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Hi @Jayn21 I can understand how frustrating it is to feel like you have to keep your emotions to yourself in fears of being misunderstood- that's definitely not fair on yourself having to carry that baggage alone.

As for not being able to pinpoint what emotion you are feeling it sounds like you are experiencing an overwhelming flurry of emotions that are all battling for attention. That sounds incredibly hard and exhausting. I can also imagine it is scary when you are bombarded with feeling everything at once. Is there ever a time where your emotions do settle?

If you feel comfortable sharing more we are here to listen.

Sorry to hear that people don't believe you, when you talk about your feelings. Unfortunately, some people might not be able to understand our feelings, or might not know how to help or support you. But it is better to talk about your feelings, rather than keeping things bottled up. You can always write out your feelings here, if you think it might help. Another option would be to talk to a counsellor (perhaps at school/college, or by visiting your doctor and asking for a referral, or even accessing counselling through The Mix https://www.themix.org.uk/get-support/speak-to-our-team ), particularly if you feel you can't talk to anyone else as they won't believe you.

We are here for you

I’m really sorry that people haven’t believed you, you can share your emotions here and we believe you

I've felt similar and I know others who have felt this way too. It can take a while, sometimes even a long while, to get a job. And it can be difficult when you see others who are working and doing things. But when we compare ourselves to others, the only person we are hurting is us.

It can get you down when you are putting in a lot of effort and not seeing much improvement. But it's definitely a good idea to keep focusing on the positives and the fact that you keep on trying to change your circumstances.

I'm wondering if there is anything you could do differently just to help you feel like you aren't stuck in a rut so much? If possible trying new things, changing your routine a bit, volunteering, taking up a new hobby etc., might help ease this feeling a bit, while you are searching for work.

You definitely aren't alone in this and hopefully in time you'll get to where you want to be in life too