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Re: See you in a couple weeks! 🌈
see you soon. hope you get well soon. ( i dont have a pet. can i do you a oil pic of snimal instead. ).
eylah
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Re: See you in a couple weeks! 🌈
See you soon @JustV and hopefully things are looking better for you when you return.
(unfortunately i don't have any pets to provide pictures of 😂)
(unfortunately i don't have any pets to provide pictures of 😂)
Re: See you in a couple weeks! 🌈
See you soon @JustV I hope you’re feeling better soon.
And a very quick update before you go seeing as i mentioned it on Tuesday - all went well for Theo at the vets today. He’s fractured his paw so needs lots and lots of rest but he’s all ok and recovered well from the sedation
And a very quick update before you go seeing as i mentioned it on Tuesday - all went well for Theo at the vets today. He’s fractured his paw so needs lots and lots of rest but he’s all ok and recovered well from the sedation
Re: my mum. :( ( addiction )
thank you. she still in theatre. so just sat here crying. idk how shell recover.
eylah
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See you in a couple weeks! 🌈
I'll be away for a few weeks for physical health reasons (nothing serious), but I'll be back soon! The rest of @TheMix team will continue taking good care of you until then.
Pet pics appreciated for my return 😺
Pet pics appreciated for my return 😺
JustV
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Re: Major trigger warning and very long post 😭
Can't believe im just a shitty screw up that ruins everything, I ruin every friendship and everything. I start to get to comfy and scared of being hurt that I just do and say stupid things cos then they can't hurt me for no reason if they decide to leave. I dont want to be me, I dont want to deal with the fact that I'm good for nothing. Its so painful waking up just to deal with being worthless and stupid. When will things slow down, im nearly 18 and I thought things would be better by now but everyday just gets worse and worse. My eyes are so puffy and I look so drained. My mental health is coming out in physical ways I keep going dizzy. I cant control my temp. My tummy is just hurting non stop, my head hurts and im so shaky. I just want to have a break from my head and people. I have no one, no one I can trust and no one to turn to. I'm so fed up of who I am as a shitty perosn. I open my mouth too much. I annoy everyone and piss people off. Why couldn't I have been born differently. Was the world that against me before I was made to create me as a stupid shitty perosn ☹️ Im sick of my age regression. I age regress to much that even autocorrect switches the words to how I'd say them in the state of my age regression. Im just a nobody. I dont want to be me, I want to be different. I hate my body. I hate my personality, I hate myself, I hate everything about me 😔 I'm dumb. Stupid. Worthless. Annoying. Unlovable. A waste of time. A freak. A waste of a human. An idiot. A pest. Not good enough. I try to be who people want me to be and expect me to be but still my true colours take over
Rose113
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I’m a free woman - but I don’t feel relieved (TW police/suicide)
For background, many of you will know that I had a bad experience with police last year which lead to me being referred to social work under some kind of diversion from court programme.
Today I was told I no longer have to see them and everything should be dropped. Relief, right?
I don’t feel relieved. I feel depressed. Why you may ask? Because it’s been 14 months of hell.
14 months of my life I will never ever get back, 14 months with this hanging over my head. 14 months where I could have been living as anyone in their 20s should have been. But instead I’ve spent it on high alert, with extreme anxiety and periods of depression and suicidal thoughts (which by the way was the root cause of it happening in the first place).
I should be spending today shouting from the rooftops that I am free, I can live my life again. But instead I’m feeling confused. Why did this happen to me. People I know have done far worse in life and somehow avoided anything similar.
And the kicker? The absolute kicker? The social worker told me today that his supervisor had told him that because it was clearly a one time occurrence that I have no intention of deliberately repeating that there was no work to be done with me. Couldn’t they have told me that 14 months ago? My sense of self, my personality and my ability to regulate my emotions and reactions has been changed, irreversibly changed for the worst and all for what, a tick box exercise?
Is now when I can finally start processing things? I don’t know how to process things, NHS are useless and therapy is expensive. I thought now would be when life starts again, given it’s the day I’ve been looking forward to for the past 14 months. I guess it’s not what I expected.
Today I was told I no longer have to see them and everything should be dropped. Relief, right?
I don’t feel relieved. I feel depressed. Why you may ask? Because it’s been 14 months of hell.
14 months of my life I will never ever get back, 14 months with this hanging over my head. 14 months where I could have been living as anyone in their 20s should have been. But instead I’ve spent it on high alert, with extreme anxiety and periods of depression and suicidal thoughts (which by the way was the root cause of it happening in the first place).
I should be spending today shouting from the rooftops that I am free, I can live my life again. But instead I’m feeling confused. Why did this happen to me. People I know have done far worse in life and somehow avoided anything similar.
And the kicker? The absolute kicker? The social worker told me today that his supervisor had told him that because it was clearly a one time occurrence that I have no intention of deliberately repeating that there was no work to be done with me. Couldn’t they have told me that 14 months ago? My sense of self, my personality and my ability to regulate my emotions and reactions has been changed, irreversibly changed for the worst and all for what, a tick box exercise?
Is now when I can finally start processing things? I don’t know how to process things, NHS are useless and therapy is expensive. I thought now would be when life starts again, given it’s the day I’ve been looking forward to for the past 14 months. I guess it’s not what I expected.
independent_
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