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Feeling so flipping low! I hate this...flashback after flashback,causing so much emotional pain, The suicidal thoughts are back and they're back SO! bad, I can't cope, I don't know what to do. I feel like it's the only option now, Probably is..infact it is. Life gets better? ha does it frig it gets harder and harder as it goes on! I'm done with it, Feeling really really suicidal, Self harming worse everyday and starving myself..because I'm just a fuck up, I hate life, I hate my life..I don't want to be alive anymore!
So distressed
Feeling so flipping low! I hate this...flashback after flashback,causing so much emotional pain, The suicidal thoughts are back and they're back SO! bad, I can't cope, I don't know what to do. I feel like it's the only option now, Probably is..infact it is. Life gets better? ha does it frig it gets harder and harder as it goes on! I'm done with it, Feeling really really suicidal, Self harming worse everyday and starving myself..because I'm just a fuck up, I hate life, I hate my life..I don't want to be alive anymore!
So distressed
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It sounds like things are tough for you at the moment and are feeling very low:(, sorry to hear this, what are the flashbacks you mentioned ? It sounds like these are distressing for you. Sometimes it can be very difficult to cope with what life throws at us and different people will cope in different ways, it can feel hopeless and like there is no way out sometimes but remember there is always strength to pull us through the hard times.
Have you spoken to anyone about how you are feeling ? A close friend or family member ? or a counsellor/ therapist ? If not it may be worth giving this a go. You could also contact the Samaritians on 08457 909090 who provide a confidential emotional support. You also always have us here at The Site:).
I hope things start to look up for you soon and Please keep posting and let us know how you are getting on.
Tc.
B
I can't offer any support, as things are just as shit.
But i can say, others are in the same boat, don't give up.
I spoke to a woman yesterday Hannah, she's a camhs practitioner it was for an assesment then monday we're having an extended assesment, her contract ends in febuary, she actually made me feel so crap that I'm glad that when I get a proper therapist she won't be it..
That's such a shame that you don't find your camhs worker easy to talk to. It must be hard to suddenly have to open up to a stranger, and if you don't click with them I'm sure it makes it even harder. Try to stick with it - I know others here find their camhs workers really helpful, so hopefully you will manage to build up a trusting relationship with the next one.
The flashbacks sound quite frightening - did you tell Hannah about those too? I've just done a little searching and found this guide to coping with flashbacks - you may have read this kind of thing before, but if you haven't then it might help to have a few practical ideas to try next time it happens.
http://www.dbtselfhelp.com/CopingwithFlashbacks.pdf
Really hope things start to look brighter soon.
Spanner *hug*
Can't...do this anymore
You are stronger than you think.
I'm not going to say it gets better, but maybe it can become balanced. -A mix of good and bad, hopefully more good than bad.
I've found that the positives in my life help lessen the negative.
Thinking of you hun. xx *hug*
I'm just..done
I've read a lot of your threads and posts on here and I know you're really strong. Try to hold on to that - however bad things may feel there is lots to live for and you've got lots to give.
*hug*
From what Fiend says it sounds like you have a move planned - how long away is that? Can you try to focus on that as a new start?
The moves end of march beginning of april time. I do have space I guess...all the space I want since they no longer want anything to do with me or as my parents said it "You're dead in my eyes". I don't return to their house to take care for dad anymore..I haven't for a month now, and as far as I know they're happy..they've changed their locks as I own a key, they've changed their number...So..hey'o
If you're registered at a GP get an appointment and talk to him/her and they may refer you for counselling sessions.
No one can do anything unless you help yourself.
i just need megan. Its not fair. i just need her
They have a duty of care.
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Just like it was when you was in Hull and so nearly got the help you wanted.
Best of luck.
I don't have that amount of time.
I cant do this anymore
Same as a professional can't change your thoughts, only you can.
There's helplines out there.
I think you should go back and see your GP again, tell them that it is urgent. Are you on medication at all? Do you think that could help while you wait for counselling?
Also, is there a samaritans drop in centre in your town? I find them very helpful when things are getting really bad xxx
I don't think being suicidal is a "choice". Mental health is an illness, just like cancer, and there's no one out there who thinks "I'd really love to have cancer" just like there's no one who thinks "I want to be suicidal". I think you need to be more supportive in your attitude, these boards are full of very vulnerable people and if you do not feel able to support them then I think you need to avoid replying to threads regarding mental health for a while.