Best Of

I’ve been feeling quite alone, especially when it comes to romantic relationships. I think about having a girlfriend a lot and sometimes even say things like “Mrs” or “missus” to feel more grown up. I’ve never had a relationship, though I’ve come close before but something always seems to get in the way. I’ve tried dating sites but many of them require payment just to see who likes you or to message people, which I find frustrating. Most of the time I don’t feel that spark with people on there and when I do reach out, I rarely get a reply. I don’t feel confident using dating apps and being around 5 foot 4 I sometimes worry that might limit me, even though I know I have good qualities. I’m loyal, funny, ambitious and would genuinely look after the right woman. I’ve been struggling a long time and it can be really helpful to have someone or something we care about and for them to care about us too. I feel that way with this community but it’s unfortunate because early this morning I was lying in bed feeling upset and overwhelmed thinking that eventually I’ll have to finish off here. I still have time left but I believe having someone in my personal life who I care about and who cares about me would be helpful in a more permanent way. Someone who supports me and who I can support back.

I always thought I’d wait until I had a job before getting into a relationship and I probably still will but if the right person came along now I’d consider it. I’ve felt more lonely recently and the idea of having someone now feels comforting, though I’m not putting a lot of effort into actively searching. Ideally I’d like to meet someone naturally through work, hobbies or places I go rather than relying on apps, though I’d still consider using them. I don’t have everything clearly planned out but I know what I want long term. I want someone to go on holidays with, buy a house with, enjoy life and nice cars with and build a future together. A few months ago I didn’t even speak to any females on social media but now I do through a group chat for my course. They’re more just friends though, not really my type and I don’t feel that spark, which I hope doesn’t sound rude. It’s just hard sometimes, trying to get a job, find a relationship and move forward in life. Even though I’m focusing on getting into work, the thought of being in a relationship is on my mind constantly. I’m 23, nearly 24, and I’ve never had a relationship, never hugged a girl and I’m still a virgin, which makes me feel even more behind.