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Re: TW suicidal thoughts Lingering anti-depressant effects & nothing feels real
Hey @Jack25 first I just want to check how you're feeling today? I'm hearing that yesterday you were unsure how you would get through the evening, and whilst you were physically safe, your head was buzzing and you felt like you couldn't take it anymore.
It sounds like you're going through a really overwhelming time right now and you've done really well to reach out here and tell us how this has all been feeling for you. It sounds like you've been fighting so hard for so long, and when it feels like nothing is shifting, it can make everything feel really hopeless and exhausting.
I'm hearing that you're wanting to look into private therapy and it sounds like despite everything, you're still fighting hard to find a way forward, even when things are feeling unbearable. That takes real strength Jack, especially when your mind and body might be feeling a little out of sync since your medication changes. What your feeling sounds really intense, but it doesn't have to be permanent. You deserve support around this, and you're doing so well to continue reaching out. Have you been able to look into what options you have for private therapy?
You mentioned that you were physically safe yesterday, which is super important and we appreciate you letting us know, however what you're describing here sounds like you deserve more support right now to help you through this. If things get worse, or you feel like you can't keep yourself safe, we would urge you to call the emergency services on 999, or go to your local A&E department to explain your intentions to them, so that they can support you. You don't have to wait until it becomes too much, and they will be there to help.
For now, I wonder if you could let us know how you're feeling today? Our Community is here for you Jack. We will also be running a Support Thread here on the boards 11am-12:30pm if you fancied coming along. We will be there to listen and support you.
It sounds like you're going through a really overwhelming time right now and you've done really well to reach out here and tell us how this has all been feeling for you. It sounds like you've been fighting so hard for so long, and when it feels like nothing is shifting, it can make everything feel really hopeless and exhausting.
I'm hearing that you're wanting to look into private therapy and it sounds like despite everything, you're still fighting hard to find a way forward, even when things are feeling unbearable. That takes real strength Jack, especially when your mind and body might be feeling a little out of sync since your medication changes. What your feeling sounds really intense, but it doesn't have to be permanent. You deserve support around this, and you're doing so well to continue reaching out. Have you been able to look into what options you have for private therapy?
You mentioned that you were physically safe yesterday, which is super important and we appreciate you letting us know, however what you're describing here sounds like you deserve more support right now to help you through this. If things get worse, or you feel like you can't keep yourself safe, we would urge you to call the emergency services on 999, or go to your local A&E department to explain your intentions to them, so that they can support you. You don't have to wait until it becomes too much, and they will be there to help.
For now, I wonder if you could let us know how you're feeling today? Our Community is here for you Jack. We will also be running a Support Thread here on the boards 11am-12:30pm if you fancied coming along. We will be there to listen and support you.
Katie
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Re: Signpost Shoutouts
This sounds really interesting, I'll definitely be giving it a try.
Re: November 2025 achievements!
Thank you so much @kaii for these posts every month - they make me really happy and I look forward to them a lot. Here are mine for this month:
- I started reading my first ever novel in Japanese (it's my neighbour totoro hehe) with the help of a dictionary, and that's been going really well! I've also ordered a Japanese light novel series which is arriving next month, I'm super excited to start reading that.
- I also started drawing this month which I'm proud of, and it's been really therapeutic and relaxing, especially with music on in the background.
- I finished watching the anime series 'the fragrant flower blooms with dignity' entirely in Japanese, that was really exciting as I've never watched a whole series in the language before!
- I made more of an effort to be kind to myself this month
- I started reading my first ever novel in Japanese (it's my neighbour totoro hehe) with the help of a dictionary, and that's been going really well! I've also ordered a Japanese light novel series which is arriving next month, I'm super excited to start reading that.
- I also started drawing this month which I'm proud of, and it's been really therapeutic and relaxing, especially with music on in the background.
- I finished watching the anime series 'the fragrant flower blooms with dignity' entirely in Japanese, that was really exciting as I've never watched a whole series in the language before!
- I made more of an effort to be kind to myself this month
Re: Just don't want to be here anymore
Hi @Invisible_me , it sounds like things are feeling extremely hard and exhausting right now, and I hear you when you say that you don't want to be here anymore. We're listening, and we take what you're sharing seriously. You've doing so well to share this and to reach out, and I hear how frightening it feels to think of everything falling apart.
Can I ask, are you feeling able to keep yourself safe at the moment? The staff team will be reaching out to you via DM to check in further.
I wonder if there might have been something that's triggered the fear that everything could fall apart? Or perhaps it has been more of a general feeling?
We're here for you @Invisible_me , and thank you so much for your trust in sharing this.
Hi @Sian321
Thank you for message.
Everything just feels too hard, like things aren't going to get easier and I jyst feeling like I haven't got the strength to so this.... tge thought of trying to get through December, Christmas is hard! All the change, sensory overload!, work was goung well and now all of a sudden it feels like ive failed probation and im in the brink of losing it sunless Har decide to offer me further extension ( i so hopr so!).. the thoygh of losing it is terrifying as much anxiety it caused!!
My mum wasnt too good either, , dad os battling with long illnesses although well at moment so....
Im trying hard and hace kept myself safe..I've got no plans hust all feels so dark!
Re: Just don't want to be here anymore
Redemption wrote: »Are you safe @Invisible_me ? Please remember you matter, you're needed, the world is a better place with you here.
Ive put some services below if you need
https://www.papyrus-uk.org/
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Opens at 5pm till 12am
https://www.thecalmzone.net/
Thanks @Redemption . Im safe. I managed to keep myself, guess I had to!
