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Why isn't it higher - I feel like I'm bothering everyone I talk to. It feels like I keep going on about the same shit. I keep worrying about us becoming homeless because I've been told the house being downsized is 100% happening. We've had 3 flats decline us primarily because of our student status and then the pets on top of that. Emma and I have been proper butting heads and it's pissing me off.
Why isn't it lower - I still have a house to live in rn, I still have support and I'm meeting my lawyer tomorrow (over zoom). We'll see what happens.
I'll update with what I can do once I get my phone onto charge lol.
We're looking to get more financial security so we can pay the deposit and rent in one go as that's the biggest thing besides actually getting accepted in the first place.
I'm hoping to watch an episode tonight of my show and get a good sleep
Why it isn’t higher: I wish it could be higher honestly, I’m just in a strange mental place. Not terrible, but not good either. But that’s how it goes for a while. It’s either sort of in the middle or really not ok haha.
Why isn’t it lower: I know I say this a lot but it could be worse right now. I made it another 3 weeks SH free. Taking it one day at a time.
What I can do: Tonight I’m going to watch some TV with my parents - it’s hard to find distractions during this time in chat break week but there’s been a good quiz show on ITV called beat the chasers which is such a small thing but I’ve looked forward to watching it in the evening. I have an appointment tomorrow morning really early (8.10, was the only one they had available) so I have to be up really early tomorrow so I think I’m just gonna relax tonight.
Keep going we all believe in you and care about you. I know it’s not the same as group chat but I’m always happy to listen if you ever need anything. Take care elle
Why isn't it lower - I'm feeling pretty good. We got to view our top choice flat today and it was even better than it looked. We've been told they'll accept pets and students which is positive.
Why isn't it higher - it almost feels like it's too good to be true, like I'm just waiting for it to fall through on us. We should be getting the application form over the next few days but I'm worried they'll view our studenty incomes and choose someone with a stable job over us. We've started packing boxes tonight so the reality is starting to set in - which is exciting and daunting. The family are 100% moving and not giving up this house swap no matter what so we have to move no matter what.
What I can do - I mean I'm gonna be upset if we don't get this flat but I can't get myself too excited as I have a habit of doing that then going into a proper low when it doesn't work out. This will be the biggest disappointment ever for me (literally) if we don't get it so I can't let myself get carried away with myself.
That sounds like a good plan, good luck with your appointment tomorrow!
Why isn't it higher - although things have been going well in general, I'm just feeling a bit sad I think today. I'm really cold as well. I feel like our application for the flat won't be as strong as the others.
Why isn't it lower - I feel like today's been a pretty productive today. I started applying for jobs and have got two interviews already (both next week). I'm feeling fortunate about this, especially as I have no proper work experience except Childline. The flat viewing went well and we got the application form sent off today.
I also am essentially being sponsored by British judo now as I wasn't able to build up the results they want to see as I was out the country and away from the sport for nearly 4 years. They asked for results from the last 3 years and because of covid and me just starting back in late 2019 meant I only got 3 major results. They're inviting me to the GB session camps and paying the accomodation and food for me. I'm really excited about this.
What can I do - I'm not even sure. Might go for a bath later, maybe do a facemask. Idk. Just feels right now that nothings gonna get me out of this feeling
Why it isn’t higher: Lockdown again, really missing my friends and going out and seeing people. Hit a pretty bad low the other day so that was scary but hopeful for better days
Why it isn’t lower: I'm alive and I'm healthy. I managed to talk to mam about the bad thoughts i keep having and had an appointment with the GP today to talk about feelings, didn't cringe half as much as i expected to so that's good! Had a karaoke sesh with the neighbour through the wall today, it's always nice when he joins in instead of yelling at me to shut up
What I could do : Gonna help mam cook dinner then maybe play some games on the laptop
Take care Liam, you’re an awesome human being
Why am I not higher - idk just feeling shit. Really tired and just exhausted. Feel like I'm a proper burden to everyone and just need to go away. Walked 6 hours today and still don't feel anything positive. Idk I'm just feeling super empty and sad.
Why am I not lower - I've got a lot going for me but it's hard to stay positive. I want to feel good and I'm determined to feeling better.
What I can do - I think I'm gonna have an early night. Maybe talk to Matt a bit. I don't want to wake up feeling like this so I guess talking before bedtime might help.
I don't like talking about this shit though, it's difficult. I'd rather sleep
Over deeeee mooooon
Why it isn't lower: I've tided up. Done some exercise. Had a nice shower. Smooshed the doggy(so cute) my lunch was lush. one of my colouring in books has arrived. Hopefully the pens soon 😂
My partner is handsome as always 💕 my friends also perfect as always x and got some good news.
Everything's just right in place, just got that ah feeling
What I could do: I'm going to watch something now, will most likely play some games with my pals and or partner later. And I'm going to cook myself (and him if he wants 😂) a nice dinner.
Thanks for coming to my happy ramble haha
Why isn’t it higher: I just feel really low tonight. Everything is overwhelming and I’m overthinking stuff, and struggling with some bad thoughts.
Why it isn’t lower: but I’ll be ok, I always have to be ok, I have loads of supportive people aroundme. Not that I talk to many of them haha.
What I could do: I don’t know. Just listening to some music just now. I might see if there’s anything decent on TV (there won’t be
What's the closest emotion to what you're feeling - I think I'm feeling more sad than anything else. It's kinda fuzzy so hard to really identify it. I haven't really properly felt like this in a while. But I'm gonna say sad. I think I'm a bit depressed.
Why do you feel like this - I fucked up my hair even more last night, I had a proper break down and ended up just crying for ages. I honestly fuck everything up, it's only a matter of time. It feels like nobody gives two shits about me (even though I know people do) but it feels like life for everyone would be better without me. Yay the suicidal thoughts are back (it's not something I'd ever do). I'm not tired but I keep yawning and could sleep all day. I start uni back tomorrow and it's just really something I love but don't need in my life rn. I've been having lots of uncontrollable thoughts and memories recently. Not flashbacks. Haven't had them in a wee while now. The thoughts and memories make me really sad. I feel so vulnerable when they're brought back up. I feel like I did when I was there, but it's not a flashback, it's just like the emotions are being dragged back to me.
How I can feel better - I've been using the technique that I posted on the boards. It worked yesterday so I'm hoping I can use it again today to trigger some of the endorphins lol. I'm gonna stick on an episode of supernatural and just kinda hover around the boards for a bit lol.
I think I'm like a 4 now after typing all that out.
Number- 6. I think it’s a 6, I know feelings are individual and everyones different. But I feel like I often rate myself too low. Even-though I want to be happy I feel like I’m actively making things worse.
Why isn’t it higher? I’m not sure, it should be higher I know that. There’s this horrible sick feeling that’s been lingering the past week, I’m struggling to ignore it today. I feel heavy and all slow, everything I say feels clumsy. Ive been a nuisance lately. I keep thinking about things I do almost to the point where I feel like I’m watching myself which probably doesn’t make a lot of sense. This is really pathetic but I just want my mum to go to bed so I can just deal with this instead of holding it in. Trying to keep up with conversations is tiring even simply listening. I feel like I need to pace back and forth. If I went to bed first she’d get suspicious, I’ve just got to hang on a little longer. I want to talk to someone in person, even just cry and let out but that’d be selfish. So many people have been nice but I don’t want to start taking advantage. I suck at bottling things up but as soon as I let them go I can never stop thinking about ungrateful and weak I must seem.
Why isn’t it lower? There’s some amazing people around me. My dogs sat on my lap and he’s very comforting.
What can I do? I can’t really focus long enough to do anything right now. I might end up texting a helpline I hope I don’t, I really hope I can ride this out on my own. I’ll try and watch a film as a distraction.
Happy Monday all, big hugs wishing you all the best, you’re all awesome people.
Why not lower: One person I'm talking to lifts me a little bit.
Why isn't it higher? Just that kinda heavy feeling pulling me down. Still waiting to hear back from some flats. They're all packing their stuff for their move so we know it's 100% happening. We've been told that we'll just have to find somewhere. Lol it's fantastic. My heart rat (the one I've bonded with the most) is starting to lose the use of her hind legs. Typically that means they don't have long left - although Rolo a different one has been going for a few months now with this condition. It's my old best friends birthday today. It's been about 3 years now since we last spoke
Why isn't it lower? Been making plans with a friend to hopefully meet up once this lockdown is done. My wee unwell rat is trooping through. Always love doing a headcount in the cages and having the right number. I've got some yummy sweets from Christmas that I've been going through. Our room is starting to look read to be moved out of. Really just some clothes, the bed and rats to go now. I've got a great bf so it feels hard to drop lower. I was successful with the first stage of my job interview today and I'm lucky enough to have another interview on Wednesday.
What can I do? Erm eat more sweets? Nah jk I'm trying to make them last. I want to watch an episode of supernatural and then snuggle up with Matt. Listen to a bedtime story from our Google nest (because I am a child obvs) and get a good night sleep listening to classic FM.
Right now I'd say I'm about a 6
Why isn't it higher: usual stuff
Why isn't it lower: christ that was a long rant
What I could do: I feel like I repeat myself here but I'm gonna put my tunes back on (it's gone off as I'm typing this haha) and try to relax more.
Why it isn’t higher: I'm good right now but i've had a pretty difficult past few weeks.
Why it isn’t lower: I'm trying to help myself feel better, I don't think that it's healthy to just sit and dwell on things like i have been and so i've been doing little things to try and get out of this rut. One of the things was to write what i'm grateful for and i've really spent a few hours tonight thinking about all of the things that i'm grateful for, the things that keep me going. Over the past few weeks i've been struggling and wondering what the point is in keep going on because every day was just feeling miserable and dull. I was getting some really dark, scary thoughts and tbh I was just wanting to sleep the days away. I'd clearly forgotten to be grateful. I have SO much in my life that is positive but i just found myself focussing on the bad and it made me feel really rubbish about myself. It's the little things that get me through day to day. Things like my dog tryna get under the duvet at night, my dad chasing the chickens at-least once weekly because they've escaped or because ive forgot to lock the gate properly lolll, listening to my friends belt out tunes, completely out of tune and usually getting the lyrics wrong too, playing shite games with my pals to pass the time but still having a great laugh, mams hugs cuz they're just the best and my footy team winning and well, tbh there is loads. My life is great when I really look at it and i am SO thankful, I can't believe i forgot. There are so many kind people out there who have my back and i don't really know what i've done right to deserve them. I'm feeling so grateful tonight and really ready to get back to normal.
What I could do : I'm going to sleep, tomorrows a fresh day and it's gonny to be a good one. Gonna go for a run and tell my friends and family how much i love them. Gonny apologise to the people i pushed away because of my rubbish moods. Am gonny squishhhhh the dogs face around 10000 times and i'm gonny spread lotsa kindness cause there's nowt better
It’s just the moderators jobs to make sure we stay in the guide lines, I know I’ve broken them accidentally when I’ve been low. It definitely doesn’t mean you’re not wanted. We’re all here for you. Big hugs
I've been sent home from work because im just not doing well mentally at the moment. I'm really tired.
Why isn't it higher? I'm really struggling and I'm just not in a good place. I'm being a shit friend. I'm just shutting down and feel so stupid and worthless.
Why isn't it lower? Because I'm hoping something will spark inside me to push me back in the right direction...
I was doing so well.
This week so far has just really been difficult. I'm not sure if it's because I suddenly came off meds and jumped straight back on the high dose. My anxiety is so high with covid, being at work and the fear of it killing me or passing it on to someone else and killing them. I've been having lots of thoughts, dreams, emotional feelings around some truama. I don't have my safe spaces anymore. I can't go to a friend's when I need that safe space..I can't go to London and stay with family. That's one thing I miss, not having a safe space to relocate to when I'm struggling. I really benefited from getting away for a couple days and having someone around me, being able to relax, someone to talk to, somewhere to explore and take in a different surrounding