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Re: Anybody want to vent or chat about anything? (Triggering stuff edition)
DonnerKebab wrote: »scared for surgery next monday bc they said i might need to stay in bc after my general anaesthetic i need someone to be with me 24 hours after but i have noone. i cant stay in bc of what happened to my mum.
@eylah so, if you reach out to the hospital, they might be able to recommend home health care services for afterwards. And you did so great going today, i'm gonna be here for you as much as i can, and i know it's not the same as having somebody with you, but i can help you to find somebody who can be. There could be community support, there could be temporary caregivers, or all sorts
i have 0 help outside of this community so asking for ppl to stay with me is impossible. and the hospital have already said there’s noone that can stay with me. and it’s so far from home travelling back on public transport after surgery is just impossible. but i find out on wednesday anyway.
eylah
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Re: Anybody want to vent or chat about anything? (Triggering stuff edition)
DonnerKebab wrote: »toffuna101 wrote: »tw - suicidei want to die so badly and its not my voice (aka gertrude) who is pushing me to die this time its me. my dad and ARC Rapid Response thinks its gertrude but its in fact me. but i know my survival instincts will force me to live so i might as well just mask my feelings with a smile.
@toffuna101 don't mask it or hide it. it will be exhausting and can make things worse. I'm so sorry your battling with this all, and for it to have come from you and not your voices must be especially terrifying. I'm here for you, and sending a hug if your okay with it.
thank you
tw - suicide attempt
i just had my second suicide attempt. i wont tell you all how i did it but it was scary.
toffuna101 wrote: »tw - suicidei want to die so badly and its not my voice (aka gertrude) who is pushing me to die this time its me. my dad and ARC Rapid Response thinks its gertrude but its in fact me. but i know my survival instincts will force me to live so i might as well just mask my feelings with a smile.
are you feeling safe rn?
im safe now, i wasnt feeling safe before but i called my dad and he made the atmosphere safe so that i wouldnt have another sucide attempt.
Re: Anybody want to vent or chat about anything? (Triggering stuff edition)
tw - suicide
i want to die so badly and its not my voice (aka gertrude) who is pushing me to die this time its me. my dad and ARC Rapid Response thinks its gertrude but its in fact me. but i know my survival instincts will force me to live so i might as well just mask my feelings with a smile.
Re: Anybody want to vent or chat about anything? (Triggering stuff edition)
scared for surgery next monday bc they said i might need to stay in bc after my general anaesthetic i need someone to be with me 24 hours after but i have noone. i cant stay in bc of what happened to my mum. 
eylah
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Re: Whats everyone up to atm? 👀
About to watch another episode of Amandaland then I’ll be going into GC at 3.30. How about you @unheardquack
adult A&E
so in the county where im from the two A&Es that are there only accept children in their children's emergency department from 0 all the way to 15 years old. so if you are 16 you automatically get redirected to the adult emergency department. so i went to one of my county's adult A&Es last friday as a 16 year old and i noticed something. they dont really tend to care as much. ill give you an example. so since the adult A&E accepts adults from 16 to death basically there was this elderly man in majors who was wheeled in by a porter. i was in majors since there were literally no beds available in A&E. i could have asked to be in the mental health room since i was a mental health patient but it was probably occupied by someone. so this man wanted to get out of the wheelchair and into a comfortable chair right? but the nurses just flat out ignored him. the nurses eventually came up to him and tried to help him onto the chair but he fell down and had to be lifted up with a board by the paramedics. he was injured as well so it didnt make the situation any better. my point is that if he was under 16 in the children's A&E he wouldve gotten help straight away instead of being initially ignored. also in my time at A&E i overheard someone being aggressive so thats why they were probably moved to the mental health room therefore i couldnt use it.
but i will say that although i was in adult A&E the camhs crisis team still came to me since im under 18, so i wasnt completely classed as an adult. my dad also had to write down his contact details for safeguarding since im still legally a child. but its still so confusing. if im still legally a child why cant you just move me to the children's A&E? one might argue that at 16 you can legally consent for your own treatment therefore youre old enough to be in adult A&E but if you still have to be safeguarded and if camhs still come to you then wouldnt it be easier for me to go to the children's A&E? the children's emergency department is way better too. its newer and there are more rooms for you to have a chat with the staff there. plus its brighter and more friendlier than in the adult emergency department. in the adult A&E it just looks grey and dull.
but i will say that although i was in adult A&E the camhs crisis team still came to me since im under 18, so i wasnt completely classed as an adult. my dad also had to write down his contact details for safeguarding since im still legally a child. but its still so confusing. if im still legally a child why cant you just move me to the children's A&E? one might argue that at 16 you can legally consent for your own treatment therefore youre old enough to be in adult A&E but if you still have to be safeguarded and if camhs still come to you then wouldnt it be easier for me to go to the children's A&E? the children's emergency department is way better too. its newer and there are more rooms for you to have a chat with the staff there. plus its brighter and more friendlier than in the adult emergency department. in the adult A&E it just looks grey and dull.
Re: Anybody want to vent or chat about anything?
DonnerKebab wrote: »toffuna101 wrote: »DonnerKebab wrote: »toffuna101 wrote: »DonnerKebab wrote: »toffuna101 wrote: »DonnerKebab wrote: »@toffuna101 hey, just checking up to see how you are. I know it's been a scary time and you've struggled a lot lately, and i just wanted to you to know i'm here to talk if you want.
im still not alright but im not at crisis point like i was last friday. thanks for checking up on me, i appreciate it@DonnerKebab
@toffuna101 sorry i've not been that active these last few days, but i'm so happy to hear that your doing better at least than you were. I know it's not a lot, but the fact that your in a slightly better place, even if it's still not a good place, than you were several days ago is a small victory. You improve each time your better than you were the day before. Can i ask how A&E went?
basically since im 16 i had to go to the adult A&E and it was pretty shit. the children's A&E was way better. the nurses didnt care if an elderly man was struggling on a wheelchair. he fell on the floor so paramedics had to move him. at least camhs were somewhat helpful by giving me ARC Rapid Response. im still under 18 so they had to come to me. but ARC Rapid Response is just like any other service. when i stated that i was suicidal to them they said "have you tried distraction techniques like colouring?" and im like hmmm why didnt i try that before? i mean i dont really blame them, what else can they do? camhs shouldve sent a referral in for me to go to a psychiatric hospital as an informal (voluntary) patient. their reasoning for not doing so was because being sent to a psychiatric hospital is a last resort. @DonnerKebab
@toffuna101 it really does suck that transition to adult A&E. Same for social care. The transition my brother is going through since turning 18 has been a nightmare. It's like, they get the same amounts of funding, but adult social care deals with 18 to forever, and child social care gets the same amount for 0 - 18. It has to cover like 5 times the people with the same budget.
I was in A&E in November, and the wait was insane, the whole thing was. Elderly standing up for hours on end, not enough seats, read a whole novel just waiting to get sorted with a severe infection that was getting worse and worse. Now when i was 10 and my hand had almost come off and i went to children's A&E (grizzly thing, half the wrist was gone, and the bone was exposed, but it amazingly missed my major arteries in it), i was sorted within an hour or so. It's a shame.
And yeah, i get it. I read more up about the state of it, and it's worse than i thought. You have people who were admitted to A&E with severe depression, they made clear there intentions, were released anyway and ended it an hour after leaving. It's horrifically common nowadays. I wish i could give you some support or advice, but there really isn't a lot. Just know, i'm proud of you for having reached out for support, i'm sorry they offered so little of it, and I'm always here on the Mix to talk to friend.
thank you. yeah there are less children than adults so obviously the wait is going to be shorter. i was in the adult A&E for 11 hours and after that they discharged me because ARC Rapid Response was going to come and visit me on the same evening. how long did you have to wait to be seen in november? i bet it was longer than the four hour target that the nhs set. @DonnerKebab
@toffuna101 About 12 hours, and entire left side of my face was swollen at that stage to the extent it looked like i had a broken jaw and i couldn't drink at all and couldn't even talk. All they did was reduce the swelling, drain it, and give antibiotics at the end of the 12 hours, and give me something to lower my heart rate cause the infection had spread and was causing heart issues.
My back tooth had cracked on something hard prior, I couldn't get into a dentist for months to sort it, and it left the root exposed which ended up causing a dental infection which as i said spread like wildfire around my body. That's why i went into A&E. Got it sorted now, but damn, it was rough. Close to sepsis.
Anyway, i'm sorry that you wasn't given more support. It really is a disgrace that they aren't giving you the support you need.
damn that sounds painful, i hope youre ok now after that A&E visit in november. you may have physically recovered from it but mentally that mustve been hard to go through. im tempted to just do something in order to go back to A&E again and tell them that i need to be put into a psychiatric hospital because i cannot be managed in the community or at home, but then again would they even listen? i doubt it. im supposed to have a camhs appointment tomorrow but they want me to go to a city far away from my town so my dad said that he wont take me there so oh well. i guess ill struggle. @DonnerKebab
Re: Anybody want to vent or chat about anything?
DonnerKebab wrote: »DonnerKebab wrote: »DonnerKebab wrote: »@eylah just sending you a message of love and support for that pre-op thing you said you had today. I know it's scary, but we're here for you as little of a consolation as that is my favourite twat
aw you remembered thankyou its at 2:15!
@eylah of course i remembered, what kind of twat would i be if i didn't
I know you won't be active and see this until after, but you are such a strong person, because i know how scary it must be for you, and i know your worries and fears about it, but your still pushing through in spite of that fear, and that is textbook bravery. Proud of you.
im still at the hospital waiting for tests now
@eylah oooohhh a maccies. What's you go to order? Big Mac, Wrap, or Chicken Nuggets?toffuna101 wrote: »DonnerKebab wrote: »DonnerKebab wrote: »@eylah just sending you a message of love and support for that pre-op thing you said you had today. I know it's scary, but we're here for you as little of a consolation as that is my favourite twat
aw you remembered thankyou its at 2:15!
@eylah of course i remembered, what kind of twat would i be if i didn't
I know you won't be active and see this until after, but you are such a strong person, because i know how scary it must be for you, and i know your worries and fears about it, but your still pushing through in spite of that fear, and that is textbook bravery. Proud of you.
im still at the hospital waiting for tests now
what do you think youll order at mcdonalds?
double cheeseburger coke & chips with chicken nuggets on side
yummy
Re: Anybody want to vent or chat about anything?
DonnerKebab wrote: »DonnerKebab wrote: »DonnerKebab wrote: »@eylah just sending you a message of love and support for that pre-op thing you said you had today. I know it's scary, but we're here for you as little of a consolation as that is my favourite twat
aw you remembered thankyou its at 2:15!
@eylah of course i remembered, what kind of twat would i be if i didn't
I know you won't be active and see this until after, but you are such a strong person, because i know how scary it must be for you, and i know your worries and fears about it, but your still pushing through in spite of that fear, and that is textbook bravery. Proud of you.
im still at the hospital waiting for tests now
@eylah oooohhh a maccies. What's you go to order? Big Mac, Wrap, or Chicken Nuggets?
toffuna101 wrote: »DonnerKebab wrote: »DonnerKebab wrote: »@eylah just sending you a message of love and support for that pre-op thing you said you had today. I know it's scary, but we're here for you as little of a consolation as that is my favourite twat
aw you remembered thankyou its at 2:15!
@eylah of course i remembered, what kind of twat would i be if i didn't
I know you won't be active and see this until after, but you are such a strong person, because i know how scary it must be for you, and i know your worries and fears about it, but your still pushing through in spite of that fear, and that is textbook bravery. Proud of you.
im still at the hospital waiting for tests now
what do you think youll order at mcdonalds?
double cheeseburger coke & chips with chicken nuggets on side
eylah
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