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[OLD] The 'I need a hug' thread - please read first post before posting :)
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I can't tell if you were indulging in dark humour or genuinely suggesting you might die (or both I guess!), but in either case it might be worth reaching out to the relevant people.
For thoughts of suicide you know crisis services are always there, and if the palpitations continue or get worse, calling 111 or seeing a GP might not be a bad shout.
I also wanted to touch on this briefly:
I won't get too into the weeds here to avoid triggers, but you've said before that you're in a medically risky place when it comes to losing weight and I wanted to acknowledge that here. I know that's a complex situation with a lot of emotional difficulty behind it and you've shown a lot of willingness to get yourself support when you reach tipping points. I'd encourage you to reach out for whatever medical attention or emotional support you need right now, particularly if those ED thoughts and behaviours are peaking again like they have at other points recently.
Gentle reminder that you can also create dedicated threads for these chunkier convos
Would you recommend any @JustV??? I've tried red bull but it tastes like Calpol and I hate it, but I need to stay awake
I've actually never had an energy drink, which feels weird to say out loud. My fuel of choice tends to be caffeine in the form of diet coke, though I'm trying to give it up. 🥱
Ooh I've never had an energy drink either! I also don't drink coffee at all. I do have fizzy drinks quite often but not really as a means of getting energy.
Maybe that's why I feel so tired all the time
Stupid question. Is it just coke that has caffeine or do most fizzy drinks do? (Eg. fanta sprite etc.)
If you feel comfortable try and share how you have been feeling with family or friends. I am sure they would be able to reassure you that you are not alone. Having a good intimate conversation with someone might make you feel better.
Sending you lots of virtual hugs.
Also I miss my teacher so much
It's not much tho, a can of Diet Coke I think has like 1/3 the caffeine of a black coffee or something.
@IainJammyboy true! I'll still drink it sometimes (drinking it now tbf) but I was clearing probably the equivalent of like 4-5 cans per day, and felt like I needed to at least reduce it.
Interestingly I didn't have any for like 3/4 days, and I had a constant, very bad withdrawal headache during that time. Was a bit of a wake up call to be honest.
No one asked about this but it feels related: apparently it's common for people with ADHD to self-medicate with stimulants (like caffeine or sugar) to regulate their ability to focus. And I think that's probably what I was doing without realising, which explains a lot!