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It sounds like you’re carrying a lot of weight right now, feeling nervous about sharing everything with your psychologist and also worrying about returning to school after the half term break. It's completely understandable to feel this way—sometimes it can be really difficult to open up about everything, especially when it feels like a lot or when you're unsure of how it might be received. But it’s so brave of you to even consider sharing these things with your psychologist, as it shows you're looking for support, even if it feels hard. And the idea of returning to school after time away can bring up a lot of anxiety, too, especially with all the emotions and stress you’ve been holding. You’re not alone in feeling like this—it’s okay to take things one step at a time and to ask for help when you need it. You’re doing the best you can, and that’s enough.

I panicked and backed out on seeing them 🫠 I’m not ready too it’s gonna be too much

Hey @Rose113 just hopping in to say I agree with what's being said here. Boundaries sound like a really important next step. The care you have for others really is so genuine and kind, but I hear you've been neglecting yourself a lot lately. It's so important your needs are being met too, and that you have the time and energy to meet them. You've already taken the first step in identifying that something needs to change here - that's really powerful

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Next in the situation I’m not sure maybe for the load to be shared like I’m glad she trusts me enough to rely on me but I also also hate it because it’s so hard to keep up 🙁

I hear that you'd ideally like the load to be shared. Is there anyone you could speak to about this who could support you to do this? I hear the staff at the youth shelter are really nice and you have been trying to get her professional help. Do you feel comfortable sharing what steps you've taken already to reach out to others?

You also mentioned that she's in a different country - is that right? I'm wondering how the logistics and the distance between you and your friend is affecting you Rose? It can feel quite draining to be supporting someone when we feel unsupported ourselves, and I can imagine that being in different countries can have an even bigger impact.

You're doing so well opening up to us and identifying something needs to change here to look after your own wellbeing

Sooo I’m going back to my hometown and seeing my birth mum and I know of one of my brothers going but not sure about the others. It’s safe to say I’m petrified but yeah 🥲 either it’ll go well or it’ll go crap 🤧

There’s not really anyone
I have a personal trainer
I ask about food, he helps me. Increasing my calories
I get anxiety
I met a youth group moderator man cried to him
That was something I guess
A drunk lady on the bus started talking to me then I cried

There are people I guess
lol
But yeah idk

Don’t have my community mental health team don’t have my psychiatrist don’t like my parents
lol
lol
They’re like my biggest triggers
I had a crazy debilitating anxiety induced stomach pain last week for over an hour it was totally debilitating - cus my mum came back from a work trip
lol
Can always call Samaritans
Yeah
I called lifeline and Samaritans when I had the stomach pain it was. Bad!

@Laura_tigger82 we talked but I still feel really bad 😭