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-Liam ❤️
Why isn’t it higher? I wish I knew. I can’t stop crying all the time, I don’t even know what I’m sad about. Stupid intrusive thoughts are tiring. I’m struggling and I don’t know why, things are supposed to be better. So many people have been so kind but I don’t think I’m doing enough to help myself. People think I’m happier now and doing better, I don’t want to disappoint or burden them, once was bad enough. I’m just so tired.
Why isn’t it lower? I spoke to a really kind shout volunteer who helped ground me . I don’t go back to school until at least Wednesday so I have chance to cram all the work I haven’t done. I’m surrounded by some amazing people who see the good things I can’t, I’m incredibly thankful for them.
Take care everyone, here if anyone ever needs anything
Why it isn’t higher: I live in my own wee bubble and sometimes someone with a nasty heart comes along and tries to pop it and it reminds me that there's some reyt vile folk out there
Why it isn’t lower : Because despite the vile folk, I know some of the most FANTASTIC people and they make me SO very happy. I'm very grateful for my dog who is SO FRIGGIN CUTE i just wanny squeeze him AGHHHHH, it should be illegal to be so cute. Also because i just feel really lucky to have such lovely people around me who put up with my highs, my very highs, my extremely highs and my lows.
What I could do : My plans are to shower and then annoy my friends
Why isn’t it higher: I’ve definitely gone backwards and just struggling to stay positive.
Why it isn’t lower: this morning I checked a lottery ticket I had for yesterday and I won £30!!! 30 whole quid that I didn’t think I would have. So I treated myself to some vodka and I still have money left lol. I also (finally, because mum said she would help me today but no other day) did a big clear out of my room and got rid of 7 big bags of absolute rubbish. How one person had so much, I will never know.
What I could do: I really need to speak to my counsellor on Tuesday about how I’ve felt lately. For right now I’m gonna relax (done with cleaning, there’s more I could do but I’m well and truely bored) and put music on.
Why it isn't higher: Been a bit of an emotional rollercoaster day and kinda missing my fam again. which is okay but I'm just left a bit bleh. Also kinda TW regarding foood.
Why it isn't lower: I know I repeat myself a lot but I absolutely love my partner to bittts and my besties ❤️ the dog is always happy to see me 🤣 I've had a good day still done fun things and can't wait for a nice walk maybe tomorrow. And I'm proud of everything I've done so far for myself and others.
What I can do: I'm gonna make nice plans for the evening be nice to myself, get myself in my onesie I feel a strange comfort from that lol
Why isn’t it higher: I feel so trapped inside my head, I feel so disconnected from everything. I just want everything in my head to stop, it’s all silly because things could be a million times worse. Last time I felt this low I knew what I had to do, I had to reach out, but now I’m back here again I’m at a complete loss. Everything thinks I’m ok now, I don’t want to let them down.
Big hugs everyone, always happy to listen if you ever need anything
Why am I not higher? Had a bit of an uppy downy day. Was pretty much threatened with homelessness if we don't find a flat soon enough (we started looking yesterday) as my bfs mum started looking for a house with 1 less bedroom. They've already got 2 offers that are keen. It got messy and it's just kinda shaken me a bit. Feeling very pressured and rushed. We don't have anywhere else to go and no family to live with.
Why am I not lower? My partner is standing our ground. He said he's gonna mess up any move if we don't have a place first. We've also found a few nice places so just waiting to hear back.
What can I do? Just chill out and stop worrying so much. I'm just overthinking a lot. I need to wait and hear back from some of the flats and go from there. There's a few ones I'm really hoping for so just hope for the best really. Get a good night sleep and maybe take a bath tomorrow to relax. Want to go another long walk, it helps clear my head.
Why am I not higher? I just don't have the energy right now. I want to but I just don't really know how to get the energy. Very often now I don't know what to do, I don't want to do anything and it's really suffocating. I don't wanna feel like a spare part or an inconvenience to people because that's what's always on my mind. I just don't know what to do. Wish I could go back in time and start again.
Why am I not lower? I guess because if I was, I wouldn't be reaching out to you guys so part of me is still ok I guess?
I understand how you feel but I promise you’re definitely not an inconvenience, sometimes when we found ourselves dealing with negative thoughts it’s good to talk about them like you have. Reaching out is an incredibly strong thing to do. Another big hug, always happy to listen. Take care Sci-fi
Why it isn’t higher: To be honest i'm struggling somewhat. Every day is feeling so long and exhausting. I feel like i have so much going on right now and I keep thinking about all of the things i have to do and I have no motivation to do them. I know talking will help I just don't know how and who to. I tried last night because I was feeling worse than ever, I attempted to call Child Line and I stammered, the counsellor said "It seems like you're not ready to talk, please call us when you are" i managed to ask her to please wait and that i have a stammer but she just hung up. Felt like a proper sucker punch cause i needed her in that moment. I feel gross and dirty and i keep showering, mams moaning about how much im using the shower it helps whilst im in the shower and when i get out i just feel dirty again.
Why it isn’t lower : I'm alive and i'm healthy and i'm blessed for that.
What I could do : Hopefully writing here helps a little. im going to take a break from my phone today and ill try and work on somethin to keep me busy or ill watch TS because those are the only movies i can sit through without losing focus.
I know you're struggling a bit with who to talk to, and I'm honestly disgusted by how that Childline counsellor handled your call. I know it's all well me saying I'm here for you and everyone here is, but I also understand that we may not be the people you want or need to talk to right now. That's okay. It's okay to be unsure. Take the time you need to work it out. Also remember that mam and dad care about you if you do ever feel super low, they want what's best for you - don't ever feel like you're bothering them or us for that matter. Also it's okay to contact Childline again and call until you find the right person for you, you won't be judged. I know that caller was way out of order, but I personally know that more people that not are there and will listen. I also understand why you wouldn't.
I can't imagine how you must be feeling right now but I just want you to know that you're not alone and you're doing the right thing by talking about it. Take your time and go at you're own pace and find the right person to talk to - and it's okay not to talk to anyone yet if that's what you decide.
You're doing so well mate, keep going strong. I know it's tough, and I'm not gonna say it'll get easier, but I know you're strong enough to get through anything and make good out of a bad situation. If anyone can I know it's you.
Those all sound like great plans - I'll also link some websites to some good distraction techniques as well. This website is useful as it has so many options in one place - https://www.beautyafterbruises.org/blog/distraction101
If you ever need anything, just give me (or anyone) a shout
You've got this 👁️👄👁️ (hopefully got a wee smile out of you there!)
Why it isn’t higher: honestly I don’t know. I just feel like fed up and have no real motivation for anything right now. Lol so this is pretty much me every day so I’m probably never going to get up to a 10/10. My counsellor phoned me, when I said nothing had really changed since last time in terms of that she said she’d check in with me in 4 weeks on 2nd February, which is probably better than saying the same stuff every week lol. My anxiety is much much better than it’s been for a long time because I’ve worked a lot on it in counselling but I just .. I’m just in a constant I’m never happy and often really low and nothing is helping with that.
Why it isn’t lower: I went for the 6 because it could be much worse, I’ve felt much worse than I do today, and my counsellor did say that if I’m finding things too hard without the appointments I can send her an email or phone her and we can schedule a call sooner. So that’s reassuring a bit.
What I can do: I’m gonna go for a walk with Theo, and mum has ordered mozzarella sticks with the shopping which has just arrived so might have some of those
I'm stressed, depressed and had enough.
Why isn't it higher? I'm a mess. I'm busy, I'm a key worker, I have no medication. I feel alone
Why isn't it lower? Because I'm still able to function in society currently
Number : 9/10
Why it isn’t higher: This morning was quite difficult
Why it isn’t lower : I'm alive and i'm healthy and i'm blessed for that. I've worked hard today to keep myself distracted and despite the lack of motivation, I deep cleaned my room and its now the type of clean where you're happy to welcome yer mam in to have a look
What I could do : Gonna watch TS2 with the dog, his movie choice... ofc
Why isn’t it higher: I’m going to school tomorrow and I’m really not sure how I feel about that. I’m grateful to be allowed back but another part of me feels so guilty ,I shouldn’t need to go in the teachers will probably be annoyed, I’m the last person they want in. I shouldn’t need the extra help it feels silly. Mum joked that maybe they offered but didn’t expect me to say yes, she said she was only joking but that’s exactly the worry that was racing through my head. I don’t even know if many other people from my year or my classes will be there. I don’t feel like spending the next few days all on my own at school.
Why isn’t it lower: I feel like a break is what I need. I’m not doing well at home, too much time to think and I can’t get my work done. I’ve become a bit of a nuisance to everyone (Sorry) and it’ll be good to get away from the internet for a little.
Sorry for complaining so much but I feel better now , I’m not going to think too much about my worries I’ll try to forget them now I’ve written them down.
why it isn’t higher: I’m soooo tired, I’ve just got back from work where I was pretty busy all day. I was trying to work on my portfolio whilst at work as well which probably wasn’t a great idea because it’s worn me out now.
what can I do: I’m going to just chill now and eat dinner and then I’ll probably play on my switch this evening