive got this thing that he thinks I'm a nuisance, im not good enough, im to "fragile" when I jsve ha supportive conversation with him.
TW// suicide - I’m back to rock bottom
Strong details of self harm so proceed with caution!! No description of self harm or pictures just details of what feeling I get from it internally!!!
Honestly I don’t know what happened it’s weird it’s like one minute I was doing well and then all of a sudden I’m back wanting to cry 24/7, wanting to relapse again, part of me feels like it’s due to the comfort of not feeling okay but honestly I don’t know maybe I’m scared, maybe I’m scared that if im being discharged then I’ll be back to wanting to die and unable to be safe? Lately I’ve been thinking about things, people that hurt me in the past and like wanting to be in contact with them again for that firmiliarity of being hurt again?
So as some know I was a member of youth voice and community connectors however last week I made the decision to step away from it because I was starting to feel unable to juggle everything but it’s weird now I’ve left I feel lost I don’t know it’s probably so stupid and I don’t know if this is against rules I’m assuming it’s not but yeah I chose to prioritise my mental health but now I have everything has come crashing down on me for some strange reasons.
I want to self harm again just to feel the pain like I don’t like seeing my scars gone I don’t like that they healed, I used to smile when I’d look at my sh because I always used it to punish me?
Anyways I’m sorry this is really stupid and I’ve not vented in a long long time on here so feel free to ignore 💚
Take care!
River
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Re: What the heck?
Hey @River thanks so much for flagging this and we're really sorry for the inconvienience. Essentially, it looks like our account permissions were temporarily changed, however, it seems to be back to our usual levels / package now with Chatwee. We will keep monitoring the situation, and so far it looks like we'll be back to normal on Monday this coming week.
Thank you again for flagging and glad you could join the General Thread as an alternative space!
Thank you again for flagging and glad you could join the General Thread as an alternative space!
Sian321
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