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eylah wrote: »

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@DonnerKebab my favourite ever twat

not yet - im just watching angry ginge rn on twitch bc hes my favourite person who streams atm but i see my therapist tmr and idk if im being discharged from her or not but im just chilling. might have some ice cream. hugs my favourite twat

@eylah returning fire with even more hugs, for the slightly better twat of the twat duo (that's you)

And yeah, worst case scenario your discharged, best case scenario they actually start being useful and help. Best thing to do chilling with ice cream is. No stress, no worry, just ice cream. What kind?

defo not @DonnerKebab youre the best twat in this duo! no arguments or no hugs from me 🤣🫶🏼

100% worst case scenario im discharged but it is what it is! it’s from lidl i never got it before but it’s chocolate ice cream with chocolate chips on outside and inside.

@eylah sorry, but it is scientifically proven that you are the better twat of the twat duo. I'm not arguing, i'm simply stating a fact here.

Sounds like dreamy ice cream. Have you ever had the off brand Ben and Jerries they do at Lidls. Amazing stuff.

i don’t agree on the first statement ooh no? is it nice

@eylah Don't argue with me about it, argue with professor duckworth and his findings. Btw, it was really good ice cream. Glad you enjoying the one you've got.

feel like that duck is there to tell me off 🤣🤣🤣🤣

@eylah only those who question his research, which concluded that you were the slightly better twat of the twat duo 🤣

stop it! you’re the best twat of this duo no questions asked!!

River wrote: »

@eylah as much as I love milkshakes even that wouldn’t fix my problems I want to know what milkshake they drink that cures them 😂😂😂 like let me know the secrets

me too. i hope i get that person if i ever talk to them 🤣❤️

@eylah as much as I love milkshakes even that wouldn’t fix my problems I want to know what milkshake they drink that cures them 😂😂😂 like let me know the secrets

TW// physical abuse references

River wrote: »

@eylah i won’t harm myself 💕 Samaritans told me to have a milkshake and sleep 😶‍🌫️ im cureddddddddd least they clearly think so lmao

that’s mental of them! im so sry they didn’t support you. im here though and i wont tell you to have a bath or milkshake 😝

is there anything you can do rn to calm those thoughts ?

@River I know the feeling. I know it's no consolation, but i really do empathise with you. Never having that safety ever is something that breaks you down over time. And it's no use me talking about "in future this", or "maybe things can change" that, it's no consolation for what your longing for right now, and i'm sorry. trauma has a way of isolating and effecting us, and leaving us deprived of basic human needs. Being in the fight or flight mode for so long, the brain can't sustain it, which causes depression and all sorts of mental health challenges and surrender. Then, it goes back into fight or flight again, etc etc, and cycles endlessly. I spoke a bit about this before. There's a few terms for this cycle like Chronic stress response dysregulation, and being in fight or flight because you've never experienced safety has likely caused this cycle.

I trust and believe you that you are safe, because you've been so strong for so long and are still here in the face of it. I just had to make sure you were not at risk of anything. I know that feelings are different than actions. What your feeling right now is valid, but never act on any of it. I know you promised you won't and i trust you friend.

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Redemption wrote: »

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@DonnerKebab you around to talk mate?

@Redemption Hey redemption, how are you doing? Good chat?

Hey @DonnerKebab I'm ok thanks and yh decent chat, it's in next week too for the last time. What about you? I hope you dont feel pressured to chat to me?

@Redemption bro, your a pleasure to chat with. You don't give yourself enough credit. I think there's another type of chat being introduced after actually. And yeah, i'm doing okay thanks.

Thanks so much @DonnerKebab , I didnt know there's another type of chat coming. Good you're ok, got any plans tomorrow?

@Redemption not a lot, got to get my room tidied up, sort my brother out and that's that. What about you bro?

@DonnerKebab just got my course, I don't want to go, I think I just struggle getting up and the bus which I shouldn't be because most people get up 7 45 like its nothing a lot early early hours. I just hate the bus man

@Redemption I know bro. it can take up to a year to get into the routine of doing it regually. When you've not had to do it for so long, it's tough, especially in early months, but over time, you'll be able to manage it better.

And i get not wanting to go, especially when all that stuff happened almost getting kicked off it. And 100%, the bus sucks.

@DonnerKebab yh it can, I think what doesn't help is most of the people I live with work from home so I'm the only one getting up to go to my commute. I think my uncle was joking about getting kicked out like I didn't almost but still he shouldn't play them jokes he does it from time to time. They will hopefuly support me getting into work. What fustrates me is everyone else takes a day off no big deal, me no, I have to go, I might get out of it, I'm watching tv atm. It's not a bad course, a couple of issues like people on their phones and barely got told off, they justified it too and then teacher said it ok as long as I'm listening, me I get told to get off it. They're gonna help me get into work though not like going to hold my hand but there to an exent they said. I think I might pull off leaving it tomorrow, it's 10/11 pm and I'm still up.

@eylah i won’t harm myself 💕 Samaritans told me to have a milkshake and sleep 😶‍🌫️ im cureddddddddd least they clearly think so lmao

@DonnerKebab i won’t harm myself I promise but I don’t know what safe is, I’ve never felt safe, maybe it’s due to the CPTSD

Hate that question