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It was hard enough showing Anna and I trust her with my life, I feel disgusting like how did I not know that it was wrong I’m a filthy disgusting freak I hate myself so much

I’m not gonna be able to tell the staff I’m so ashamed, they may still have to risk safety even tho it’s sorted but idk I’m so scared, literally set my alarm for 9:30 so I’m awake before the mix is online just incase because I don’t trust that it won’t be reported

If I have to tell the staff tomorrow the situation I’m gonna be so humiliated, I’d tell them and ask them to delete my account 😭

Sorry for rambling, I’m here if you want to vent or anything however you know where to find me if you don’t feel comfy on here @DonnerKebab

River wrote: »

@DonnerKebab im so scared I can’t sleep

Also I’m not hiding anything I blocked out the username as didn’t want people to gain access to it, only some people need to know the situation

@River I fully understand, and don't want to know the details because it's clearly uncomfortable for you and that sort of stuff should stay private whatever it is. But i understand it is must be extremely difficult, and i'm so sorry your facing this battle. It's unfair for you.

But i want you to know, I've been at the stage of being to scared to sleep. It's a horrible feeling, and i wish i could give you some advice on how to overcome it, but the only way I did was getting so tired that i ended up falling asleep. I know it's no consolation, but I'm here for as long as you want to talk for friend.

@DonnerKebab im so scared I can’t sleep

Also I’m not hiding anything I blocked out the username as didn’t want people to gain access to it, only some people need to know the situation

I have no proof though because of who I reported it through I guess I’m screwed then might as well brace for an embarrassing and humiliating conversation will just have to go into hiding after for the rest of my life

@DonnerKebab yeah but we all know it’s probably not if it’s passed on, it will be uncomfortable questions after another and that will just be humiliating if it gets out, rather it be left be now it’s been sorted and technically it has been reported just not directly to police. I didn’t even show or say the comments today except to Anna and it caused concern, I just want this to be over, I can’t cope with another stupid mess, was on the brink of mentally exploding a couple of weeks ago and even tho spoke to my doctor and they put me on meds but they haven’t kicked in yet I don’t think or either that I’m immune cos one more stressful situation and idk what will happen something bad potentially, worse than dealing with this mess on my own, I wish I hadn’t of opened my mouth

Safe being written like that because what is safe when you have CPTSD and an anxiety disorder

Mhm sorted it still having a shit night and filled with dread for tmr but I guess we sorted it so I’m “safe” from them

Plus not like they had my address or anything

hugs @DonnerKebab i love my xbox 🤣 hru?