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tw//: domestic violence. self harm.

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  • jayne26jayne26 Moderator Posts: 47 Boards Initiate
    Hi @eylah

    Just wanted to say that you're doing so well with all of this going on, and to remember that we are only a message away and will support you through whatever it is that you need help with <3

    It's so understandable to be in mixed minds about submitting a statement. You still care about this person so it's hard to want to do it, but at the same time you have to think about yourself and keeping yourself safe. I'm so glad you know that submitting the statement was the best thing for you <3

    I'm sorry your dad isn't being very helpful, but to touch on what @EmmaLiz said, you will always have support on here. How are you feeling now?
  • eylaheylah Posts: 4,833 The Mix Elder
    @jayne26 i need to go drs due to my infections but im to scared to go out by myself. dad wont come with me. i wanna relapse too. ( sh ) but im safe. its all to much. i do care abt him i do and its awful for me to go through this. its awful n my heart. :heartbreak:
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍
  • jayne26jayne26 Moderator Posts: 47 Boards Initiate
    Hi @eylah

    I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. I understand this is all very overwhelming, the community here can try and lessen the stress for you as well. Can you explain to me the emotions you're feeling right now?

    You're incredibly strong and you're doing so well right now. Of course the infection is a cause for concern as well, something else adding to the stress for you so I'm sorry about that <3 Is there anyone else you can call/message to go to the doctors with you?
  • eylaheylah Posts: 4,833 The Mix Elder
    thank you @jayne26 for replying. im gonna try 111 to see if they can get a dr out like before. im wanting spaghetti bolognaise but i need to go out to get it. so im trying to get guts to leave by myself. im feeling scared sad alone. i do miss him i do. idk what stage investigation is. idk if he been arested or not.thank you <3.
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍
  • jayne26jayne26 Moderator Posts: 47 Boards Initiate
    That seems like a good idea @eylah

    Do you have a shop nearby? Might make you feel a bit safer if you can get the ingredients a bit closer to home, I hope you can get it and it's yummy :) you deserve something nice today.

    You might feel a bit better after you've eaten something as well, do you have any comfort shows you can watch whilst you eat? I find when I feel sad this helps me, helps my brain switch off <3. You're not alone here either, we're all looking out for you.

    Ok that's good, I'm sure police will keep you updated. Remember sometimes no news is good news <3
  • eylaheylah Posts: 4,833 The Mix Elder
    definitely might feel better after eating kinda scared to go out but hoping i dont get to overwhelm and pass out. i am known for that when getting panicky when going out.
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍
  • jayne26jayne26 Moderator Posts: 47 Boards Initiate
    @eylah of course that's understandable. Maybe have something sugary to drink before you go out if you have anything at home, let us know how you get on <3
  • eylaheylah Posts: 4,833 The Mix Elder
    thank you @jayne26 <3 just getting ready but taking it slow as i already feel panicky. <3
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍
  • sinead276sinead276 Posts: 1,664 Extreme Poster
    @eylah like jayne said, keep us updated - and take it at whatever pace you are comfortable with, there's no rush and i believe in you - you've got this :3
  • eylaheylah Posts: 4,833 The Mix Elder
    ik i got this but its awful as i havent been out in ages.
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍
  • eylaheylah Posts: 4,833 The Mix Elder
    im going out in a minute.
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍
  • amy02amy02 Moderator Posts: 355 Listening Ear
    That's great @eylah hopefully some fresh air will help a bit :3 We all believe in you and are here to talk <3
  • eylaheylah Posts: 4,833 The Mix Elder
    i did it but im having a panic attack.
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍
  • AnonymousToeAnonymousToe Posts: 2,382 Boards Champion
    Big hugs @eylah proud of you <3
  • sinead276sinead276 Posts: 1,664 Extreme Poster
    we are all super proud of you @eylah - you did it and hopefully next time it'll get easier and easier

    big hugs
  • eylaheylah Posts: 4,833 The Mix Elder
    thank you im just scared now.
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍
  • eylaheylah Posts: 4,833 The Mix Elder
    im having panic attacks again thinking abt him and him hitting me :/
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍
  • AnonymousToeAnonymousToe Posts: 2,382 Boards Champion
    You’re so strong for getting through it all @eylah <3
  • eylaheylah Posts: 4,833 The Mix Elder
    appreciate you @AnonymousToe your so kind. its just awful its a every day occurrence this is having these attacks it makes me feel so weak its so isolating for me bc i cant do anything. just gotta ride this out <3. thank you!
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍
  • AnonymousToeAnonymousToe Posts: 2,382 Boards Champion
    @eylah i really hope that soon it won’t affect you so much. It’s really unfair that you had to suffer at all, and you’re still suffering. We’re here for you <3
  • GemmaGemma Community Manager Posts: 1,138 Wise Owl
    edited August 6
    Hey @eylah, just wanted to check in to see how you're doing today? <3

    It sounds so difficult to be experiencing panic attacks and flashbacks to how you were treated by your ex. You don't deserve to be going through this and none of this is your fault.

    I'm hearing that you're still feeling scared to leave the house incase you see your ex - do you know if your ex is staying close to you?

    Do you feel it's worth reaching out to the police who took your statement to explore ways they could help you to feel safer?

    You're doing so so well and there's lots of support out there for you. You might like to try contacting one of these helplines who can support you with what you've been through:
    There’s an organisation called the National Domestic Violence Helpline which offers practical information and emotional support for women and young people experiencing domestic violence. They can also refer women to refuges and safe housing throughout the UK. You can call them 24/7 on 0808 2000 247, chat to them online or email them using the contact form on their website.

    Solace is an organisation which offers advice, practical help, emotional support and therapeutic services to women and children who have been affected by any form of male violence. Their advice line number is 0800 802 5565 and is open 10am - 4pm Monday to Friday and additional hours of 6-8pm on Tuesdays. They also have a Rape Crisis helpline on 0808 801 0305 which is open 10am - 2pm Monday to Friday. You can find out more on their website or email them at advice@solacewomensaid.org

    Refuge supports women through all forms of violence and abuse. They offer community support, access to refuges, advocacy, culturally-specific services for women from minority ethnic groups who may be facing additional barriers and much more. You can access support via their helpline number 0808 2000 247 and this is open 365 days a year, 24 hours of the day. Alternatively, you can send a message via a form on the website with details of how and when someone can get in touch with you safely. They also operate a webchat which is open Monday to Friday 3pm-10pm.

    Respect Not Fear is a website which provides information about domestic violence, self-esteem and healthy relationships. They provide access to other websites and helplines for further, direct support.

    Women's Aid have created this space to help children and young people to understand domestic abuse, and how to take positive action if it's happening to you.

    Keep us updated with how you're doing - we really care about you. <3
    ♡♡♡
  • eylaheylah Posts: 4,833 The Mix Elder
    hey @Gemma im bit all over the place today its horrible the way i feel. the police officer who did the statment with me isnt working today but i will try getting through today best i can. i will reach out to one of those helplines. thank you <3
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍
  • GemmaGemma Community Manager Posts: 1,138 Wise Owl
    You're so brave @eylah and you're doing really well. That's so positive to hear - let us know how you get on with the helplines and contacting the police officer too. <3
    ♡♡♡
  • eylaheylah Posts: 4,833 The Mix Elder
    thank you things are horrible today. idk why im so petrified everythung hurts in my head it hurts that im having to go though this. i dont deserve it! :/
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍
  • eylaheylah Posts: 4,833 The Mix Elder
    he has been arrested but idk :( rly miss him but its sucks sm.
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍
  • Matthew_04Matthew_04 Moderator Posts: 196 Trailblazer
    You're doing so well @eylah
    It sounds like this whole process has been super stressful for you. It makes sense that you've been having mixed feelings about him, that must be super emotionally exhausting and confusing <3
    I just want to say well done once again for reaching out, I know it can be super challenging.
    Is there anything you can do in this moment to make yourself feel any better or distract yourself?
    Sending hugs, we're always here to support you <3
  • eylaheylah Posts: 4,833 The Mix Elder
    Matthew_04 wrote: »
    You're doing so well @eylah
    It sounds like this whole process has been super stressful for you. It makes sense that you've been having mixed feelings about him, that must be super emotionally exhausting and confusing <3
    I just want to say well done once again for reaching out, I know it can be super challenging.
    Is there anything you can do in this moment to make yourself feel any better or distract yourself?
    Sending hugs, we're always here to support you <3

    thankyou <3
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍
  • sinead276sinead276 Posts: 1,664 Extreme Poster
    just wanted to pop back in and say the strength you have shown is amazing - it takes courage to do, even on days where you may feel like you're struggling

    we're super proud as always
  • eylaheylah Posts: 4,833 The Mix Elder
    sinead276 wrote: »
    just wanted to pop back in and say the strength you have shown is amazing - it takes courage to do, even on days where you may feel like you're struggling

    we're super proud as always

    thankyou didnt get notifications for this but thankyou <3.
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍
  • eylaheylah Posts: 4,833 The Mix Elder
    found out by police who took my statment my ex who put me through domestic violence hasnt been arrested or anything. nothing has happened. :/ i feel so shit bc i was told id have safety messures in place but bc he hasnt been ‘looked into’ or whatever he can contact me etc. i feel so shit. :/ its been months now 3/4 months.
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍
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