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Re: TW: Suicide / Death - Tired of living 💔🥺
Why won’t helplines fucking help me !!!!!
@River because half of them are useless most of the time. But there is always chance you will find a good helpline worker. Just don't give up. How was hoop by the way?
Re: TW: Suicide / Death - Tired of living 💔🥺
@DonnerKebab i know but no professional wants to help me, I spoke to kooth (they have my details) I told them the truth to how I feel and they just said to follow my safety plan, if I said that to the mix then they’d phone an ambulance, I don’t want an ambulance but I just want some fucking help, kooth are meant to contact my doctor if there concerned about me but nope nothing I’m just coping alone because the truth doesn’t matter 
River
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Re: tw - suicide attempt
are you feeling safe? just checking bc i know things have been rly hard recently for you.
i don't know if I'm safe at home honestly. But I'm being supervised so I guess that would count as safe. I broke down in tears when the camhs crisis team said that they can't send me to a psychiatric hospital because my camhs team think it's not in my best interests. i said that I cannot keep myself safe at home, at least if I wasn't supervised. But I am being supervised now so I guess I'm safe? I don't know. I just hate this so much. I just wish they took my best interests at heart. Because I personally believe that I need to informally stay at a psychiatric hospital.
Re: tw - suicide attempt
Hi @toffuna101 , thank you so much for these messages.
It sounds like the last 24 hours have been extremely distressing. And now being discharged is the very last thing that you wanted to happen. Have they mentioned anything about the home treatment team being able to support you?
You're being so brave to share about this, and I can hear just how badly you're wanting to get support and keep safe. Can I ask, what is this evening looking like for you and how do you plan to keep safe when you're home around 4pm?
We're all here for you as a Community and while I appreciate we can't offer practical solutions, we're here to listen and give emotional support. You're doing so well to talk about this.
im home now and my dad's going to supervise me to keep me safe. they mentioned the home treatment team. the crisis team will talk to my main camhs team about it I guess. I don't know I just felt like going to A&E was pointless.
how’re you now? @toffuna101 can you keep yourself safe? you matter so much.
im just so tired. yes I think I'll be able to for now at least.
Re: tw - suicide attempt
I'm going to talk to my psychiatrist about referring me to go to a psychiatric hospital informally
Comparing myself to people
Day time support Chat is on, which is good, but I might not be around in full Chat as much since I’m currently on a course, Im on a break but I might get called in soon. After today, there is not a lot happening until the Sunday thread, I get it though completely, lack of mods. Anyway so I just wanted to vent here. Lately, I have been comparing myself to others a lot, and it is really been weighing on me. The guy running the course is only 27, and I’m 23 turning 24, so the age gap is not even that big but it still makes me reflect on how far behind I feel. I keep seeing people getting married or settled, and it is tough being single and unemployed in comparison. I try to remind myself that everyone is on their own path, but it is hard not to question why mine feels so slow and difficult. I end up beating myself up about it even when I know I shouldn’t. Life isn’t easy, especially being in this position and dealing with everything that comes up, it is hard.
This habit of comparing myself to others has been there since I was young. Back in school, I used to compare myself to classmates who had better phones, game consoles, or gadgets and always felt inferior for not having the same. Now the comparisons have shifted. I feel behind for not having a job, for being a virgin, for still living at home, for not being anywhere near marriage, and for not having gone to university. It is like a constant list in my head of things I haven’t done that others seem to have ticked off. On my course, most people are out of work too, which helps me feel a little less alone. But deep down, I really want to move forward with my life. The problem is, I have had moments where I thought I finally found a way forward, only for it to fall apart or for me to mess up. Every time it happens, it feels like I get knocked back to the start. It is exhausting and disheartening, and with the course ending next week, I am still unsure what comes next.
This habit of comparing myself to others has been there since I was young. Back in school, I used to compare myself to classmates who had better phones, game consoles, or gadgets and always felt inferior for not having the same. Now the comparisons have shifted. I feel behind for not having a job, for being a virgin, for still living at home, for not being anywhere near marriage, and for not having gone to university. It is like a constant list in my head of things I haven’t done that others seem to have ticked off. On my course, most people are out of work too, which helps me feel a little less alone. But deep down, I really want to move forward with my life. The problem is, I have had moments where I thought I finally found a way forward, only for it to fall apart or for me to mess up. Every time it happens, it feels like I get knocked back to the start. It is exhausting and disheartening, and with the course ending next week, I am still unsure what comes next.
