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and was getting all suspious like making sure id be back for dinner and was asking if id want them to call a taxi back when def not going to waste money if can easy get a bus like normal
"The way that I have found the light in my life is through the expressive arts because I know that I will be accepted for the way I am." ~ Me
"I'm going to get strong again and see you soon. " ~ Anonymous
Go awayyyy
"The way that I have found the light in my life is through the expressive arts because I know that I will be accepted for the way I am." ~ Me
"I'm going to get strong again and see you soon. " ~ Anonymous
"The way that I have found the light in my life is through the expressive arts because I know that I will be accepted for the way I am." ~ Me
"I'm going to get strong again and see you soon. " ~ Anonymous
The impending doom of exams is setting in. I ended up procrastinating with online shopping.
Hahahahhaha
Fuck off.
I'm scared for me, my dog or anyone to make any kind of movement or noise in case it sets them off. When my mom walks through the door I feel dread because it might set them off. When my dad dares to walk into the same room as them I tell him not to in my head. If you don't believe me then here's a few examples of what my sibling's like: they can be in a good mood and then when their phone is slow, they could throw it across the room and cry. They could be making jokes and then when my dog briefly puts her nose on their leg, they snap at her to fuck off. When they're not in a good mood, they make a big point of it by slamming doors and screeching. It's stuff like that. They're very temperamental. They feel like a ticking time bomb or a toaster that you're just waiting to pop.
I'm relaxed with my mom and dad but I feel more shy than ever when I'm faced with being near my sibling. I tend to ignore their presence and fidget until they either talk to me so I know they're in a good mood for now, or until they're out of the area. I didn't notice it when I was really young but they've felt like a mix between a stranger and an enemy to me since I was old enough. A few years ago I remember I actually had an auditory hallucination of them having an outburst because the whole thing was stressing me out (I think it was a hallucination anyway... I swear I heard it but it wasn't happening in real life so it must have been).
Just five minutes ago I was listening to them screaming at my mom. Like, proper screaming as if they're being murdered, not just shouting. And I'm scared that someone will call the police because of it. In reality nothing's going on but imagine how it sounds to a stranger when they hear a teenager screaming about how their mom "ruined their life". My heart was beating fast at one point and my dog got scared.
I feel like I can't talk to my dad about my problems because he's already dealing with my sibling. Sometimes I feel like I shouldn't talk to him at all because he must need alone time when he's dealing with them.
I want to go live with my mom so badly but I can't for various reasons. I might have to consider that possibility anyway though because even though I've lived with my sibling my whole life so far, getting through a few a more years with them seems impossible. Please don't think I'm just seeking attention because it's not just an ordinary sibling struggle, they make me feel unsafe in my own home. Like I say, it's not like I'm in danger, but the stress and insanity of it feels horrible. I've found myself on edge with any kind of noise now - even my mom coughing when my sibling isn't around - because it's my automatic response now to think that noise means something bad is going to happen or is happening. I don't mean to be self-pitying but I find it so horrible, I just want somewhere for me and my pets to go that's quiet and predictable.
whats so ugly about standard pair of black boots???
This is just rude. Plus theyre ^£13 not 12 lol
"The way that I have found the light in my life is through the expressive arts because I know that I will be accepted for the way I am." ~ Me
"I'm going to get strong again and see you soon. " ~ Anonymous
B&m have some