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Hope you’re feeling okay Riv, we’re here for ya💚

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i think that is perfectly okay. its a big thing to be doing and one that i'm sure feels quite daunting. it's more than fine if you don't feel completely ready yet and need a bit more time. remember to take it all at a pace you feel comfortable with. sending hugs

Hi. I know and understand how frustrated you are. I hear this and so completely understand and relate tryibg to get help is so hard!! Im just so lucky that I've got my doc as an avenue of support.
Is there someone yoy trust yiu can use as support. In school I used to practically see my head of yr, learning mentor like 3-4 times a week.

Helpline wise- have you trird @hopelineuk/ papyrus. Ive found them helpful and quite quick st responding like 30mins to 50mins, even at late random o clock times, that's by email. I know they have pjone email and text i think but not sure re webchat. Quicker than shout which I was waiting 6rd by text!

It sounds like you're going through an incredibly stressful time right now, with so many factors contributing to your anxiety and feelings of being overwhelmed. It's totally understandable that you're feeling lost with so much uncertainty and pressure, especially with everything going on this week.

The fact that your routine has been disrupted with college being off and your family at home makes everything feel even more unsettled. The library situation adds another layer of anxiety, especially with it being unfamiliar and bigger than the place you’re used to. I can imagine how tough that must feel, especially when you rely on certain spaces for a sense of control and comfort. Feeling out of place in a new environment is so hard, especially when you’re already dealing with a lot of emotional weight.

And the pressure of your assignments — especially with the essays due soon and the difficulty you're having in understanding the material — adds a huge amount of stress. It’s really hard to feel like you should understand something when the resources and instructions are already clear, but you’re still struggling. You’re not alone in feeling that way, though. A lot of people have moments where they feel stuck despite doing everything “right.” It doesn’t mean you’re not trying hard enough or aren’t capable. Sometimes, when we’re overwhelmed, our brains just can’t process the information in the way we want them to.

As for your family dynamics, I hear how awkward and isolating it must feel right now with your sister ignoring you and the tension with your mum being home. It's a tough environment to be in when you're already feeling like you're struggling, and it makes everything feel even more isolating. It’s hard to find your own space and peace when you feel like others aren’t supporting you, even if it’s not intentional.

I hear you when you say you don’t want to resort to unhealthy coping mechanisms, and it’s clear that you care a lot about taking care of yourself even when things are tough. It’s hard when your usual coping mechanisms aren’t working, like sleep, and you can’t find that escape from the pressure. It doesn’t make you pathetic at all, though — it makes you human. Everyone has moments where things just don’t come together the way they’re supposed to, and it's okay to struggle. It doesn’t define you or your worth.

In terms of your college work, maybe breaking it down into smaller, more manageable steps could help, even if it feels like a slow start. You don’t have to get it perfect all at once, especially when you’re feeling so overwhelmed. You’re doing your best, and that's enough. If the assignment feels too much right now, could you break it down into tiny pieces? Maybe even just focus on one sentence or paragraph at a time? Little steps, rather than trying to tackle the whole thing at once, might make it feel less impossible.

And, with the family situation, is there any way to carve out a bit of time for yourself — even if it's just a few minutes — where you can feel a little more in control of your environment? Maybe it’s taking a walk, or even just stepping outside for a bit of space, or finding something small that brings you comfort when things feel overwhelming.

You’re doing the best you can right now, and I really believe that things can improve even though it feels hard right now. I’m really glad you’re reaching out to talk about it, because it shows strength. You’re not alone in feeling like this, and it’s okay to be in this tough place. You don’t have to be perfect right now, and you don’t have to do everything alone.

It sounds like you’re carrying a lot of weight right now, feeling nervous about sharing everything with your psychologist and also worrying about returning to school after the half term break. It's completely understandable to feel this way—sometimes it can be really difficult to open up about everything, especially when it feels like a lot or when you're unsure of how it might be received. But it’s so brave of you to even consider sharing these things with your psychologist, as it shows you're looking for support, even if it feels hard. And the idea of returning to school after time away can bring up a lot of anxiety, too, especially with all the emotions and stress you’ve been holding. You’re not alone in feeling like this—it’s okay to take things one step at a time and to ask for help when you need it. You’re doing the best you can, and that’s enough.

I panicked and backed out on seeing them 🫠 I’m not ready too it’s gonna be too much