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Re: Video of bear (my hamster)
@Rose113 omg he's so cute i love him haha he's adorable in that video 
Re: Cinema Inspiriation
There's a few strong choices in cinemas at the moment - Challengers was a great watch; the new Planet of the Apes was awesome to watch, as was Furiosa; and Inside Out 2 was decent but not as impressive as the others. I'd recommend one of the first three, depending on what kind of films you like to watch 
Azziman
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Re: I was so young when it happened (TRIGGER WARNING FOR TECHNICAL DOMESTIC VIOLENCE)
You have done really well to tell us @Anonymous55, it shows a lot of courage.
Your safety and boundaries are really important and deserve to have always been taken into account. You do not deserve to have been treated the way you have been. You have been really brave to share with us what you really have been through and felt like.
How do you cope with the flashes, suicidal thoughts and depressive thoughts currently? As you have highlighted, these things can stay with us a lot longer than the time they occur over. When do you think you might be able to move out - do you have a plan for moving out yet?
Your safety and boundaries are really important and deserve to have always been taken into account. You do not deserve to have been treated the way you have been. You have been really brave to share with us what you really have been through and felt like.
How do you cope with the flashes, suicidal thoughts and depressive thoughts currently? As you have highlighted, these things can stay with us a lot longer than the time they occur over. When do you think you might be able to move out - do you have a plan for moving out yet?
Re: I was so young when it happened (TRIGGER WARNING FOR TECHNICAL DOMESTIC VIOLENCE)
It's so brave of you to have shared all of this with us @Anonymous55. You don't deserve to have been treated this way and it's not irrational to have been upset by this experience.
^This is so well articulated @Anonymous55 - really. Oftentimes, it is the people closest to us that can hurt us the most. Your feelings here are 100% valid. You can simultaneously feel love for your mum and remember the moments where she did care for you, whilst also acknowledging the times where you felt unsafe and scared. Familial relationships can be complex but just because someone is family doesn't mean they can't hurt us.
It sounds like from what you've shared that your mum has gotten better at controlling her temper and feels some shame and hurt from what happened. But this doesn't take your feelings away and you deserve to have those acknowledged and spoken about.
Are you receiving any support for those times when you do experience flashbacks, depression and suicidal thoughts wrapped up in panic or burnout? It might be worth exploring what support is out there, such as therapy, to talk through some of these things in more depth and work through some of those emotions.
Remember that if you are struggling with suicidal thoughts, there are lots of lovely services you can reach out to for support. You're not alone:
Anonymous55 wrote: »But what she did betrayed the unconditional love I was willing to give. She was supposed to protect me, and she didn't. So I love her, but I want out. As soon as I can, I want my own home where none of the people who are supposed to protect me can hurt me again. Yes, I'm a child. Yes, she looks after me. Yes, I feel safe most of the time. But I can remember hiding behind that sofa.
^This is so well articulated @Anonymous55 - really. Oftentimes, it is the people closest to us that can hurt us the most. Your feelings here are 100% valid. You can simultaneously feel love for your mum and remember the moments where she did care for you, whilst also acknowledging the times where you felt unsafe and scared. Familial relationships can be complex but just because someone is family doesn't mean they can't hurt us.
It sounds like from what you've shared that your mum has gotten better at controlling her temper and feels some shame and hurt from what happened. But this doesn't take your feelings away and you deserve to have those acknowledged and spoken about.
Are you receiving any support for those times when you do experience flashbacks, depression and suicidal thoughts wrapped up in panic or burnout? It might be worth exploring what support is out there, such as therapy, to talk through some of these things in more depth and work through some of those emotions.
Remember that if you are struggling with suicidal thoughts, there are lots of lovely services you can reach out to for support. You're not alone:
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*Papyrus - If you are having thoughts of suicide, you can contact HOPELINEUK for confidential support and practical advice. You can call them on 0800 068 4141 or text them on 07786209697.
*Samaritans are reachable by phone and email 24/7. Whatever you're going through, you can call them any time, from any phone on 116 123.
Gemma
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Re: I was so young when it happened (TRIGGER WARNING FOR TECHNICAL DOMESTIC VIOLENCE)
@Anonymous55 - I just wanted to echo what Laura and Gemma have said above and say I also think you're really brave for feeling you can speak out about it on here and that you're feelings are completely valid. It's good to hear you have some support from the school counsellor (even if she doesn't know the full story) and that it's helping you with things. Also remember you can always come to us on here if you need a place to talk - we're all here to listen and give advice.
Sending you big hugs
Sinead
Sending you big hugs
Sinead