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feel like im nearly dead *TRIGGER WARNING*
Its all getting worse. I cant stop repeating over and over in my head telling everyone im sorry but its for the best for everyone and things just need to stop now & i need to be at peace and stuff like wishing my sisters carrying on getting the best out of life. And more detailer stuff i wont say. I havent like wrote it down or anything just how i feel so i hope its okay to share those feelings & how shit it feels to keep feeling like that and these sentances keep going round my head and keep feeling how that i should kill myself to atleast give my organs to someone whos more worthy than me. And if im not feeling like that im picturing how i would kill myself. And i feel like i hardly have any energy - i try to tidy but i cant be bothered yet everything i touch i feel like throwing it. Some things just wont get better and i dont want a life with it. And i can just see myself actually dying and i seriously feel like i could. Im safe now & dont have plans but my mind & how i feel is getting more and more suicidal by the day now. I dont even feel like eating at all
if you have the strength to sustain anorexia you have the strength to overcome it