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River wrote: »

Never said I didn’t want support, just said I didn’t know how I felt

@River you 100% come across as being in need of support. She should have helped you to walk through not knowing how you feel and helping you to break it down slowly, not push it off down the line and end the chat.

It might be worth talking about your life story, where you are at now, and she could throw out some suggestions as to how she thinks you might be feeling based on it, and you can work through it bit by bit until you figure out how you feel. I'm sorry they just ended the call like that. You deserve a lot better.

Sorry, i just need a quick half an hour, brothers back and i need to take him on his daily walk. I'll be straight back on here for you river when i'm back

Never said I didn’t want support, just said I didn’t know how I felt

@DonnerKebab i contacted shout and yeah now I’m never using them again

Was meant to have aerial however my body can’t tolerate heat so if I pass out on the hoop then could break my spine so had to cancel that so ultimately not great not to mention I don’t want to be here and I keep being asked why I can do to be safe even though I am safe and I keep ignoring cos idk how to answer

@DonnerKebab no it’s fine

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@shannon_164 i was just gonna add at the end of the support chat that I know how hopeless you feel right now. I always had my carer responsibility keeping me chained here, so even when i had no hope and couldn't see thing ever getting better, with no light at the end of the tunnel, i still had something chaining me here. But over time, admittedly years, things started to change. I started to see glimpses. And i'm not fully out of it myself yet, but there is light at the end of the tunnel.

I think for you, your at rock bottom, unable to see light at the end of the tunnel right now. And your hurting because of what happened and what's been ruined for you. I touched a bit about it a while back, but my mum "accidentally" got counter terror to investigate me, which was a black mark on my record and even though nothing came of it, it was still something on my record that had happened and impeded my plans to work at MI5. I only realised the impact when i hit 19 and had a mental breakdown from it, and cried myself to sleep for 3 weeks straight. But it did get better, even though i couldn't envision it doing so at the time.

I'm sending you a hug, and just want to say, i know it seems hopeless and you feel betrayed, but you are an angel, and there's light at the end of the tunnel, even though you can't see it. You've got my anonymous email (you should create an anonymous one yourself, and drop us an email whether you want to vent or just talk, or get advice). I'm here for you like you was for me friend. You deserve the world of support and care.

PS, i'm working on creating an over 25's version of the mix (not the mix exactly or linked to it, but something for over 25's when they age out of here.). It won't be done for a fair amount of time, but i'd love for you to join when it's completed)

DonnerKebab wrote: »

Redemption wrote: »

Hey @DonnerKebab you wanna chat?

Yeah mate, how are you? How was the session today?

@DonnerKebab I'm ok thanks, just on the bus back. It was ok if you mean the chat and the course was ok. Hope you're having a good day. I'm just on the bus heading home, I hate the bus man

Hey @DonnerKebab you wanna chat?

shannon_164 wrote: »

DonnerKebab wrote: »

shannon_164 wrote: »

DonnerKebab wrote: »

shannon_164 wrote: »

thank you @DonnerKebab i shall miss you too! i’m sorry, i really cannot be around on this community anymore given all what’s happened - ive been debating on leaving for a very long time now but the other day was in fact the final straw. most of my input at the mix seems to be with invisible ink anyways sure so i won’t be that missed lol i don’t think ill ever return, too much has happened here and yeah, its been unfair & this time they have really ruined a big thing in life for me too unfortunately:( i think ill join the support chat today for the final time then that will be the end of me at the mix, forever…

@shannon_164 i'm so sorry it's been so hard for you, and that instead of getting help here, you got hurt and something major got ruined. Just don't be alone because i know what that does to people from personal experience. Sending you a virtual hug

aw thank you so much @DonnerKebab if you want to edit your original post before the mix do it, ive got it now - but thank you so so much, you really are such an amazing person!

@shannon_164 you are as well. Since i've been on this mix, you are literally one of the first friends i've ever had in my life. And you've been so kind and caring for so many others, and i'm so sorry you got hurt instead of getting support. I'm always here and on email to reach out to about anything and support you the same way you have me and so many others. You are a literal angel of a person, and i'm always there to reach out to whenever, whenever you want to vent or just talk. Without any restrictions of shadow edits or anything.

You deserve a place to vent on without fear of any consequences or stuff getting ruined my friend.

aw🥹thank you so much! you deserve so so so much good in the world @DonnerKebab - pls never ever forget what a difference you make the the world

I'll promise that if you promise the same

And remember, drop an email whenever you want, even from an anonymous email account yourself to remain completely anonymous if you want, and just event whenever you feel like it. Doesn't matter if your silent for a month or a year, just drop an email whenever about whatever. You deserve to be able to vent to somebody without fear of getting things ruined for you. And you deserve to not be alone.