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@eylah that all sounds so so difficult, i’m so sorry you’re feeling that way:( firstly i just want to say you have absolutely no reason to apologise for posting this, we all care about you!!

i hear how you feel people have it worse than you - i know it can be so easy to compare our situation to others, but everything you are experiencing and feeling right now is SO valid!!

it’s super clear how hard you are trying - that takes so much strength to keep trying everyday like you do and i’m so so proud of you for that i really am:)

you have so so much to deal with, you are allowed to feel however it is you feel - no one should expect you to feel any particular way! just because you’re an adult doesn’t mean that you don’t find things difficult etc - you are most definitely able to struggle still regardless of your age!!

anyone who sees how much your struggling and laughs about it is so wrong for that - i see how much you’re struggling and see how hard you try every single day and regardless of how much you’re struggling, how caring and supportive you are of others too - you’re such an amazing person eylah!

i’m so so proud of you for still being here even though you might not have wanted to be, i know how difficult that is and i know how much strength that takes! it really is such an achievement making it to christmas, i hope you’re proud of yourself eylah🩷

Hey @eylah , I know that each of us are physically apart, but oh my goodness, I am just sending you the biggest hug across this space right now and wish so much it could reach you.

Today sounds so painful. Missing your mum terribly. Everything you've been through with your dad. Being alone in your new flat. It feels like there's been so much lost this year, and it is completely valid that right now it's just agony. You're not moaning. You're not immature. You're grieving, and you're surviving, and you're finding ways to hold on. If that means sobbing, then let the tears pour out of you. Everything you're feeling is valid.

As you said, you have survived every single one of your hardest days, even the days that had seemed unsurviveable. And that is so powerful, and it's been exhausting. And both those things can be true at once.

We hear you, @eylah and we care. Today has been so hard, I hear you, and with each hour that passes you're getting through. Tomorrow will come, and the day next, and the next. And this Community will be here. And your psych liaison. And MH team. And all this love you feel for your mum. It continues.

I completely echo what @shannonxg_ has said above - we're so proud of you. And I for one and so happy you're here and that we've gotten the chance to meet you.

Go gently with yourself. And keep asking for hugs. We'll offer them right back!

Thank you for sharing your thoughts @TheNightmare, I hope in 2025 you'll be where you want to be. The community's always here to support you whenever you need us

We're extremely proud of your progress. We're extremely proud of you for not giving up even when it feels like you can't continue the battle. Like @sinead276 said, give yourself some grace whenever things don't turn out the way you expect them to - remember that it's completely okay to take breaks.

I believe that you'll be where you want to be eventually

@TheNightmare Hey. I’d like to start by adding that seeing a GP and even a therapist is a wonderful step. I did that myself for my loneliness and depression. I just wrapped 8 weeks of talk therapy and it was helpful. They can and do provide a lovely service and wonderful techniques to help deal with stress etc. Whilst, of course, it’s no cure, it’s such a massive help in better understanding ourselves and how to manage with the stress of life. It’s your first time at life, like us all, it’s not easy, but you’re doing a wonderful job. I can see from a lot of your posts how courageous of a soul you are, you keep pushing and pushing on despite the adversity of life. It’s admirable and I’ll mention that it provides me with hope and insight-fullness if your strength as a person. Sometimes, even the therapist needs a therapist and that’s okay. The doctor needs a doctor. We all need each other and I think you taking those steps could be beautiful for you. Don’t worry what others think, therapy and seeing a GP is beneficial and we all need that sometimes, me included. I had to see someone and that’s okay.

Feelings can seem so repetitive but that never takes away the validation of such feelings. You’re allowed to feel that way, even if you feel it everyday. Life is hard, but it’s your attitude, attempts and courage that will lead to a more peaceful existence. I can relate to you in many ways, I stay up most nights, wishing it was different, wishing I wasn’t so lonely, wishing I could end the endless yearning. But, there’s too much stubborn hope within the human heart to give in and I see that within you and your posts. Keep going, my friend, you’ll get there in time. We are all here for you in this journey we call life, no matter the circumstances. ☺️

You’re doing so well @eylah im so sorry. Is there something you could distract yourself with?

@eylah i hear how hard things are feeling for you - i’m sending so much love your way🩷

Big hugs @eylah , thinking of you 🩷 I promise even if you’re physically alone, there are people who care 🫂

@eylah i really hear how hard this is for you - sending so much love your way🩷

i’m always here if you need someone, pls do message me if you want to🫶🏻

Great message bro, I needed this, I appreciate it my guy.

eylah wrote: »

i just want this to stop 💔 constantly having suicidal thoughts its a shitty thing for me like i have no plans im safe but im fed up of living like this. why can’t they just fucking disappear?😖 ive had enough of waking up every day and constantly getting these shitty thoughts like ive done nothing to deserve it but i can’t handle it anymore 💔 why why why 💔 ( safe ). they seem to of got worse since mum has passed? idk if its hate or what but waking up every day and experiencing such pain is rly agonising bc i could be doing something nice for myself and they appear out of nowhere i just wanna cry bc im so tired of experiencing them. just wish i was superman and could get rid of them but im not. why can’t my life be back to normal when mum was alive 💔 its so tiring it rly is 💔

im safe im just ranting bc im just sad 🥲 i hate this feeling so much but im going to do some colouring to distract myself.

Hey @eylah Firstly, I hope you’re okay and feeling a little better over the past few days. Your pain is horrible to see and I’m sorry to read it all. I think you’re incredibly strong for continuing to push on no matter what you face. It requires more strength than we give credit for, you’re doing very well and I can’t imagine how difficult it must be. I’d like to add that, grief only exists because love and memories did first, it’s love persevering, just in a different way. Please be gentle with yourself and treat yourself with the kindness and softness that you deserve. You’re full of love and kindness; let it nurture you as it does for others. I know how difficult suicidal thoughts can be, I wanted to take my own life in January through to April this year, having the thoughts everyday. Ultimately, there’s too much stubborn hope within the human heart to give in entirely. I hope you can recognise your own strength and beauty within you like we all can. We are all here for you, no matter the circumstances. ☺️