ive been really struggling with my anxiety over this week since starting college and I’m finding it really difficult to settle in.
my anxiety just seems to be the highest it’s ever been right now and I’m just so overwhelmed with everything especially since my mum told me that’s she’s currently going through the process of reporting Sexual abuse from when she’s was 13 - she’s just waiting to hear back from the CPS.
i just don’t know what to do anymore everything’s just so overwhelming and too much I just can’t cope anymore. At times i just sit in my room and scream as everything just - I don’t even know how I feel anymore like I don’t be mean to sound selfish but why does everything have to happen at once like starting college and Mum telling me that last week. I just want to cry all the time , like today I had a panic attack when I was just sat in G25 in college - no one wasn’t in the room it was litreally me and the learning support assistant that was on duty
Everything just seems like an endlessness Uphill battle !!
I lay still, the damned clock ticking
The scars upon my wrist, they're stinging
Each tick brings me further into the night
As the moon still flies it's restless flight
I'm feigning sleep, as the air is chill
Cold wind blows by my window sill
That damn clock, it's ticking still
And yet, no closer am I to sleep
A pattern of thought with no true rhythm
Frantic memories, no nearer nor distant
That god awful pain making clear it's intentions
My demons clutching beneath the skin
But now it's fuzzy, the unsettled night
The ticking growing faint and still
Crazy thoughts lie still and light
And finally, I drift away, for real.
Shadows and fog fill my sleeping brain
Visions of the day it was taken away
Stifling dark, and his heavy weight
The fear and that god awful pain!
I'll never forget.
First off I'd like to mention 4 little reasons why anxiety isn't helpful, not to say you should stop being anxious as its out of your control but to remind you that just because the fear is in your head doesn't make it real.
1. The thing you're worried about likely won't happen.
2. If the thing does happen it can be fixed, solved, replaced, treated, forgiven, or forgotten.
3. Being anxious will not solve the problem, it will only make you feel worse, the problem can either be solved or it can be out of your hands, either way anxiety does play a helpful part
4. Anxiety in itself can manifest into many physical symptoms which may lead you to the death assumption, it can cause a range of symptoms here's a list of the most common, if you have any of these it's likely anxiety: https://www.healthline.com/health/anxiety-symptoms#symptoms
Now I'll move on to what you can do for what the fear is(some of the suggestions will be the same for some but I wanted to sort of name them so you can skip to what you need right now.
Anxiety without a known cause.
If you feel anxious or have a beating heart without an underlying cause or without a yet known one what you can do is tackle the symptoms head on.
1. Sip on something without caffeine, a warm herbal tea, a decaff tea, some water. Caffeine and sugar will make symptoms worse as it will increase the adrenaline you feel.
2. Some breathing exercises.
It's very likely if you have heart palpations your breathing will be laboured, be it short or frequent, if you find your breathing abnormal don't panic and instead use some exercises to regulate your breathing here's an NHS link on one: https://www.nhs.uk/conditions/stress-anxiety-depression/ways-relieve-stress/
3. Distraction methods work great here, whatever works best for you is what you should do, if exercising helps go for a walk, Watch some TV, listen to music, color in ect.
As for anxiety around health.
If you are anxious about a potential health problem theres some things you can do.
1. Challenge your thoughts.
draw a table with two columns write your health worries in the first column, then more balanced thoughts in the second for example, in the first column you may write, "I'm worried about these headaches" and in the second, "Headaches can often be a sign of stress".
2. If your worry is about one specific health problem write down what you think it is, write down all its symptoms, write down your symptoms, and see if they coincide, also rationalize your thoughts, for instance you could think you're having a heart attack, and if writing down the symptoms don't help then go to logical thinking "well my chest hurts but not bad enough to stop doing things" "I'm not old nor a smoker so it can't be likely" rationalize.
3. Once the evidence proves not distract yourself like I suggested earlier.
If you do an activity you enjoy it can take your mind off it and help you understand it's not serious, if it were bad you would stop doing said and be in a lot of pain, seek attention then(although that is rare and I've never had a fear of mine come true)
I find it helpful to tailor the distraction to your fear. If you're worried about a heart attack for example go for a walk, if it's about your breathing sing along to some music, if it's about your eyesight watch some TV with subtitles and seeing you can read them.
I've got more advice for different ones like social fears, a phobia, and panic attacks ect I'm just going to add them further down so this section isn't too big.
I will also add things you can in general to help or become calmer after those, it's sort of an anxiety all in one
The past hour has just been really tough. I have tried to keep going and and stay positive. If you've been is SC these past 2 night you could tell i didn't want to talk and that's because I didn't have anything to say and I was also told to keep busy.
20 minutes later my mum who I carer for I find in a depressive state and really upset with herself. (I won't say much more). I am worried about her, she hasn't got the correct staff she need to support her I have no say over what happens as I am only 17. Please all I want is a hug and nothing else. I dont want to talk or say anything else i just want a hug.
Hello everyone that is reading this,
I wanted to create a place where we can write recovery letters to motivate members of this community.
I am going to write a post about recovery letters and in the comments, my hope was that people would write some recovery letters of their own for others to read. I am going to explain about recovery letters and then some tips on writing one of your own.
Recovery Letters in my eyes, are a beautiful way of giving others hope. These recovery letters may be the one thing that keeps someone going, pushing through all that pain because they have realised there’s hope for their recovery. I think it is lovely that these letters can spread such a powerful message and if they just save one person that is incredibly rewarding and it gives that person a chance to carry on living. I realised that there was hope for me after reading some recovery letters and although it would be difficult I know that I can pull through this.
After losing Ellie, it made me value my life so much more and if she had read a recovery letter maybe she could have realised that there was hope for her recovery. Ellie lost her fight and I want to give others that motivation and reassurance that although it will take time recovery is possible and things will get better.
If these help one person then it’s definitely worth it because everyone deserves to have a chance to recover and it is possible.
Some tips for writing your own:
1.Make the letter relatively short (max around 1000 words) as people’s attention spans may be short.
2.Try and avoid specific advice and aim to give the person motivation and reassurance that things will get better and recovery is possible.
3.Include a little bit of personal experience but link it to the idea that things get better.
4.Aim to write in first person ‘i believe that...’
5.Be addressed to ‘Dear You’
I am happy to give ideas on how to write one if you are unsure or if you have any questions pm me. I would prefer to keep the comments just for recovery letters so they are easy to find.
I found a really useful website, which I will link below that has many absolutely beautiful recovery letters. Some days a recovery letter is what I really need, reassurance that recovery is possible and that I won’t be in this state forever is really comforting to hear. On the website, you can write your own and get it published if you are older than 18 or you can just read through the many letters written by people that have been through mental illness. The important thing to remember is that, there is hope for your recovery.
The website is:
In the comments, feel free to have a go at writing your own recovery letter. I am going to start everyone off with my recovery letter I wrote. Your very welcome to use the website for ideas of how to start your letter off or to have a read through some on there but please may I ask you all write in your own words.
I hope we can continue as a community to support one another and these recovery letters are just another way of making that possible.
Your not alone in this.
There is hope for your recovery! ♥️
Here’s a short letter to get you all started.