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Suicidal..

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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    its obvious..thats why everyone stuck by him and not me.
    I've had enough...I'm sick of getting treat like garbage...I'm done.
    I can't take it..
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    ReenaReena Posts: 1,375 Wise Owl
    We'll stick by you hun. xx
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    I don't plan on being around
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    ReenaReena Posts: 1,375 Wise Owl
    Emmalee wrote: »
    I don't plan on being around

    Wish I knew how to make you feel better. ):
    Are you doing anything right now?
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Nothing 'completly life dangerous' stuff....
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    ReenaReena Posts: 1,375 Wise Owl
    What have you tried doing? Anything to change your mind I mean?
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Nothing will change my mind...nothing is..
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    ReenaReena Posts: 1,375 Wise Owl
    Sorry to hear that hun.
    Is there anything I can do? *hug* :( *hug*
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Make it all stop?...ah..nah theres nothign anyone can do anymore..Im just a lost cause
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    ReenaReena Posts: 1,375 Wise Owl
    Emmalee wrote: »
    Im just a lost cause

    No way! I don't believe that. xx
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    well everyone else seems to...everyone else tells me..."You're just a worthless peice of shit...Yu don't deserve nothing. I wish you'd drop dead" yeah thanks mum
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    ReenaReena Posts: 1,375 Wise Owl
    That's what they think. I'm sure a lot of members on thesite would disagree with that.
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    I'm sure a lot would agree too
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    ReenaReena Posts: 1,375 Wise Owl
    Probably not as many as you think. xx
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Well I've been told growing up to go kill myself...
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    ReenaReena Posts: 1,375 Wise Owl
    Who have you been hanging out with?
    They sound like right charmers.
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    My mum, and brother..
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    ReenaReena Posts: 1,375 Wise Owl
    Is it just them?
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Nope
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    ReenaReena Posts: 1,375 Wise Owl
    How can anyone not like you?
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Reena wrote: »
    How can anyone not like you?

    How can anybody like me?..
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    ReenaReena Posts: 1,375 Wise Owl
    I thought that about myself once. xx
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    ReenaReena Posts: 1,375 Wise Owl
    I'm going to have to go hun, sorry I can't stay longer, stupid work tomorrow. :grump:
    Take care and I hope to speak to you again. xx *hug*
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    I'll jump in reena's place - you're lovely! You have my number if you need it!
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    I'm shaking, harming, crying...I really hate myself right now. I hate what and who I've become, I hate how I've let my family affect me like this. I don't want to live. I don't want to be in this much pain. I'm done. I just can't anymore :(
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    You didn't just let your family hurt you, you really weren't at fault. You really need to realise that!
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    I blame myself though, I blame myself for it all...its my fault, Its my fault my brother did what he did, its my fault my parents turned against me, I deserved everything...
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    Indrid ColdIndrid Cold Posts: 16,688 Skive's The Limit
    The only way that would make sense is if you had mind controlling abilities.
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    ReenaReena Posts: 1,375 Wise Owl
    Emmalee wrote: »
    I blame myself though, I blame myself for it all...its my fault, Its my fault my brother did what he did, its my fault my parents turned against me, I deserved everything...

    You can't blame yourself for the actions of others. -As people we can choose how we are towards each other, kind or cruel. Yes one person can have an affect on how we react, but that can be positive as well as negative.
    If all you get from people is negativity then it's understandable why anyone would feel that way, and the longer you're stuck in these thoughts the harder it is to see the positive, warm, genuine care when it's offered.

    No-one deserves pain like this. To hate yourself. To live in unhappiness. It isn't fair to make anyone feel like that, it's their fault, not yours.

    See! I'm not the only one who thinks you're brill. Hope you're okay? xx
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Even the social services didn't care..they let it carry on happening for another 3 years after I spoke about it. It wasnt until i kept running away and attempting suicide until they removed me, even then i had to go back home to care for my dad. Nobodys ever believe me, He's never been arrested..I've done an evidence tape I spoke for 5 hours, He wasn't ever convicted there 'wasn't enough evidence' yeah whatever, I feel disgusting I feel horrible, Everytime I hear his name i just want to die. I begged him to kill me when i was little, he nearly did..

    I've grown up knowing my family didn't care about me, My dad..I thought my dad loved me, Until january when he screamed at me wishing I'd drop dead. My mum constantly told me to get hit by a bus or a train, and my brother..well he did everything he could to hurt me, pushing me downstairs, into things, leaving me outside for 3 hours in just a pair of shorts and a vest top, I hated him.

    I've never had the support from my family, my friends don't know what to say..I blame myself, because it IS my fault...I did something to ask for it, if i wasn't born it wouldnt of happened...

    I deserve to die..
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