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  • sinead276sinead276 Posts: 1,989 Extreme Poster
    sending you a big hug @eylah

    (and if you're still feeling the effects of the panic attack) - try take a moment for yourself, just focusing on deep breaths and trying to ground yourself into your surroundings and where you are, maybe even try and focus on the things around you.

    hope you're okay and remember we are all here for you and support you - you're absolutely not alone <3
  • eylaheylah Posts: 7,406 Master Poster
    edited September 2024
    sinead276 wrote: »
    sending you a big hug @eylah

    (and if you're still feeling the effects of the panic attack) - try take a moment for yourself, just focusing on deep breaths and trying to ground yourself into your surroundings and where you are, maybe even try and focus on the things around you.

    hope you're okay and remember we are all here for you and support you - you're absolutely not alone <3

    thankyou im doing breathing exercises bc my chest hurts and im dizzy :/.
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • eylaheylah Posts: 7,406 Master Poster
    having another panic attack bc dad has set me off again. :/
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • eylaheylah Posts: 7,406 Master Poster
    sat here sobbing bc i feel a failure. :’)
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • toffuna101toffuna101 Posts: 2,372 Boards Champion
    you're not a failure, don't worry about that. if you ever need support come to us and we'll listen to your vents.
  • ebyrne556ebyrne556 Inactive Posts: 1,232 Wise Owl
    Hey @eylah just checking in on you this morning to see how u r? Your doing so well and we are here for u.Youbring so much to this community <3
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  • sinead276sinead276 Posts: 1,989 Extreme Poster
    hope you're feeling a bit better this morning @eylah - and like the others have said you are not a failure at all. we're so proud of you and the strength you have with everything going on, even if you may not see it yourself.

    we're here for you
  • eylaheylah Posts: 7,406 Master Poster
    hi thankyou all for replying to me it means a lot im not gd today im rly struggling bc of everything dad is rly getting to me causing me to have panic attacks 😭.
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • eylaheylah Posts: 7,406 Master Poster
    just want peace bc i cant deal with him.
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • eylaheylah Posts: 7,406 Master Poster
    struggling just want peace.
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • eylaheylah Posts: 7,406 Master Poster
    dad just called me a f*cking b*tch bc i am talking abt mum bc i rly miss her :(.
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • toffuna101toffuna101 Posts: 2,372 Boards Champion
    jesus christ when will your dad stop berating you? i really sympathise with your situation here.
  • eylaheylah Posts: 7,406 Master Poster
    idk @toffuna101 idk if its bc im talking abt mum so hes angry at me bc he hates my mum. :(
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • eylaheylah Posts: 7,406 Master Poster
    edited September 2024
    need to escape this so badly its to much 😭😭 - safe.
    Post edited by eylah on
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • eylaheylah Posts: 7,406 Master Poster
    i need to go shop but im to scared. :/.
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • eylaheylah Posts: 7,406 Master Poster
    im in tears bc im in pain and have to walk there. :/ dad thinks its ok to laugh bc hes not helping me
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • Amy22Amy22 Posts: 5,229 Part of The Furniture
    edited September 2024
    eylah wrote: »
    Amy22 wrote: »
    Also I hope the tests went well and your doing ok I bet that was frightening for you to hear especially if you have been having pelvic pain. The main thing is that the doctors will try their absaloute best to figure out what's going on and will help you all the way <3. I can imagine having tests must be super challenging and tough for you right now.

    i’m just scared bc im to young to have cancer so its terrifying bc i have sm stress atm i rly do not need this on my back bc im so exhausted mentally end physically. thankyou amy. <3

    Its totally understandable as to how your feeling because having those tests especially for cancer can be very scary especially for someone who is quite young as well. It sounds like you have got a lot on your plate right now with everything and that must be super hard right now. <3
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  • eylaheylah Posts: 7,406 Master Poster
    its horrible bc my other blood tests come back abnormal so will see my dr next week but im just so tired. :(
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • eylaheylah Posts: 7,406 Master Poster
    edited September 2024
    i managed to go but i fell over bc my foot slipped and i hurt my knee. i feel so stupid :/ told dad bc i am hurting and he said how many more times am i going to make myself look stupid but he then said im ridiculous and wanting attention but im not bc i cant help falling over. i hate this i hate it.
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • eylaheylah Posts: 7,406 Master Poster
    i hate myself no wonder dad hates my guts. :/ i want to cry so hard rn.
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • eylaheylah Posts: 7,406 Master Poster
    im not worth anything dad says he hopes never to see me again even though i live here. :/
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • toffuna101toffuna101 Posts: 2,372 Boards Champion
    you are worth a lot @eylah dont tell yourself that. your dad is really a dickhead and is ruining your self esteem.
  • eylaheylah Posts: 7,406 Master Poster
    just got home from hospital. that was so traumatic :(
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • eylaheylah Posts: 7,406 Master Poster
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    you are worth a lot @eylah dont tell yourself that. your dad is really a dickhead and is ruining your self esteem.

    thankyou.
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • toffuna101toffuna101 Posts: 2,372 Boards Champion
    no problem
  • GemmaGemma Inactive Posts: 1,093 Wise Owl
    eylah wrote: »
    just got home from hospital. that was so traumatic :(

    How are you doing @eylah? We're here for you if you want to share more about what happened in hospital. <3

    You don't deserve to be suffering this much grief from your dad. It's really unfair and you deserve to be loved and cared for when you're going through so much with your mum, your ex, managing your grief for your friend, worries around your health, and managing your mental health too. We're glad to hear you're feeling safe - remember that if you are ever worried about your safety, you can always reach out to these services below who are around for chat:
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    Sending lots of hugs <3
    ♡♡♡
  • eylaheylah Posts: 7,406 Master Poster
    security were awful he was so forceful getting me back in hospital i feel awful bc of it.
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • eylaheylah Posts: 7,406 Master Poster
    i was in crisis and was sobbing he made me feel shit bc if my past experience. :/ im fine now.
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • eylaheylah Posts: 7,406 Master Poster
    im sat here sobbing bc im in pain and its rly upset me.
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
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