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    AbigailAbigail Posts: 818 Part of The Mix Family
    Millie2787 said:
    Downside to being ill is you nap through the day which means you barley sleeping during the night 🤦🏻‍♀️
    Having the same issue mate
    Some people think I am unhappy. I'm not. I just approach silence in the world that never stops talking.
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    Millie2787Millie2787 Community Champion Posts: 5,147 Part of The Furniture
    Ahhhhh my throats on fire. ( gotta sing that to the tune of kings of Leon 😂😂) 
    Sometimes all you need is one person to believe in you , for you to begin to believe in yourself.
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    Millie2787Millie2787 Community Champion Posts: 5,147 Part of The Furniture
    All I want is some decent sleep whilst I’m ill 
    Sometimes all you need is one person to believe in you , for you to begin to believe in yourself.
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    SienaSiena Posts: 15,503 Skive's The Limit
    i feel like i cant get enough oxygen 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
    “And when they look at you, they won't see everything you've been through. They won't see the **** that turned to scars that began to fade with time. They won't see the heartbreaking things that shook up and changed your entire world. They won't know how many tears you cried or even what it was you were crying about. They won't see how strong you had to be because you had no other choice. What they will see though is how compassionate you are because you experienced pain. What they will see is how kind you are because you experienced how cruel the world is. What they will see is how good you are because you've seen how bad things or people can be. The difference between you and your experiences are who you choose to be, despite everything that could have turned you cold and unkind.You are the good the world needs and the best of us.” ~ Kirsten Corley
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    Millie2787Millie2787 Community Champion Posts: 5,147 Part of The Furniture
    Would anyone like a free present becasue I’ll happliy package up this flu and send it to you ! 
    Sometimes all you need is one person to believe in you , for you to begin to believe in yourself.
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    Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,938 Extreme Poster
    I definitely have a goal to make this year eventful and pack a good amount of change and productivity into it, instead of the wasteful suffering hell that 2018 was...
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    Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,938 Extreme Poster
    iiII NEED TO GO TO THE DOCTOR CAUSE I DON'T SEE ANY OTHER WAY TO EASE THE MISERY BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW :lol::frown:
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    Millie2787Millie2787 Community Champion Posts: 5,147 Part of The Furniture
    BLOODY BOILER !! 
    Sometimes all you need is one person to believe in you , for you to begin to believe in yourself.
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    independent_independent_ Community Champion Posts: 8,628 Legendary Poster
    Our dog has found a way out of our enclosed garden!!! Twice now we’ve found him outside the gates and we don’t know where he’s getting out!! He’s always been quite the explorer but this is scaring us shitless!! 
    “Sometimes the people around you won’t understand your journey. They don’t need to, it’s not for them.”
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    Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,938 Extreme Poster
    oh my goooood my sibling is seriously such a bitch. I'm not even kidding. So ungrateful and inconsiderate and bossy and mean. :expressionless: Why can't my dad just stop letting them walk all over everybody and tell them they're not behaving okay? Because I swear their behaviour's getting worse and worse. First they were just a bitch to us, now they've started being bitchy towards my grandmother and are being mean to people online. It's just not okay and it's making me want to slap them :angry:
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    Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,938 Extreme Poster
    Oh you know what, I'm just gonna try to confront my dad about this. He won't do anything but not sure what else I can do. I could try to tell them off myself but then everyone will get mad at me. Anyways got stuff to do other than ranting I guess.
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    Millie2787Millie2787 Community Champion Posts: 5,147 Part of The Furniture
    I just want decent sleep without waking up every blood half hour 
    Sometimes all you need is one person to believe in you , for you to begin to believe in yourself.
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    SienaSiena Posts: 15,503 Skive's The Limit
    Wow. My sister literally just throw water at me because i never put the new toilet roll on the toilet roll holder thing and leave it on the side lool what an actual prick. She must call me lazy 3 times in a day.  
    “And when they look at you, they won't see everything you've been through. They won't see the **** that turned to scars that began to fade with time. They won't see the heartbreaking things that shook up and changed your entire world. They won't know how many tears you cried or even what it was you were crying about. They won't see how strong you had to be because you had no other choice. What they will see though is how compassionate you are because you experienced pain. What they will see is how kind you are because you experienced how cruel the world is. What they will see is how good you are because you've seen how bad things or people can be. The difference between you and your experiences are who you choose to be, despite everything that could have turned you cold and unkind.You are the good the world needs and the best of us.” ~ Kirsten Corley
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    Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,938 Extreme Poster
    edited February 2019
    My mom's just found out her boyfriend's cheating on her and I have no idea what to even think anymore! PLEASE let this knock sense into her and make them break up... Um goodnight all! lol :confused:
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    Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,938 Extreme Poster
    long rant about the situation above... also TW I guess for stuff like abuse.

    When I think about it it's angering me. My mom's been so silly to stay in that relationship 'cause it's super unhealthy all over. But... She's done so much for him. Forgiven him for doing really vile things, given him loads of money, gone with him to appointments, stuck by him when he ended up in court (another story...), defended him to people who were speaking bad of him for pretty good reasons, the list goes on.

    And THIS is how he repays her??! After all she's done, he just pisses off to go have an affair and feel 0% guilt??!

    This may be very harsh but sadly it's true, all he does to people is ruin their lives. There's not one person in his life that he hasn't ruined the lives of - except maybe people he knows who are at a similar level of jerkiness. I kinda wonder if he's incapable of love. He goes about in his life only ever living inside of himself and his selfishness. And he'll just continue to do this until he dies.

    I feel sorry for him (truly). For everyone like him or even worse, murderers, and so on. These people are pretty screwed up, and though that definitely doesn't excuse what they do, I feel bad for the things they've faced, for what their life could've been, and so forth. Do you get what I mean?

    Like my mom's boyfriend had a complete nightmare of a childhood. I doubt I even know the half of it and I don't want to share everything. But he was beaten up, sexually abused, called horrible names since he was just a little kid, the list goes on. He's attempted suicide countless times. He's been through so much and I guess it plays a huge factor in how he is today. It's such a shame and I do care about him.

    But he's not just a mentally ill misunderstood guy. He's also honestly a purely selfish person. And though that may sort of come from the fact he's so screwed up, he doesn't even want to change.

    I don't know if I'm making sense...  My feelings about him are pretty complicated. If I were to look at the same situation but happening with people I'd never met, it wouldn't be so complicated, 'cause there's no anger. I just feel sad, for everybody. It's like in a murder case, I feel sad for the victims and what they went through. I feel sad for the murderer(s) cause generally, you gotta be really screwed up to do something like that. I feel sad for all the relatives and witnesses. You get my point by now. But I've MET my mom's boyfriend. And at first, he seemed truly nice and I was actually pretty fond of him. So my feelings are just more complicated. ANYWAY.

    My poor mom. I don't have a huge amount of sympathy 'cause this isn't any surprise. She's refused to leave him all this time and wanted to play an unhealthy soap opera instead. So part of me's like, "well mom, that's what you get. Should've just left him." But also part of me is like "god, she's done so much for him and he just repays her with an affair. Poor mom."

    I'll shut up now. Just had to get that out I guess.


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    BubblesGoesBooBubblesGoesBoo Posts: 3,590 Community Veteran
    Had such a good time away but now its just like im back to the same shit as before and really struggling :( 
    ' So I put a bullet where I shouda put a helmet, and I crash my car cause I wanna get carried away, that's why I'm standing on the overpass screaming at myself 'hey, I wanna get better''  
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    Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,938 Extreme Poster
    To add to my stress, long story short someone just emailed me saying they're gonna kill themselves tonight. A bit of background: They said online once that they were going to kill themselves, and I replied saying don't. They then said they were alive and asked me for contact details. I gave out my email address and they email me to talk about things. So... I don't even know them and yet they're emailing me saying they're gonna kill themselves. I want to reply immediately 'cause I'm scared in case they're serious, and I'm worried and I hope they're okay, but I just can't encourage them to think that I'm a source of crisis help... So I'll probs have to wait a few hours. And if they keep doing this I'll have to tell them not to, like "I really sympathise, stuff sounds so hard for you bud. But remember, though I wish I could, I can't help you through crisis. All I can do when you say you're going to kill yourself is worry and hope you're okay". Buuuuut yeah what a lovely finishing touch to a horrible and anxious day.



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    Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,938 Extreme Poster
    Welp, I responded basically saying please don't, and they just replied with "I'm fine [and what appears to be the :unamused: emoji]". Seriously?! The fuck?! You literally tell me you're about to kill yourself and then when I show concern, you respond in a way that seems to imply you're irritated and think I'm overreacting, what the fuck. Hey sorry I'm probably sounding like a monster at the moment, I'm just so miserable and anxious and stressed and uuuuuugh. But um yeah I don't really appreciate this... I've already got so much stress to handle.


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    AifeAife Community Manager Posts: 3,032 Boards Guru
    Hey @kathleen0172

    I hope you're okay. It sounds like a really difficult position you're in at the moment. You're are doing the right thing here setting boundaries and letting them know what support you can and can't offer them. It's really important to set these boundaries so they know where they can go to get the best support from specialised crisis services.

    There's some really great crisis support services out there which you can encourage them to reach out to instead. There's Crisis Messenger who are contactable by text 24/7 by texting 'THEMIX' to 85258. There's also Samaritans who are available 24/7 and they can be called on 116 123. You can also encourage them to call 999 if they have any concerns for their health and safety :)

    Hope you're okay Kathleen <3
    Maybe somethings don't get better, but we do. We get stronger. We learn to live with our situations as messy and ugly as they are. We fix what we can and we adapt to what we can't. Maybe some of us will never fully be okay, but at least we're here. We're still trying. We're doing the best we can. That's worth celebrating too ❤
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    Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,938 Extreme Poster
    Aw thanks @Aife :) I just made a second post on here if you wanna look at what they just replied with... I'm half-wondering if they just said that for attention... idk :tired_face:

    Yeah, I truly wish I could help them and just heal their suffering. I just want to be able to do that with everyone who's in emotional pain. But... well, I'm not a magical god lol. I'm always happy to listen and sympathise, but they can't really just say they're going to hurt themselves like that. Cause as I mentioned, all I can do is worry for their wellbeing :/

    I hope they don't say that again or take it any further but if they do, I will just have to kindly tell them I can't help them through crisis and direct them to the professionals.
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    Millie2787Millie2787 Community Champion Posts: 5,147 Part of The Furniture
    Why do I get myself so worked up about things that are so far away 🤦🏻‍♀️
    Sometimes all you need is one person to believe in you , for you to begin to believe in yourself.
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    BubblesGoesBooBubblesGoesBoo Posts: 3,590 Community Veteran
    If I could sleep now that would be great 🙃 
    ' So I put a bullet where I shouda put a helmet, and I crash my car cause I wanna get carried away, that's why I'm standing on the overpass screaming at myself 'hey, I wanna get better''  
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    SienaSiena Posts: 15,503 Skive's The Limit
    edited February 2019
    TRIGGER WARNING (eating disorders)
    im so sorry if this isnt allowed but read the rules again and think is okay and cant see what rule it goes again. 


    I really regret when i used to purge in certain way. Everytime i go to try to brush my tongue i automatically gag even tho i dont go even that close to my tonsils. Is because i used to do it with a tooth brush too so not helping. Feel like brushing your tongue is so importatn and i have to spend it gagging it is so horrible and triggering 

    “And when they look at you, they won't see everything you've been through. They won't see the **** that turned to scars that began to fade with time. They won't see the heartbreaking things that shook up and changed your entire world. They won't know how many tears you cried or even what it was you were crying about. They won't see how strong you had to be because you had no other choice. What they will see though is how compassionate you are because you experienced pain. What they will see is how kind you are because you experienced how cruel the world is. What they will see is how good you are because you've seen how bad things or people can be. The difference between you and your experiences are who you choose to be, despite everything that could have turned you cold and unkind.You are the good the world needs and the best of us.” ~ Kirsten Corley
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    Millie2787Millie2787 Community Champion Posts: 5,147 Part of The Furniture
    Ughhh why do I leave all my work to the last minute 
    Sometimes all you need is one person to believe in you , for you to begin to believe in yourself.
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    Millie2787Millie2787 Community Champion Posts: 5,147 Part of The Furniture
    Health and social care will be the death of meeeeeeee
    Sometimes all you need is one person to believe in you , for you to begin to believe in yourself.
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    Millie2787Millie2787 Community Champion Posts: 5,147 Part of The Furniture
    UGHHH OHHHH IM missing a sheet I need to type up safeguarding - ohhhh fuckty fuck fuck 
    Sometimes all you need is one person to believe in you , for you to begin to believe in yourself.
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    Millie2787Millie2787 Community Champion Posts: 5,147 Part of The Furniture
    Ok ok I found the sheet put it in the wrong section of my folder but now my laptop won’t work 😭 Fucking shitty assignments and fucking shitty being ill , if anyone ever took L2 H&S care and did about the care values please help before Internally imploed , exploded whatever you want to call it 🤣
    Sometimes all you need is one person to believe in you , for you to begin to believe in yourself.
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    SienaSiena Posts: 15,503 Skive's The Limit
    edited September 2023
    My county voted as worst place to live in england. 

    Know shouldnt hate where you live and should leave. But i cant so i will just hate it still lol and agree

    "the biggest dump in England with aggressive and inbred residents"

    You feel totally isolated from the rest of the world and life in general, as though everything else is going on and you're not part of it as you're stuck in this dump. Take a trip into the town centre and it's like walking onto the set of the 'Walking Dead' -

    I agree ahh
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    “And when they look at you, they won't see everything you've been through. They won't see the **** that turned to scars that began to fade with time. They won't see the heartbreaking things that shook up and changed your entire world. They won't know how many tears you cried or even what it was you were crying about. They won't see how strong you had to be because you had no other choice. What they will see though is how compassionate you are because you experienced pain. What they will see is how kind you are because you experienced how cruel the world is. What they will see is how good you are because you've seen how bad things or people can be. The difference between you and your experiences are who you choose to be, despite everything that could have turned you cold and unkind.You are the good the world needs and the best of us.” ~ Kirsten Corley
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    Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,938 Extreme Poster
    That's it I'm getting my dad to make me a doctors appointment asap. I don't care what this takes, I'M GETTING MY THROAT FIXED :grimace: I ain't giving up on me dream that easily...
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    Millie2787Millie2787 Community Champion Posts: 5,147 Part of The Furniture
    kathleen0172 said:
    That's it I'm getting my dad to make me a doctors appointment asap. I don't care what this takes, I'M GETTING MY THROAT FIXED :grimace: I ain't giving up on me dream that easily...
    @kathleen0172 YOU GO GIRL !!! 
    Sometimes all you need is one person to believe in you , for you to begin to believe in yourself.
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